Inspite of all the nega stuff I’ve been feeling, something good comes out… haha… y’all might not really notice since I don’t really show my belly off, but…but…but…MY HIPS GOT BIGGER! Haha.. no, Lance NOT VERY BIG, but it’s kinda emphasized now…somehow.i wanna keep it like this ‘til March… hahaha… BORACAY, HEEERE I COOMMME! Hahaha… :D I’ma buy this white swimsuit… and some flip flops…and a nu beach bag… and I wouldn’t..by any chance, forget that damn sunblock… :D



Things I want accomplished this year:



--+> ‘ta save 500 every month from my miscellaneous money and spend it on Topshop and Beauty Bar…*wink* ( I wanna save up about 3000 IF possible…I’ma be spending it on our tropa gimmicks next March..i wanna accomplish this THIS TIME..PUHLEASE!)



--+> ‘ta shift ‘ta Broadjourn (God help me!!)



--+> ‘ta be organized…ESPECIALLY when it comes to my academics… Lance kept on reminding me about the point average I had ‘ta get…it really helps Lance…thanks…uhm..try ‘ta remind me some more… *wink*…



--+> try being MORE independent… (uhm… )



--+> Learn how to face my fears… *gulp*



--+> gain MORE weight…. Haha… :D



Abbie…”don’t be lost, hurt, tired and lonely, something beautiful will come your way….” ;)



I need somebody to talk to… but no one’s texting me… *sigh* I didn’t wanna text you guys…cus I’m kinda checking if any of you feel like I need you…cus that’s wut a friend really is…you somehow just know a friend of yours isn’t feeling well… haha…Joel is on the phone right now…good thing there’s Joel to talk to… *sob* I guess I’m expecting too much on some of you.. :) oh well, that’s what friends are for…I don’t wanna smoke, or drink either…I just wanna let this all go..but how do I do that? Everyone’s fed up of me. Everyone’s saving their load. Everyone’s busy fixing their life.Everyone’s busy screwing it up, too. Astrology says Cancerians never do drama. But that’s all that’s left in my life right now. And there’s nothing to do about it.



Oh, Len texted… thank God for Len… of all the people I texted today… just Ben and Lance replied… other than that… na-uh… I’m not saying AT LEAST..i’m saying…good thing they replied.. haha… I’m important pa pala… *wink* *sob*



“I’m tired of being alone…so HURRY UP and care..”



if I could just sleep 2 years of my life away, I’d do that. Sleep my problems away, sleep the hurt away, sleep all the pain away, sleep all the crying away, and sleep my lovelife away…



I forgot my tea tree oil at the dorm! It’s my zit-zapper… now I kinda need it…cus I’m starting ‘ta have one. Two words : Eeww and Ouch…



This day is full of sappy songs and movies. The way we were? Say Goodbye? Dammit. And now “sunny came home”…”smoke”…



God please help me… I’m in this pit again, and I don’t like it here… it’s so dark, and lonely…



{pause}



Ben and I just talked on the phone right now... Funny how we started conversation with tears in my eyes and ended wit this big smile on my face. Ben is just so good at that...



we kinda misunderstood each other. i said sorry, for the things i did... he did the same... and it kinda lessened the pain.. knowing that we FINALLY patched things up... cus i wus kinda hurt...about all these advices... i know Ben cares a lot, that's why... well i guess i'm lucky that he actually does...



I should feel lucky that some people do care THAT much. to THAT certain extent... :D



why all the moodswings?



i don't like people avoiding me for things i didn't do... people calling me names... people judging me like this...



DON'T BE TOO OBVIOUS. FILIPINA TRAIT STILL WORKS... ang lakas ng dating ha...

i won't be a hyprocrite not to say that this doesn't affect me...but then...too obvious? of what? being happy? is there something wrong wit being happy?



weird. these are the type of days i wanna say : COULD YOU GO ANY FASTER? yesterday wus like : COULD I JUST STOP THE WORLD, MAKE THIS DAY LAST, or somethin'?



i'm being too emotional. notice...in a day, i blog, like....3 or 4 times. just talking about how i feel... probably...y'all don't really read this, and i'm kinda okay wit that, as long as i just let it all out...



when i made my decision, i wus so scared of the outcome. so scared of wut people would say, would think of me, i'm scared i might regret it. i'm scared it won't go anywhere. i'm scared i assumed the wrong thing.i'm scared i made the wrong move. but i hafta face them...i have to...









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Topshop's website is C-O-O-L! :D when i get to Europe, i am so gonna shop at Cartier,and all them designer clothes... it's like...when i BE-come Donna Jensen...i'ma be like... PRADA, here i come! hahaha....okay Lance don't read this part... :D



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I slept at around past 11 last night. Woke up at 6. checked my phone. 4 new messages. Karl,Aldrich,Lance and Ben… {nice… :D } seeing those 4 text me should’ve made my morning…but I looked next ‘ta me and Mom wusn’t there anymore…happens that she wus up getting ready…then I kinda like called her or somethin’… then the drama kinda starts there… oh well, I don’t wanna tell the rest. I’m not up for it…



I txted Ben this.. “I always thought I was Alice. Only that the rabbit hole never got to Wonderland. It just went deeper and deeper…” he replied telling me that he wus gonna keep that “quote”, and that I should put it in a movie or something…I should add that at some part of falling into that rabbit hole it felt good… then I thought I have gotten into Wonderland or something…but I wusn’t. Then another thought hit me: Did I even follow the right Rabbit?



I wanted to go wit the tropa today…but I can’t…Mum didn’t wanna let me…I spent my money… but yesterday we went ‘ta G4, and I finally….FINALLY got something from TOPSHOP. YYEEEYYY! Haha… oh and I got these CUTE…I mean, really CUTE boy shorts, too! And it has the word ANGEL written on the back… hahaha… :D ala lang… {just cheering myself up!}



I used to think I know who tagged that. But I’m pretty sure it’s not who I’m thinking… I dunno…



Oh well….



p.s.

me being mistaken as Heart, that’s a bad thing, I guess… !!! *&$#(&$^%...



i desperately need a Vanilla Frapp...i wanna go festi...badly...





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my horoscope...

Wow! Never underestimate the power of a chemical reaction. You have recently met someone who sets your fingertips tingling. If you're not attached, this is a fantastic occurrence. If you're already committed, then you find your reaction to this man terrifying, and vow never to see him again. Consider that the attraction might be so strong because you are missing passion in your life. Figure out a way to get it, Lia.. This man may or may not be the key.



and...my rising sign scope...

Are you feeling compassion for others and attracted to altruistic concerns, Lia.? The trine between the Moon and Neptune will be making it possible for you to fulfill some dreams in these areas. It may be that you are already working on your humanitarian goals. But if not, try to find a way to change things in your life so that you have time to do more for others.



Daily numeroscope...

You will get what you want and what you fear as well! This will be a day of realization, notably in your private life. You will be more receptive to your family and spouse. But be prudent...If things are on the move today, be careful that they don't go in a bad direction. Your relationships with those close to your may turn sour...Everyone won't necessarily be on the same wave length as you are Lia.!





Lance nahawa na ko sau.. i enjoy it narin e... hehe... :D ... :(

let's both go to mandaluyong...bagay taung pareho dun e...
;p



Reality does bite..real hard.



Lance i need to talk to you... funny...Me and George are running 'ta the same person... maybe Cancerians and Aquarians make good buddies... ;p hehe... ala lang... Lance, i'll try to be the same 'ta you... i'll try to be the friend that you've always been 'ta me. but i'll give you your time now... there is a time for everything y'know... but sometimes, when things like this happen all at once, it's like...i wanna ask...i wanna shout out... COULD THERE BE A TIME FOR MY PROBLEMS,TOO? can't they just come out...like... one after the other? well..uhm...cus if i have all of them at once, i know after i solve them, another prob would come along...oh well...as long as i don't lose anyone...i know i'll be stronger after this... God, help me...



I pray that my Mum would have a safe trip. i'm trying to be optimistic. 10 months ain't long, ryt? :D



oh well...i wanna drink this off...but it won't help...having a hang-over myt make things worse...



OH WELL...there's still tomorrow.... *sigh* .... *thud* ....



i need a break... i wanna go to Puerto Gallera or Boracay alone..stay there for a few days...weeks, if possible... just me and Mimi... that would be great..



Mum and I watched "A view from the top.." I AM THE FUTURE DONNA JENSEN! ;p ;p ;p

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TALK TO MYSELF by Krayzie Bone



Ever wonder just what it's like talkin to yourself every night?

Will I ever make it through the day?



It's so hard to believe that i'm still living, i'm alive

My clock is still ticking, guessing that God is still with me (with me)

Cuz I could have been gone so many times before

Murda Mo is chasing me i'm barely escaping it

My instincts is tellin me that I might not live long in my life (my life)

My life is a jungle I really don't love it it's really to crumble

I fight with these devils on daily basis

And I try to stay humble

Try not to fall, but what if I slip, trip?

Try to stay calm, but what if I flip?

Kill 'em all

Last night I had a long talk with myself (myself)

Drama had a nigga wonderin, wonderin how close am I to hell

Then I had to pray can't let them brake me, awww nah, awww nah

But it's everyday they try to make me soft

But so fried, so high is my mistake

Don't worry when i'm in the clouds

Well that's how I stay (stay)



Chorus:

Ever wonder just what it's like talkin to yourself every night?

Will I ever make it through the day?

Never thought I make it this far

Kinda wonder just where you are?

Will you ever make it through the day?



Caught up in my complications nowhere to go

It's mandatory that I face them, even though I don't want to

They say karma can murda ya, murda ya

All this drama just got me nervous

Cuz I know i've popped shots that don't stop

They don't stop

Soon as I lose it they know I get stupid

Ain't nowhere to you, to you

Stop, stop, look, look, listen

Where heard them

I'm hearin they put to get me (get me)

Can't let 'em get me

I won't stop dumpin until my clip is empty (empty)

When this one finish (finish) i'm buckin 'til I put my other clip in (clip in)

Then get up spittin back at y'all (back at y'all)

That's cuz the can't get with this at all

The war is really raw (raw, raw, raw, raw)



Chorus:



(Last night I had a long talk with myself)

And I told myself I can't depend on one

No one else



Crazy, crazy this thing done made me crazy

Hate to say it, I done went crazy {2x}

Walkin in the rain (walkin in the rain)

Disaster calls my name

Callin my name feelin so much pain

Wanna get away but ya can't, can't run, run, run



I talk to myself (myself) when there is no one to talk to {2x}

Walkin in the rain (walkin in the rain)



Last night (myself) I had a long talk with myself, self, self

Will I ever (myself) make it through the day?



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Guys, I know you have been listening ‘ta me…but wut I really need right now is someone who could help me get thru this. Y’know how I really feel right now? Somewhat exactly like that song from Avril…uhm, I’m wit you…y’know… the feeling that…you don’t really care who, but just as long as he could help you, make you feel like you’ve found home… I dunno… “it’s a damn cold night, trying ‘ta figure out this life…won’t you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new…I don’t know who you are, but i…I’m wit you…” I’m still lost… I mean, I know I found a place to stay, but then all this happened…for a reason, then I guess I wusn’t really meant ‘ta be there, but I wanna… it’s weird. I just don’t get it. Everything is temporary. My happiness, my friends…do you guys get me? I hate it… when I think I found that person I could just cry to, I could lean on, things happen, like, in a blink of an eye everything changes…



Oh well… George, you hate taking naps? Funny… I like naps a lot. :) well, I know the feeling of like, missing half of your life, but ‘ta me, it feels like I somehow have escaped from all the bad elements around me… it’s where I could find peace… {me in the dorm alone… the a.c. on, it’s so darn quiet…I just like ‘ta snuggle up on that comfy bed and those soft, soft pillows… I usually spray cologne on my pillows, y’know…hehe… :) and before I take my nap, I usually take a quick shower…WOW… feels good…} wut is happening to us Cancerians? My gosh…



If I could only do wut I have been doing back in Jeddah… hehe… I light all my candles surrounding the room, shut the door, play soft music, put some incense, lay on my bed, *it’s really cold* then stare out the window…watch the sunset…I miss the scent of my room! (ja loves it,too… :D ) *sigh*… I had so much time to myself. I didn’t have to do all this “soul searching” back then… I wus never puzzled, confused, hurt like this…back in high school…I guess me and Lance feels the same way now… (if he ever still does…) I wanna go back…way back to when all of this haven’t happened. I wanna change things. I wanna do more.



I shouldn’t have gotten into this….

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DON'T BE TOO OBVIOUS? thanks to whoever tagged that... :D i really appreciate your concern... :) but then is there something wrong wit what i have been posting lately? OH! i know what you're talking about...but then...uhm... i won't mind... so much more to think of...



i didn't ask for all this to happen! honestly... i'm shocked wit all the things i have just been realizing...the things i have been hearing...texts i've been getting...people texting me...people ignoring..people who mind too much... people who ask me out.... {WHAT THE HYUK... Joseph just asked me out...} uhm....now he's like...he just wanted 'ta know me better...uhm..okay, i gues... *mind wanders off*



help?



Am I the only one who actually sees texting in a different way? I believe it could help people get ‘ta know each other, ryt? Probably express what you feel…y’know…the things you can’t tell each other personally… but I don’t think it should be the basis of… I dunno… I don’t wanna..uhm… say anything…{but the heck..this is my blog…}



Awhile ago, on my way to Alabang, I looked out my window…the sky wus really pretty… I mean…the clouds were like, light blue… the sky wusn really dark…but it wus close ‘ta getting dark… then… I dunno… all these mixed emotions came into me… I felt happy, I felt sad, I felt irritated, annoyed, (noticed that there’s just one positive feeling…the rest is negative…) that’s why I texted a few of you guys… just wanted ‘ta talk to someone… but it seems like everyone else had problems of their own… well I understand. I felt that way. I had this HUGE problem once and Len wus trying ‘ta tell me her problem, and I couldn’t even bear hearing her out anymore cus it would make me weakER… it sucks. I know you guys hearing me out could just make things worse… so yeah… :)

And now “someone” told me not to be too obvious…TOO OBVIOUS OF WHAT?

Why am I always misunderstood? The heck… I gave this advice of not minding those people…but I guess wut really bothers me is that I’m not really doing anything, to make people react this way… am I doing something wrong? Did I step on someone’s toes or something? Wut? Is it the way I walk, the way I fix my hair…that irritates people? Or is it the people I hang out wit? (not that I’m mentioning any of u..just that..) Is it me bragging sometimes, or trying ‘ta be honest, or wut..? come on, guys… tell me, wut is wrong wit me? ..i guess…I really should isolate myself from you guys muna… I’ve been thinking about it before… but some of you were like, “No, don’t leave…” but then..things are getting worse…

I wanna share something weird that happened…but I can’t since it involves some people in the tropa… no guys, uhm…it’s not really a problem…just that… I just… I can’t take it anymore… enough of hiding it behind this…smile… whenever I’m wit y’all I’m really really happy…especially when Karl does all these jokes, and when Kelvin and Brian join in…when Basil mocks…when Len cheers me up…but whenever I’m alone…whenever I just let my mind wander off to things… y’know…just let anything come ‘ta mind… I just… have all these thoughts… it’s been trapped in me… then it just adds up…until I wanna explode…but then who would listen to me now? My high school friends, who would have NO idea of what I’m gonna be talking about, People in the tropa who has their own problems...People who aren’t interested… People who have so much to think of, that they couldn’t even find time…’ta lend their shoulder… I know I’ve been lending mine…why is this always happening? i mean, WHY IS THIS ALWAYS HAPPENING?



Why am I always misunderstood of my actions, why do people judge me this way… and now someone’s like…don’t be too F***ing obvious? Where did that come from? HUH?



Y’know wut, guys, I’ve been trying ‘ta build this… friendship…then we kinda encountered a problem… then somehow, some things change afterwards… I dunno…I just don’t get it… basta all I know is that I used to be happy… and now, this… it’s like, you find comfort in this person, then people are like, pushing you away, you try to fight back but then this is wut you get in return…is this how it always goes?



But I guess as I always say…when I get through this, I’ll be so damn proud of myself. Again – another accomplishment. I’ve just made myself stronger… :) you wouldn’t see the beautiful things in life unless you’ve gone through life the hard way…but then I get this feeling..can’t breathe, can’t think well…can’t study..Mum keeps talking ‘ta me but I can’t absorb wutever she wus saying… this is so stupid, like, my mum is leaving on Sunday, I should pay attention ‘ta her… something A LOT MORE important than this, and some guy/gurl telling me not to be too obvious. I don’t know wut the hell I did wrong. Being too obvious? obvious that I WUS happy talking about the things that have been happening around me? … … …



Oh well…



this day is just...UNBELIEVABLE. wow. thanks to uhm...y'allz...



here i am guyz... no one to turn to... no one to cry to...i've been there for y'all somehow...cud you guys like,somehow do the same,too? not that i'm expecting, but i know that's what you guys are for, ryt? we should have this win-win sitch but... i guess it's karma. OMG.

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GIMME ME 5,PLAYER!!!!! hehe...first of all, last nyt, the tropa had dinner early! we were walking on our way out to Cyber at around 5:45... i guess... yeah, and we met everyone and uhm, had dinner at...7... as usual...it's the waiting that takes long... anyways... walking back to the dorm... got this text from... (OH! FOOLISH HEART! HAHA..it's playing...) Drichy asking if we were still there...then...i kinda decided 'ta just call him or something..and he kept talking and talking and i didn't really understand wut exactly he wus saying, only that he wus in La Buena... (no wonder you were telling me 'ta yell... haha...) then, George uploaded the pix on my lappie! :D YEEYY! haha... :D then...at around 9 something, met Mark out...and uhm...Gail came out..then Basil, then Aldrich...haha... :D slept at 1 making an outline of this....stupid...retorrrika..but i didn't take the xam cus...i had p.e. 'til 1... my xam wus at 12...so there... :D



today...uhm... i'm gonna be freakin' tired... ahhh.... i hate it when that happens...we danced for P.E. stupid Itallian dance... hehe... :( oh ... life....



... *sigh*....



and now they're playing JEALOUS... what the hyuk...



k bye...



outtie..

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hey i know "Breakfast at Tiffany's"... :D the song used 'ta play on the radio back in my hs dayz... kinda miss it... hahaha.. .:D



hey, did y'all know this place is...uhm...NEBO's...not NERO's... hahaha...all this time, we're like..."hey, i'm at nero...blah blah..." hehe...



JOEL'S PAYING FOR MEEEE!!!!!!!! HAHAHA.... :D oh well... Lance is paying for Len, too... :D



uhm... okay...yeah....errr... can't wait 'til dinner...can't 'ta see y'allzzz... .:D



MWAH!!!!

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Hey George and Lance..thanks for helping me wit this...







OMG! YEAH! LEN TOLD ME..it's just like....ALDRICH? ... actually...it's like ...the colors... reminded me of us... remember...starbucks? uhm,, your shoelace? you were like... this is my favorite color... and i'm like...i like white... and you said... hey! it has white on it...it has us on it! HAHA... so yeah..now Len says...the star in my blog...looks just like yours in a way...COO'... haha...HYUK! :D, Aldrich...



Lance.... that's a really nice song.... uhm...haha... i also have another one...



"Abbie, waiting a long time..." hehe... this song by Green Day...



we've been here at NEBO's for 2 LOOONNNG HOUUUURSSS!!!!!!!!



*sigh*

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THE SAD PART...



Being an Aquarius Rising, makes you original, creative, and independent. In your continued efforts to make your own unique contribution to this world, you are likely to become an artist, an inventor, or a scientist. You look beyond the world into a universe without the usual borders of time and space, and are passionate about discovering new horizons, and different ways of life. You are a true adventurer, Lia, fearless and self-sufficient.



Intuitive and spontaneous, you approach life without prejudice, Lia. This leaves you open to the normal criticisms of the Aquarian personality, of being erratic, eccentric, scattered or unrealistic. But these problems may only rest with the observer, and not with you. You need freedom, and should not be restrained by rules and restrictions of thought or behavior.



Your dream is to improve the environment to make life better for mankind. Sometimes you come up with brilliant ideas or revolutionary technological discoveries, because you just dare to think out of the box.



Since you are an Aquarius Rising, Lia, you are on a solitary spiritual quest, and tend to detach yourself from human passion, in order to reach the summits of intellectual thought. However, you find your source of power in group activities, and within a close circle of friends. It is possible that you sacrifice your love live in order to be able to be free enough to pursue your ideals. This kind of force of character makes you a very magnetic person because we often like the people that resist our love.



Most of the time you are a fun-loving and friendly individual, even though you can be extremely moody, cynical, and antisocial. Your eternal search for an idealistic life comes before other people's feelings.



DEYYUMM!!! HYUK!...







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check this out...



Your sign is that of sensitive Cancer, the fourth sign of the zodiac, the sign characterized by deep feelings and protectiveness. You are known for being nurturing, hospitable, and imaginative, and all your effort goes into making your home a safe place for you and the people you cherish.



The Moon, is the ruler of your sign, and makes you a very intuitive and empathetic person, Lia. Like the ebb and flow of the tides, you are both receptive to those you love and willing to offer comfort in return.



Being the first of the water signs, Lia, you have psychic powers, and are able to sense feelings and thoughts in others - you feel rather than think. When you love someone, you love truly and deeply, and have the desire to connect on a profound level.



As a Cancer, you rule the fourth house, the sector of the horoscope that describes your emotional roots, your home, your childhood, and your parent of lesser influence, usually your father. Most of all, the fourth house stands for attunement to your inner self.



You are a cardinal sign, Lia, which means that your parental instincts compel you to protect and fight for the security of your loved ones. You thrive on drama, and get stronger in situations of crisis.



Your strengths lie in your ability to adapt and cooperate, and your wonderful way of providing comfort. You are devoted and selfless in your dealings with others, Lia, which makes you a very dependable person. Since you are attuned to your unconscious, you have a strong imagination and are in touch with your intuition.



One of your weaknesses is that you can get hypersensitive and moody when someone fails to show you their love and appreciation. In situations of insecurity, you sometimes show immature, manipulative, and even tyrannical behavior, and others could see you as overly possessive and dependent.





...liked it... i'd rather feel than think...ya-huh... itz somehow always been heart over head for me... i dunno... :D i'm definitely a Cancerian...forever! NO!!! LANCE! i don't wanna be an aquarian... haha... so complex! ... haha...(look who's talking...)



oh,whatever... :D





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WHAT THE HYUK? my rising sign...is AQUARIUS? that is SO not funny, LANCE! ...it's....irritating!!!! ;p uhm...YEAH!!!! :S

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"I'M GOING UNDER....DROWNING IN YOU... I'M FALLING FOREVER.....I'VE GOT TO BREAK THROUGH..."



"Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in

Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again

I don't want to run away from this.."



HYUK! uhm, just kinda thought of these uhm... songz... :D



ohkkkkayyy... so...uhm... practically all of us are occupied wit ...uhm...bad things...hapnin around usth.... but then...





OH WELL..... HYUK!



y'know wut drich...we should go shopping... ...let's go shopping... (okay...okay..so i'm materialistic... so wut? not 'ta that extent... )



:)

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MOM! the heck...don't leave me!!! ARGH... :'(

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hey..love that song..."don't know what to do whenever you are near..don't know what to say, my heart is floating in tears..when you pass by i could die... every minute, every second of the day..i dream of you in the most special way...*kilig*,,you're beside me all the time..." AAHH! :D



i kinda accepted the fact that i really won't be able 'ta study unless all of this is clear...unless we all finally talk about it... i mean, c'mon... WE are a tropa after all...things were so much better before all this happened...even if things are pretty much screwed up, at least we all could still handle it...



just that..when could the tropa be...somewhat like ... a nation? i mean... cus it's like... there are some things that...should be left 'ta certain people... just like... the Philippines... we could like, ask help from other countries concerning a problem that we have, but only 'ta a certain extent. *do you guys get me?* it's like...we could ask help from the U.S. but there are some things that we could settle OURSELVES, ryt? just like us... I could ask help from any of u, but then you guys don't hafta OVERDO it, ryt? just that...some people involved are really helping us get out of this..but some people are just making things worse. the non-stop gossip...people who side on one person...it just drives me MAD...like, GUYS? could you just leave us alone for at least once, and just let us settle this OUR OWN WAY? well, i'm kinda glad that most of the people in the tropa are just letting us do our thang..but SOME just DON'T. i don't wanna mention names...but y'all know ONE person who does this, ryt? ...



HAH...just this thought...i got from out of nowhere... i dunno... like... when that day comes... i'll just give take care of 'm the way he should be taken care of...understand 'm the way he should be...treat 'm the way he should be...love 'm the way he should be..whoever...he is... :D ... "THE ONE" by J.LO! YEEAAAHH! :D



George...i appreciate the honesty you showed me last nyt...feels like i can really really REALLY trust you now...like, TOTALLY! hehe... :)



just want y'all 'ta know... i'ma fight for this... ;p and i'ma wait for the right time... :p :p :p





OMG! "Loving you" is playing on the freakin' radio! ala lang...



oh well... y'all take care.....goodluck on the midz....



HELP SAVE THE TROPA FROM FALLING APART!!!! :D

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I MISS JEDDAH. I remember almost every weekend the three of us would go out to this place called Ballad, we usually eat, and go shopping… :D there’s this mall, just like G4..well not EXACTLY like G4, but it’s where you could like, get stuff like Esprit, Gap, Benetton… and this other mall, Al-Mahmal, which is just like the Powerplant Mall in Rockwell, where you could find Lacoste, Versace…across the street you could find this flea market.. *sigh*… I miss a lot of things in Jeddah… I mean, life is so simple…but then really satisfying…funny there’s this mall in front of our building… :D on our right, two supermarkets…across us there’s this really cool flea market…(you could get stuff for like, 10-100 riyals… )



There’s something wrong wit this freakin’ lappie… ARGH! Sometimes I stay online for like 3 minutes… there’s this automatic shutdown thingymajig… sometimes it takes…like 11-15 minutes…I dunno…this has been hapnin for like…3 weeks… ARGH!!! I can’t download from Kazaa anymore…..PFF!!



Check this out… I typed wut happened on the first week of skul…I forgot ‘ta post it…



June 10, 2003…

8:30 A.M. > First subject… Introduction to Computer… On my way to the MAH building, I saw Aldrich, and we were like the usual… “ALDRICH!!!!” and he would scream back.. “ABBIE!!!!!” so…when I got to MAH,for 45 minutes, we were waiting for our Prof, but then we knew that we weren’t having classes coz THAT Prof was ABSENT!!!! So we ate breakfast at McDo instead! :D

10:00 A.M. > LOGIC! Our Professor, Sir Reyes actually thought I was from… what the heck,…. PANAMA?

11:30 > Religious Education….uhh….it was….okay….

BREAK! For like, 4 hours! So what we did was that we stopped by the Boy’s dorm to meet all the barkada… but all we saw was Lance and Basil, so…we all got to the E-HOUSE, and spent time talking there, and then we decided to “walk” around…then Basil wasn’t in his uniform, so he actually told Lance to change…so we waited for … 30 minutes? And Lance wasn’t even out of the shower yet…so we hang out..in front of the museum, and Ban texted me, so we met up…THEN we saw Jayson and Nica walking…Ban and I were like…”REUNION!!!!” heheheh…so Basil and Lance left… and so as Linda…then we all went to the canteen, and Ban got back to being “THE MOCKER”… we all had nothing to do , but mock anyone we could…No worries…you guys weren’t one of them…

5:00 P.M. > Biological Science… gee… I never really liked Biology, but then I HAVE TO LIKE IT THIS TIME. I HAVE TO LOVE IT THIS TIME… ARGH!

8:00 P.M. > Had dinner at KFC with the rest of the tropa, except for Aldrich.

8:45 P.M. > got back at the dorms… talking to George on the way to the e-house, about my target grade…and he told me not to get a grade not lower than 2… WHAT THE #%$#**# ?!?!



HYUK!!!!! Hehehe… :)





just read Lance's blog.... i don't know how to react to this...

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HELLO HELLO HELLO.... hi there people... I'm not feeling fine... i dunno... i just...i have this soar throat, my head aches really bad... it's like someone's hammering my skull or something... ARGH... Drichy... i told you i slept the whole day thaz why i just can't rest anymore... uhm... i fixed my binder again...had Drichyz pix recopied... haha...his pix looks better than mine... :D so yeah...



i kinda miss my high school friends... i'm playing the songs we used 'ta listen to in high school... "crazy for this girl"... "Good morning Baby"... :) makes me smile... i brought our high school videos home a month ago but i still haven't tried watching them again. i wanna get to the point where i miss watching them and forget the lines we said..usually i feel like i could switch it to MUTE and just lip sync all the lines... funny... :) hehe... (OMG! when wus the last tym i listened 'ta "BREAKDOWN"? coo'... )



My mum's leaving in a week... the pain is gonna be unbearable... although she thinks i don't care... cus every weekend... when i get home, all i do is switch the lappie on and go online... i dunno why i'm like that but Ayah used 'ta tell me 'ta spend as much time as i could wit her cus when she leaves i'll regret it...but if i did that it would just be..HARDER for me. i'm the one she's gonna be leaving behind anyways... i'm gonna miss her blabbering... but i guess she just doesn't see it...



We'll be seeing each other by next year...when i turn 18... i won't be celebrating it the way i "really" wanted to. My plans were that it would be held in THE HERITAGE HOTEL, then there's gonna pix of me, my family and friends all around the walls, then the motiff would be mostly earth colours. Red,White,Nude,Beige,Orange and a hint of Gold. and while the debut is going on,my high school videos are gonna be playing in either this huge screen or a small t.v. just beside the place i'm gonna be sitting in...the background is gonna be...uhm..this really HUGE pix of me... :D and i won't be doin' the cotillion... just the 18 roses, 18 candles...etc,etc... :) i've already designed a gown... and before thinking of The Heritage Hotel, i wanted 'ta have it in Fernwood Gardens... :D but when i checked the hotels, i kinda liked it...although the ambiance in Fernwood Gardens is... exquisite. wit some ostriches running around... :D i wus kinda desperate...then i got frustrated,,,but thinking of all the money that's gonna be spent...ON ONE NIGHT...i thought that... for once...in my life... i wanna celebrate my 18th birthday BY MYSELF. IN A SPA. :D it may seem really mababaw 'ta most of you,but i feel like i want this time of my life 'ta be...u know...oh well... but don't worry, i'm gonna be celebrating wit the tropa, too... EASTWOOD would do, i guess.... uhhm...any other suggestions? :D



*sigh*...Jealous of the one who's arms are around you...if she's keeping you satisfied...she's a very VERY lucky girl...



Oh well... LIFE... :D at least i have someone 'ta lean on now... ;p



Kev...i'm sorry...i really used 'ta be like that. don't know why... but then...at least we talk now, eh? :D and i tell you stuff... :) I'M GLAD YOU'RE PART OF THE TROPA!!! :D



gotta jet... mwah...



p.s.

i wanna watch THE WAY WE WERE...it's an old movie...hah...i kinda love the classics... did you guys know that i wus obsessed wit DIRTY DANCING ??? and PRETTY WOMAN? ala lang...i just dig 'em...try watching them... ;) ABBIE DIGS THA CLASSICS!!!HAH!!! :D

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AAHHH!!! the songs playing on my lappie now...

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Always getting over you by Angela Ammons...

"Was it not enough stimulation

Hit by a brick the other day, just when I thought that I’m okay

You didn't like my conversation

I can't come up with something new

It doesn't really matter what I do



So here’s my observation

You could never see it through my eyes

And I’m too tired to try



So don’t call and say you’re coming back for me

It don't mean nothing I’m always getting over you

And don’t lie and say you’re over me

It don’t mean nothing I’m always getting over you





Was it too much aggravation

You're telling me the way but I won't see

Then I change my mind you disagree



I used to be your inspiration

You chase I run you disappear

I know it’s never over



So don't call and say you’re coming back for me

It don't mean nothing I’m always getting over you

And don't lie and say you’re over me

It don't mean nothing I’m always getting over you







Was it not enough stimulation

Hit by a brick the other day, just when I thought that I’m okay

You didn’t like my conversation

I can’t come up with something new

It doesn't really matter what I do



So don't call and say you’re coming back for me

It don't mean nothing I’m always getting over you

And don't lie and say you’re over me

It don't mean nothing I’m always getting





So don't call and say you’re coming back for me

It don't mean nothing I’m always getting over you

And don't lie and say you’re over me

It don't mean nothing I’m always getting over you

"

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It's over now by Neve...

"She comes up and every time

She'll see what I could be

A cold routine or something

It just won't stop touching me

And I wait here another time

Like a thousand times before

I'm dropping out and faded

But I keep on wanting more

She comes up another time

And she really really doesn't care

That I can't keep time or the rhythm straight

'Cause it's one thing she don't dare

And it's alright I drop the line

Now it's one thing to be free

Well I never really had a thing for that

But it's everything I need



And you don't ever understand

It's right here in our hands

The outline of our lives

It's over now



And she wakes up from a deeper sleep

A nightmare through and through

She won't stop trippin' on the daytime vibe

But that's one thing I won't do

Then it's over, im back again

And she's still on the attack

But I'm convinced I've found a reason

To keep her coming back



And you don't ever understand

It's right here in our hands

The outline of our lives

It's over now



You won't ever be happier

Until you find that special place where you belong

And you won't ever be happier

Until you find that only way

Until you find the only way back home



You don't ever understand

It's right here in our hands

The outline of our lives

It's over now

It's over now

It's over now
"

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OMG… I just thought of texting Ja today… I wus playing “Days of our lives” and I just thought of my friends back in high school…so we texted.. and he wus like, asking if I had anyone… and I’m like…blah blah blah…and then I asked him if he wus courting anyone right now..and this wus his reply… “Honestly, there’s this gurl…ok lang siya…pero I’m stickin to wut I said last tym…no girlfriends during college! Hirap kc… pero siya kasama ko parati… Friends Friends lang…” ( I quote…FRIENDS LANG? uhm… uhh… errr…) I’m like… how am I supposed ‘ta react? I went ‘ta bang my head on the bed over and over…it’s sorta like… “Abbie, wake up, wake up, wake up! You moved on already, right? You DID let go, din’t you? DIN’T YOU?” … Now I guess I could answer Len’s question last tym. How would I feel when you found out that you ex has someone else… my answer? “totally screwed up..” I’m just filled up wit all these mixed emotions, Happy, Sad, Angry,…I keep wondering…What if…what if…what if… and now I’m playing BEST I EVER HAD!!! WHAT THE - ….. Naguguluhan ako!!!! Uhm…what wus my stand before this? PEOPLE!!! Hello? Wut’s my stand before this???? HELLO???



I dunno…just knowing how Ja treats a gurl… it’s like I still don’t want to see him do such to other gurls… the feeling’s like… I wanna keep Ja to myself. Greedy, Selfish..yes I know… (a cancerian trait…) even if Ja and I aren’t together it’s like..i still want him ‘ta be single… but I do want him to be happy… Did I just think that I already HAVE let go of Ja because I wus quite confident that he would REALLY stick to what he told me that he just has NO PLANS of courting anyone…



And how stupid of me ‘ta give this advice…I told him this..” U know wut Ja, kaya mo namang i-balance un e…I mean, kung understanding naman ung gurl diba? :) basta kung san ka hapi! :)” and now reading it I’m like, WHAT THE HECK? Wut wus I thinking?



I’m not comf’table! It’s like…I wanna get myself out of this but it’s how I feel…



Ja….c’mon… you’re kidding, ryt? *WAAAHHH!!* it’s like...i wanna…EXPLODE into…whatever… darn it… I don’t know what to say anymore….



…. …. ….



What’s happening to my love life?

from extinct...to pre-existing... to... what kind of a lovelife is this, anyways?

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Oh, George...it's not your fault i didn't dance in that Acquaintance party... :)

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My mum's gonna be leaving...i guess I wouldn't get 'ta concentrate on studies that much... *darn*... is there anything i can do without my Mum?? *sigh*...

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Wow... my head aches like hell... but i did enjoy today... i mean, honestly, for the first time, i'm happy even if i didn't have a single... (take note: NOT EVEN a SINGLE ) shopping bag.... :) hah...what an accomplishment. we were at Penshoppe, and i'm like... i like this top...but i wanna save my money...but i wus like, lookin' at it, and i'm like.... "NNNOOOOOO!!!!!" haha.... :D anyways... for the first time in my life I'M PRACTICAL!!! AAHHH!!! :D



NINI! that wus really funny... cus she and Ben were supposed 'ta meet in the cinemas...so, she wus like..."Ben, i'm in the cinemas..." so Ben goes there and says..."Nins, i'm here now..." and Nins says..."I'm near the ticket booth..." and Ben says.."Me,too...i'm near Carl's Jr."...and Nins goes like..."I'm near Gerry's grill!"..... LOL!ROTFL!LMFAO! hahaha.... :)



so yeah, i slept at around past 10 last nuit, then woke up at past 10...(cool) i charged my phone, and it wus OFF, then when i switched it on, i just started getting everyone's text... George, Ben... hehe... then i'm like... OMG! i like,told Aldrich i'd be there at 11! so i called him,,,he wus still in the van on his way...and i'm like in my tank top, with my hair all messed up, i haven't eaten breakfast yet...so i just did all that in...uhm...an hour? so i went there wit my mum and I accompanied her...around.... :) and then...when we were done...we met Drichy in Netopia...Mum left then, then Drichy and i were like going around, waiting for Mik, and he says he needs 'ta have his pix developed only that he needed 'ta FINISH them first, and the next thing i know... Aldrich is just taking these freakin' stolen shots... haha...cool.... ala lang... and then...we kinda like.. stopped by Starbucks... ( I DISAGREE , MR. POBLETE! Vanilla Frapps are better.... ;p ) then we met up wit Ben when everyone wus there (MARK IS WIT US!!!! YEEEYYY!!!! and Camille,too...WOW!!!!) , and while they were eating we had his pix developed... after that we met Mik, and (lemme edit some of it....) so it's Me, Drichy and Mik...we ate at "Bibimbop"... (thanks tlga for Lunch, Aldrich.. :D )...after that we all met up in front of Frio and had our studio pix taken... and then... afterwards, we kinda split up, and Ben, George, Lance, Nini, Kyle, Joel, Kevin and Me were together...(mark and camille left after the pix..) Mik and Drich went 'ta get the developed pix and did some shopping...we were at X-site, Me and George were like...LET'S GO SING IN ONE OF THE BOOTHS! haha...but everything wus occupied,and we didn't want 'ta go 'ta that roller coaster thing, or go "racing" (whatever y'all call it) either...so we just hang out...George and Lance were around looking for..uhm, i don't really know, but i think George wanted 'ta get something... so we met the others in front of Penshoppe, then we all got the tropa pix... afterwards...Mik and Drich left...then....we spent most of our time there... and we just talked and talked and talked and talked non-stop... Kyle,Kevin, Lance and George got another studio pic...(thanks Lance, for giving me your copy...:) ) it's kinda sad the others weren't there but i'm glad that we somehow just made the most out of it. too bad we din't go paintball... HYUK! (haha..i miss karl...) i wonder what it would've been like if we were all there...Len,Alex,Basil,Gail,Bryan,Kelvin,Karl... *sigh* but then, like i said, at least we made the most out of it, diba? :)



I'm glad the Muffins helped, Aldrich...but then you should've texted earlier though para nasamahan kita... i mean, even if i wanted to, and mum allowed me to (yes she did...) but then it wus too late cus she wus near GMA. and I had 'ta take a shower and fix my stuff... tsk tsk... anyways... :D thanks din... :D and uhm, you always say you have something in mind... you never tell! eshada? :) well anyways... hope you did well in your exam... I KNOW YOU DID! oh, and MIK! i know you did, too! :) ( MIK, salamat ha! :D ala lang...salamat... :D ) hey drich...remember what we talked about huh... ;)



George, George, George... :) hey George...thanks a lot... i finally found a Cancerian that i can lean on to in times like these... well thanks for sharing those sad *sniff* moments wit me, and for the happy moments,too ! :) it feels good to know that someone TOTALLY understands you...specially knowing that we have the same zodiac sign... i'm just glad you're not like the others...i'm glad you're taking things as calm as possible... thanks... i felt relieved just knowing that at least of them understands... glad it's YOU... glad it's YOU..to be honest enough... i'm glad i met you, George... :) very glad...but y'know what George? if it weren't for this day, i wouldn't really get 'ta understand how the other people feel...so i'm thankful we went thru this... :) i just tend 'ta see the good things happening in situations like these... :)



*sigh*...i never felt this "free" before...i mean, before i used to feel "locked up"... like, i just feel like there are some things that needs 'ta be done, etc... now that it's kinda over, though it doesn't feel that right 'ta me, i finally felt "free"...and the thing is,i finally took the steering wheel... i'm in control of things now. although i still feel scared doing what i like, and not what everybody wants... uhm..kinda gives me the jitters but i guess i'll eventually get past that feeling... just feels good that i'm deciding for myself...and not really regretting everything...although i do regret some...but then i'm like...this is the best thing 'ta do... :) and i'm happy...



but din't y'all notice? you'll be really happy today, and be sad tomorrow... you'll be really really happy the next day, then be really really sad the next... and so on... sometimes,i'll be really really REALLY happy the whole week, and get really really REALLY down the next...why iz life like this...i guess i just hafta be thankful to God, though...i mean, i SHOULD be. God is giving me...a lot... :) ... :D





AH...now i'm telling myself that i am definitely...definitely Matchbox 20... haha... whatever that means...but i am... ;p



AW, i love you guys...



Ben thanks for caring... so much... :)



i pray we all still stick together...





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HELWA... OHKAY...Na-curfew kami kagabi... ... ... uhm..Gail...if you could only read this... :D Thanks gurl..i owe you a lot... :D



George...your song just played... haha... :D "this guy's in love wit you,pare..."



Anyways... uhm..let's see... yesterday...Mum came over 'ta giveme my allowance cus the freeakin' ATM machine wus like,screwed up...only to find out later that i uhm...actually...it's just so stupid of me not to remember to SIGN my ATM!!!AAAHHH!!!! so yeah... :D so,we went to the Admin...saw Joam on the way,told Mum about him...then after that,we left and ate out... then,

we were walking to the 'terminal', saw Drichyz...and Mik...actually,looked like he had a REALLY bad day...like,woke up on the wrong side of the bed...so yeah...i wus on the phone wit my Aunt...so he and Mum talked for a while...it's more of a'chat'...then he left,then mum left... i passed by Len...and went back to the dorm...studied for Consti...(studied? i made an outline ofeverything and i absorbed nothing.... :D but i passed anyways.... kewl..means i can do better! HAH! ;p)



after Consti,we were like,STUCK in JFH... so,Len wus like.... "let's go"... and i'm like.. "!!!??!!!"

then saw Lance and Tony... thanks for the umbrella, Lance... we went 'ta the ERS but it wus already offline,so we decided 'ta go to somewhere,and on the way,Mark catched up... hehe... :D he went to Blitz and we went 'ta Nero...so we were surfing,,,Lance followed...then I left...went 'ta Cyber where most of the guys are... the PC next 'ta Mik wus out of order,and no one wus sitting next 'ta him,so i sat there... and saw Drichy typing..."hi Abbie"... haha....then Drich asked if I wanna eat dinner so there... then we waited for everyone else... (wonder where Karl and Brian wus....) then after dinner... uhm....freakin' bill... haha..that's all i can say...



:) Drich! i wore it,too...!!! HAHA... :D



today...well,we have a 6-hour break... :s



oh,i wanna thank Joseph and Ed for the free Siomai..thanks Len for helpin me eat them... i needed that... ;p



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It feels good to get things off my chest... it's like... uhhmm...having this asthma attack... things are getting better...thanks to len... who never stopped cheering me up... and to kevin...thanks for lending me money! cus...uhmm...i wouldn't be able 'ta u know, go online...so...yeah... :) YEY! the sun is shining again... i kinda missed it... :)



HELLO there..George!...Mik, Drich, Kevin, Jan... Lance...Len... hehe...funny... we kinda guessed where everyone was... we decided not to have dinner tonight...well...uhm...we...kinda...thought...that since..it's me,len, basil and Gail... uhm...we were like...WAG NA!!! ...so ...there...



anyways...i didn't tell you guys about yesterday...i wus wit my cousin!we haven't seen each other for like, 7 LONG YEARS! oh, and it's cool cus we like, have a lot in common... :)



OH YEAH! mids are next weeeeeekkkk! DAMMIT!!!! ... hehe....I used to love Logic, but now it's the one subject that's gonna kill me... Consti...all we have to do is memorize...So as Biological Science, which is quite..interesting...talk about "studying" the Reproductive System...HAHA! lol...joke...



so... yeah... uhhmm... did i forget anything else?



Cent texted....telling me that....ARGH..nevermind..... So...uhm...there... :D



I just did something i never thought i would... my friends back in high school are like..."let's go meet at g4 on friday!" ... and as much as i wanna go... i said... "guys, i made plans already...MY TROPA wouldn't like it if i didn't go... *wink*" hah! imagine that? i chose you guys over them? but...nah... hehe... :D if we made plans first,i'd go wit them,too... :) i'm just trying to be fair...for once...since most of you think that i'm not...but what the hell, who cares? as long as i ... basta. un na un....



George, are we not having dinnerrrrrrr??????? :D ala lang....cus i ate, for like...uhm... 5 hours ago...and i didn't take my nap...i wus working on my binder...hehe...inspired, i guess...



MIK! gumawa ka na ng blog mo!!!! ... that would be cool...if we all had our own blog... haha...

oh, i have to thank Lance cus he introduced me to the world of blogging..

Oh, hi there Lance...hehe... i kinda thought i shouldn't bother you or something... i know you're doing your thang...



uhm...SOME people....don't reply to my texts....... i hope you know who you are.... ;)



just remember this...

no matter what... i still love you guys...each and every one... mwah!.... i know we are totally...Daniel Beddingfield... (actually his album's entitled 'gotta get thru this", ryt? im changing it to.."gonna get thru this..."...haha...ala lang...to the people who got my point... you guys are smart... *wink*..)



GEORGE... DINNNNERRRR!!!!!! it's 7 already...actually..it's almost....8..take out tau! hehe... ... ... ...



mwah, mwah, mwah!!!!!...





...mWaH!



:D

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PAINTBALL,PAINTBALL,PAINTBALL...ME LIKEY! i'd be really happy (really happy? like, in this sitch? if the whole tropa wud do that together,that is)...save up 200 for it, people... plus Movie tickets, plus Frapps, plus lunch...plus transpo... haha... :D just trying to be happy...

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People may think i'm doing okay...that everything's fine wit me,too... but you should probably ask people who know better... but then i think it's useless... me talking about it. none of you would probably believe me. i'm the one who looks bad in the picture. but i guess i just have to let it be that way. i guess wit all the words that have been told, i guess if i try to even explain, there would be no use.



but what the heck. i'm gonna say this straight to the point.



- Lance i had no intentions of hurting you. i told you SO MANY TIMES what i wanted to happen... seeing you like this...i get hurt,too... ( i know some of you are saying..."yea right"...) but then that's the worst part. no one listens anymore. Lance we need to talk. ... i can't blame you for being mad at me either. i just can't take the way some people try to point me as the one who made the mistake. Lance we both know where this all started. YOU told me that. i am aware of the mistake i commited. i won't deny that. but Lance you just have no idea... you have no idea. How hard it was. to everyone who thinks i'm the biatch, y'know what? fine... i'll let you see me that way... Lance just please stop thinking you're the ONLY one hurt here. i know you see me hanging around, i know you see me SMILING, i know i told you i was happy. but i can't be that anymore. not when something like this is happening. I HAVE FEELINGS, TOO... but i'm sorry for the pain i've caused you. but i swear, i didn't want to see you like this. i didn't want things to end up this way. I told myself that i'll try my best to just let things go the way you want them to.



i texted Ben, there was this time he said that i've done nothing in this WHOLE THING?even if he apologized for it,i'm like...FUCK! DO YOU GUYS EVEN KNOW ME THAT WELL TO KNOW WHEN I'M HURT, WHEN I'M SERIOUS, WHEN I FEEL SCREWED UP? HAVE YOU EVER SEEN ME CRY? i guess not. you never...even once tried to hear my side. but i guess it doesn't matter anyway. you think i did all this. i just don't know what to do anymore. i try to ask for help, but what do i get? words that just... forget it. i've been trying to hold back the tears...but it hurts... no one wants to listen to me.



I DIDN'T WANT ANY OF THIS TO HAPPEN! CAN'T ANY OF YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? I DIDN'T WANT ANY OF THIS TO HAPPEN! All i was trying to do was save this friendship. All I wanted was to have Lance there for me. But now things have gotten worse, and I miss him, but i can't have him back, because he's slipping away...i'm not nagmamalinis, but i guess none of you even saw that i cared for him. I did. but then that's the problem wit me. I stop myself from showing that. because i thought it could make things worse. but i was wrong.



Lance,you told me you didn't deserve to be my bestfriend. But i guess it's the other way around...



i can't help but feel bad about everything... here i go again...wit being misunderstood... this always happens. but what else can i do? no one would listen to me...they're gonna take it as "some problem", and that's it. or say that "my problem's worse than yours"...or all they're ever gonna give me is a NOD... and that's it. so, uhm, where are you now, my so-called "friends" who'd say they'd always be there? i try to spill everything out but instead of giving me an advice, what to they say? "uy! alam mo ba kanina... " thanks guys. that's very helpful of you... Wit this kind of situation, it's always Lance i turn to. now that he's what i need to talk about, who am i gonna turn to?



HELLO? IS ANYONE OUT THERE?



i'm only HUMAN...i make mistakes,too...please try to understand that...

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This could have been just another day

But instead we're standing here

No need for words it's all been said

in the way you hold me near

I was alone on this journey

You came along to comfort me

Everything I want in life is right here



Chorus:



cause

This is not your ordinary

no ordinary love

I was not prepared enough

to fall so deep in love

This is not your ordinary

no ordinary love

You were the first to touch my heart

Made everything right again

with your extraordinary love



I get so weak

when you look at me

I get lost inside your eyes

sometimes the magic is hard to believe

but you're here before my weary eyes

you brought joy to my world

set me so free

I want you to understand

you are every breath that I breathe



Chorus



From the very first time that we kissed

I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all

From this day on, remember this:

That you're the only one that I adore

Can't we make this last forever

This can't be a dream

cause it feels so good to me






:D

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there's something wrong wit my fureeaking lappie! ARGH!....

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Hey Mik, Drich... thanks for keeping me company last night...so as Bryan and George. i wus so furreakin bored at the dorm that i had to go talk to somebody QUICK, cus if i don't, i'd go crazy...i guess i wus just fed up of talking to myself. altho i still do that...haha...whatever....



anyways... today, i'm gonna be out wit my mum, we're gonna be in Q.C., in one of her friend's house...tomorrow,i'll be in G4, and on Monday, i'm gonna be at this Hot Spring somewhere here in Laguna. *sigh* can't wait....it's a stress reliever.

Oh, we all are gonna be free next Friday, so i suggest we go out.... TROPA! we have to get a new tropa pix... hehe... and we're gonna be watching a movie y'allz... :)



Well well well… Today’s August 16,ryt?… and as far as I remember… 2 years ago, I wus at Taten’s house celebrating her birhday…and uhh… darn, nevermind...like, I don’t want to reminisce… AHH! Enough of that… anyways… I already had the pix developed! Yey!!! :) don’t worry, drich…y’all gonna get ‘ta see it. It looks CUTE.. haha… :D and then Len has this one pix where she looks really nice. :)



CAN’T WAIT ‘TIL FRIDAY! Let’s invite Ben and Nini… para complete tayo! :) :) hehe… ATC! ATC! ATC! :D



Y’know what I regret the time we went ‘ta Eastwood? I didn’t bring my video cam! Cus that would be fun…hehe…you guys would’ve seen yourselves sleeping or whatever… diba? Darn it… oh, and I talked to my mum about us going back…the best time for us ‘ta go back is…Next sem…yeah…Finals. Right after we all get our classcards and all that. *AAHH! SHUT UP PEOPLE! WAG NA KAYONG KONTRA!* it’s better if we miss Eastwood muna… I swear…I definitely had a lot of fun…definitely. Drichy bring the boxers! Haha… ;p then you should get a black undershirt, and I get a black tank top para masaya… :D



Len, you don’t hafta wait for 2 more years… gosh…I used ‘ta tell Lance that I could go through 3 years witout a BF… and he’s like… “3 years witout being HELD?” … then I used ‘ta say that I lived 15 years of my life witout a guy…I know I could do it and all that…but I guess my first relationship just opened a new door for me…a new life. Uhuh…things do change…they do… but not all… which is good… so I’m like… YEAH… I guess we all need someone to take care of us… but i guess I don’t have to look or anything for that someone…I guess all I’ll have to do is wait. It’s what I pray to God everynight… eventually, things will get even better… I know it will… :)



Lance, you don’t spend much time wit us anymore…kinda missing you already…you don’t even talk ‘ta us that much… but then…I guess I’ll hafta understand… I know…. I know… just that….argh…nevermind…it would just make things worse if I say anything…



Oh well… I better get some more sleep… hehe…Go Drich…GO MANTIKA! Haha… :D



Basil get well soon…



Karl…I wanna have that card….



Mik…I still have that candy I promised you, so you should come wit us this Friday or else…. Haha… ;p



I’ll see y’all next week…

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HELLLLOOOO PEOPLE! HAPPY 6th MONTHSARY TO THE TROPA! Hehehe… ala lang…anyways…



Yes, Aldrich, I do have net access in my woom… uhh… yeah.. OH! HAHA… yeah…the boxers… I thought we were gonna keep it a secret…(sheesh…whatever abbie… :D ) so I’m like…I’m not telling that DRICH AND I HAVE THE SAME BOXERS!ima show you the pix when it getz developed. We had a picture while wearing it before we went ‘ta sleep diba? You guys really sleep like….MAANNTIKAA!!! Haha...ala lang… so yeah… Drichyz, wut’s up? I mean, nakikisama ba ang problems mo sa panahon? Tsk…man… gosh… well things like that happen, drich…c’mon…lighten up! But then…WHAT IS THE REEEEEAAALL REASON? Uhh..i didn’t really get your problem… uhm..yeah…but then like I said, if you tell me..or any of us, we cud help…yeah! We could..remember that line you said…”I finally got it off my chest?” …yeah… :D



Funny..i’m like…”in” my towel! LOL!!! :) kc I wus just gonna take a shower, then I thought of going online…for awhile…



Yes…if they actually just dragged us to be auctioned that would be cool.. but then,like I said, we’re priceless! HAHA… yeah, whatever Abbie… as if they wanted me up there anyways.. what the- you said that ONLY THE DESPERATE ones would like…buy you? Then they were like…”give all your money to Abbie…” and I’m like.. “yeah!” that doesn’t make me desperate, ryt? RYT?...Eshada??? I just don’t trust some gurls out there… tsk…hah…better be safe… ;p



Oh, I saw Andrew last night… wit the gurl who actually “bought” him… ‘twas cool, though… George we should let him have dinner wit us…that wus a good idea… (haha…) it’s cool knowing he grew up in Libya. I mean, wow! It’s like, it would be cool ‘ta ask him how it’s like living there…COOOOOLLLL… hehe…



Whoa…this was a pretty long day… grabe… poor joel…still sick… that’s wut you get for grabbing guy’s legs…PEEEACCCE JOEL… haha… :D here I go wit the mocking again…Basil’s gonna be like “I thought you were an angel…” oh..i’m talking ‘ta Joel now…he says he”s not okay yet… so un…wait…yeah,yeah…Joel…hehe…



Aww…I miss the beach…y’know wut I wanna do? I just wanna sit on the sand, wit the water running up to my feet, and just look at the sky…watch the sunset… OMG! I wanna… !!! like…right now… darn it…I guess the only thing lacking is… :D a dog. Joke! :)



Eastwood…I wanna go Eastwood…. ARGH… let’s all go back probably by…next sem. Para masaya…para makasama ako. Let’s all go on a skul night…haha… para happy..let’s see how things go…. Cus I kinda told my mum that…argh..forget it…



Anyways…people… please try to reply to my letters… … … :)



Lance…you’re already doing it…I think…but just ..continue…things will get better….. I know they will… you know they will…ryt? …



Okay, I guess that’s about it… it’s already 11 pm, I still gotta take a shower… it’s COOOLLDD! It’s like…sakin nakatutok ung AC tska FAN! AHH! I’ll be freezing when I get outta the shower…so yeah…see y’allz…by next week probably… :)



Mwah,mwah,mwah!!!!



I’m outtie….



p.s.

looks like I’ll be able to post this…uhm…at home? Cus I ran out of load…smart…hehe…uhhmm…so..yeah…fine…I get to post this at home…

it’s August 14 today! … 11:06 P.M. ….hehe… :D







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"YOU NEVER LOSE IN LOVING! YOU ONLY LOSE IN HOLDING BACK..." ... the quote used to "echo" in my head, and i wrote this letter to Ja wit that quote...and it hit him... haha..i could kinda relate to it now... :) but..still...I'm HAPPPYYYY! ;p

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haha... we almost didn't do anything the whole day...we didn't attend the PolSci Debate...and we didn't have any lessons in REED, all we did wus talk about our presentation for the next meeting...cool..i get to play as a POPE. a BISHOP. and we'll be adding some humor to it, like, doing a commercial or sumthin'...haha... :D





Basil i pray you'd get well soon... and that things would be okay between you and the other guys.... tsk tsk...



newayz... i told my mum that i wouldn't be joining the next time we all go, but...i wanna...i wanna...i wanna... :D i don't know how i could, but i guess we just hafta leave on a skulnight...haha...gosh...uhhm...kailan kaya?





"...I need a love that's strong... I'M SO TIRED OF BEING ALONE.... Love's knocking on my door... " haha... :D



...."Loving you..is such an easy thing to do...no you'll never know *sob* it's driving me crazy cus IT GROWS and GROWS...but i won't let it stop, no i'm not giving up...loving you...just a bit too much..." :)



I'm outtie... :D

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i love this tropa....

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HALU! BONJOUR!! :D heeeeyyy...wuz'up y'allz? haha... i just can't stop thinkin' about August 9... and the pictures...George...the pix on your blog made my day...



last nuit i attended the novena, and it wus cool cus i got to meet MARK, and had this conversation wit him... then i get to pray for what i want. For what I really want. this time, i wus just so happy to ask for it. But thankfully, i think it's already happening... it is...yes it is...



:)



"to more tropa outingz"...



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lance...thanks for sticking wit me...appreciate it... :D gosh... but you had to guard joel!! HAHA!!! :) nytzies! :D

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so here i am in front of my lappie, reminiscing about every single thing we all did together...of how excited i wus in greeting y'allz GOODNIGHT in person.like, i usually text it to you... so i wus like, ALDRICH! i get to greet you in person!!! GOOOONIGHT! hehe...And Len just smiles... :) then when we were eating at Fazoli's, i told George how cool it wus to me, it's like, 2 A.M. and we're still here, eating pasta... i mean, WOW! if we were in the dormz, we'd be asleep...



anyways... i wanna thank God... because he like, made it happen. God made it happen. we did it. we got to Eastwood.Safe. We were happy. We still are. ( i think we are...aren't we?) it wus tiring, but it was ALL worth it. :)



mum's like, pissing me off... it's a good thing..time to bring out mum's ticklish side...HAHAH..

and oh, mum liked all of you....



Guys...just want you to know... it's one of those..."most unforgettable nights"... you made me think of it that way. i mean, if it weren't for all of you people...gosh... :) i...i love you all...i love you all.... :)



mwah,mwah,mwah!!!!!!!! MWAH!



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You guys, just have no idea how much fun that was. So this is how it went… :

I got to ATC at about past 6, met Nini and Len in Seattle’s Best Coffee…then George texted and said that they were near, so we went to Starbucks, (w/c is just in front of Seattle’s Best… :D ) so we waited for everyone there…and I was waiting for SOMEONE kase we were supposed ‘ta get a VANILLA frapp together…but he like,took long so I got one…HAHA… :D anyways, Drich finally gave moi a lettuh! (The one he and Mik promised. :D ) anyways,so…uhh…we got out of Starbucks and the others just decided to get some food in Burger King (surprisingly saw Upz on the way…cool..), while, Lance, Me, Drich and Kev decided to stay out… then Kev and Lance went somewhere and Drich bought something from Bench Body… then he bought load…then Karly boo boo called, and he wus like…”C’mon guys, where are you?”… we all met up in front of B.K., while George thought of this really…REALLY cool idea of checking the attendance. So, a yellow pad was passed on ‘ta us… the usual Name, Section, Signature… which is really cool… hehe…so after that Drich had to withdraw,so we like, went ahead…and saw Upz on the way again… :D after that, the rest of the tropa followed us, and we all headed ‘ta the attente aire… and got into Joelz van… so far...i think this is the seating arrangement…Joel stays in front, then it’s Drichyz,George,Me, then it’s Gail, Basil, Karlz, Kevin/Lance (lolz), then I think it’z Alex, Len and Ninz… I think… ne sur, so we all play the CD that I burned…mostly had the type of music that you’d listen to when you’re on your way to your so-called “NUIT VIE.” And switched ‘ta Slow Jams…it’s like…made thingz flow smoothly. So, when we got ‘ta Eastwood, we were like…”Okay, where do we go FIRST?” we tried “Ipanema” first, but then some of us didn’t like, have our I.D.’s, so ( you have ‘ta be 18 ) so, we checked Blue Onion, and it was…sooo…FULL…so, we went to “The Basement”, ( where the launching of the Q-Club London line was held ) so Drich and I got to pay first, then there’s like, this certain dress code we had to follow, and one of us broke it…Basil Al-Obaidley. (but honestly, I wasn’t mad or didn’t put the blame on him, it wasn’t his fault.) I wus cool about it…actually we all were. So we had to refund our money… and we decided to wait for Joel…so when Basil got to wear shoez, we all got in… and … … that- that was definitely how I define “clubbing”… ;) but when we got in,no one wus dancing yet,so we went out and about 20-30 minutes later,I get a miscall from Drich,so I called him and he said that people are already going crazy,so we all went back and got some drinks. I din’t get ‘ta have a Cosmopolitan! When I got a SanMig light, Karl wus like..”NOO…Abbie, NO WAY…” ( he told me the last time we got tipsy, I wus asking him if I could sit on his shoe,so he said…”No more Cosmopolitan for you!!!” ) after drinking 2/3 of a San Mig LIGHT bottle, I felt really dizzy, and sleepy…in other words, Tipsy. I din’t eat anything before we drank ;p so I had Lance and Joel to like, watch me…actually, Guard me…’ta like check out if wus already doing anything stupid and all that. I wanted to shake thingz off the dancefloor, but the prob is I couldn’t leave my bag ‘ta anyone…or is it that I’m SHY of leaving my bag ‘ta anyone… so I just sat there on the stairs…leaning onto Lancy for support…then found Karlz checking if I wus okay… Len,Ninz,Alex,George and Drich were dancing…(darn… ) so…when this guy said that we shouldn’t be sitting on the stairz, we all just went out and sat down in front of Jack’s Loft (I suggested we go there, cus the place looks really cozy,but then we were like,we came here for dancing,barhopping…but Jack’s Loft wus a Dessert Bar…so, yeah…JOEL said we should just try something ELSE. And I’m like, “oui…like, who’s up for fancy dining anyways?” * I am* ) so, as we sat down, Beanny Benny boo boo called up…so, the three of us were like…”BEENNN!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!!!” hehehe… then after a few minutes of people watching…(actually Lancy and I were BABE watching..i’m gonna be like…”Lance, check that out…she has some nice ass..” and he’s gonna be like, “YEAH..” :D heheh…) the rest came out and then… well…uhh…I think… most of them were up to dancing some more, but I think they didn’t push through… i think we ended up eating in this Itallian Resto “Fazoli’s.” then afterwards, we all hang out in that same place…in front of Jack’s Loft…sitting…talking…waiting for Joel…had this “pictorial” (haha! George,,,it wus fun…) then slept…we were so bored but I guess we somehow managed enjoying it…taking funny pix of ourselves,posing for the camera non-stop…me and drich would just model…hehe, while Joel wus busy grabbing on every guy’s legs. .. HAHA! At around 3 A.M., thankfully Joel got back to his senses and decides we shud go home. When we got “home”, we all just took a shower, talked a ‘lil bit and drifted off…weird Drich had some fast music plugged in his earz and still managed to fall asleep. Well I know that when I pop “Korn” in my Discman I fall asleep really fast..and sleep like an angel... JOKE… haha… and what the- Lance and Kev were the only ones who weren’t wit us! And the thing is, I wake up and found Joelz head on my bed….just…riiigghht beside me… I’m like….”OH MY—“ :S Lance, I told you! Bantayan mo ko e! hehe… ala lang… :D I wus kinda prepared for it..but the last tym was worse… HAH! You wouldn’t wanna hear it. The next day, most of us woke up early, except for Drich and Karly boo boo… (mantika sila matulog, in fairness!) so we were the 2nd batch…of people ‘ta eat breeeeaaakkfasstt… it was really cool…especially Kevin… ;p you should’ve heard it… :D I swear… some of the guyz had to get back ahead, and the only ones who were left was, Lance,Me,Drich,Kevin and Karly boo boo. We were dropped off at festi, and they got to meet me mum,… hehe… GUYS! Mum liked all of you! :) she did… haha… :) but then even if the rest like, went ahead… (tsk…bessies Len,Ninz and Gailey left me!! but nagpaiwan tlga ako kc I wanted to make the most out of it…) … and George, Alex, and Basil went ahead,too… *sigh*…





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watch out for HOLLYWOOD HOMICIDE ( my ex Bf, Josh Hartnett is in it) and GIGLI! :D Tom Cruise's got a new movie,too...so as Brit and Chris...kewl.. ala lang... im sleepy...



NUIT! AU REVOIR! :D

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Wednesday night, we were in the canteen...Basil ordered Siomai...(for 3 damn timez! :D ) and i ate,too...and we were like..."damn,this is HO..HOT"... i turned Red and Basil got teary-eyed. then we all decided to eat there... so we did... it felt good,though...i wasn't worried of curfew, and we didn't have to walk all the way to get to the dormz... Lance told me he cut himself while he was taking the cat's skin off... he even said,"stupid cat!"...and i'm like, "no, you're stupid...not the cat..." hehehe....



Thursday Night...cool...Drich and Mik ate dinner wit us. But there's this thing... that happened in the jeep... it wus HORRUBLE.i swear... Mik and Drich were like, nice enuf to listen 'ta what happened...and Drich even told a story about something...quite similar... haha... kewl... then while we were eating Basil did something BAAADD... haha...but i wusn't angry... i'm cool about thingz that nyt...UNTIL... after novena,Mik and Drich brought their CATS and...uhh... y'know... :(

tsk tsk...



Friday... *whew*... George, really sorry we didn't watch the Chorale wit you...



i'm so excited about tomorrow night...but then not TOTALLY cus some aren't coming,like Kevin and Kelvin...Karl,Mik and Drich aren't sure... GUYSTH!don't do this!!!! ...



Mimi's beside moi! Mimi, my pup... :D y'all would see her... i'ma let my BGF, LANCY...puhlease fix me blog! :D :D :D yeah...but then iz otei...im not having my pix developed yet... :D i want this collage of pix as my background...Lancyz gonna help me...and speaking of Lance...LANCE...hey...you haven't been replying...bad ka... :(



Love this song: Loving you by Nina...



Its been quite a while

You've really kept me wanting you

You've got some style, you're so unique

So beautiful, so warm, so deep



Stay with me tonight

Let me know the kind of love

That will remain and forever be

A dream that you have made reality



Lovin' you, (woo) is such an easy thing to do

No, you never know it's drivin' me crazy

Cause it grows and grows

But I wont let it stop

No, I'm not givin' up lovin' you, oh lovin' you

Just a bit too much



It's been quite a while

I never felt so easily

Wonder how you broke my style

You're close to me

I need you now

Stay with me tonight

It's got to be just too much love

That will remain and forever be

A dream that had become reality




:D haha... listening to it right now...



well i guess i better sleep now...i'm gonna be using ALL my energy tomorrow night. HAH!

God, i pray that we'd all be there... please? :)



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HAH!i'm in the mood of posting it again...so HEEEERRE it goes...Tuesday night, we get to ride the jeep three times just to get to Red Ribbon...really cool... actually y'all myt be wondering why...so this is what happened... we all decided to try this new Korean Resto along Miggy's.In a few seconds of getting down from the jeep, a whole PACK (yes, PACK) of Koreans headed for "5+2"... and our jawz just dropped... we were like staring at them as they filled up the place... Aldrich tried asking if there were vacant tablez, turned out there were none... so a few said...let's go Frio! so, we rode for the second time, and as we got down, we were outside, checking if there was enough "space" for us...then all of a sudden, i heard Lance Prodigalidad say, "NO!let's not eat here!!!" and i'm like..."What the-"... then i said, "Yeah...letz not eat here..:D" then Drich said..."Let's go Red Ribbon!" i guess this time ALL of us (thankfully) agreed...so, we were having dinner...although we weren't on this LOONG table, we still somehow managed "joining in" their conversations and vice versa...so there was this time, when Karl was talking about stuff....y'know, Shit... (literally)...and as we heard it, George just stared at his plate and i droped the silverware on my plate and stared at Karl for the longest time. :D hehe... he was making fun of everyone he and Brian did "that thing" to. i have no idea what they call it, but Brian does it to me,too...and he looks really cute when he misses... hehehe... :D that was Tuesday Night... :D

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DAAAAMMMMMMIIIIITTTTTTTT! I JUST POSTED THIS....ARGH!!!!! DARN IT! IT'Z GONE! what? you guyz expect me to type it AGAIN? jeez! this always happens...

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Something about the way you looked at me,

Made me think for a moment

That maybe we were meant to be.

Living our lives separately.

And it's strange cause things change,

but not me wanting you...

So Desperately.



Ohhh, why can't I ignore it.

Yeah, I keep giving in,

But I should know better,

Cause there was something about the way you looked at me.

And it's strange cause things change,

but not me wanting you...

So Desperately.




;p

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i'm gonna get real pissed if i don't get to see Nini and Ben in skool today...anyways...this entry , i was supposed to enter it last night... ... ...



HAH! You guys wouldn’t imagine… I was walking on my way from Church when all of a sudden, this guy comes up ‘ta me. ..asked for my digits…and I wus like,asking who wanted to get it, and he said he wanted them…so instead he asked for my name, and introduced himself, and in a VERY nice manner, I said…”uhh, pwede bang hindi nalang” and he said…”o sige…” … well, even if I do see them in Church every Sunday, I guess I just can’t trust people easily nowadays…



OH,OH!i tuned in to the Lifestyle Network, and saw Sean John’s (P.Diddy) Fall Collection last year…he’s doing a great job, I must say…those lux but trendy coats…and, VELVET? Whoa. And the HOT male modelz… hehe… :D great designer… :D but I read this article on CosmoGirl and found out that the Olsen Twins earn a lot and I mean, A LOT wit their clothing line… :D wow…Oscar de la renta’s fall collection is so CHIC! :D cashmere, fur, black, pointy shoes… love his designs! Hey….this is cool… like the leather hats… oh, check out the fur hats…oh, it’s inspired mostly by Russia.. no wonder… OH! Look at that jacket! It’s got a gorgeous fur trim on it! HAH! ARGH! I ADORE HIS COLLECTIONS! And look at those boots! My gosh! And look at that black dress! Lace and Chiffon! OMG! That see through black top… gorge,gorge… :D

Know what? I’ve been designing clothes since I was in 4th grade. I used to design my own dresses and have them sewn. :D … maybe I should design clothes,too… just today, we went to the flea market, and I got a white corduroy cloth. I’ma design a dress…and have it sewn,too… COOL… :D Oscar De La Renta IS the man! I should put Zac Posen aside first… and Alexander McQueen… I don’t care if it’s last fall’s … I like it! Hehe… :D



well last nyt i felt like putting Zac Posen aside,,but i won't..hehe..



... so..today, like, if i don't see those two, i'd be really pissed. and nini didn't even tag me... too bad... and len isn't replying to my texts asking if ninz and ben are still there..



Drichyz!you otei? wuts wit that text? man, i know...life dus suck but... well....just keep your head high...don't give up,man... thingz will eventually get better... but one thing i can definitely assure you is that... ITZ NORMAL! the way you're feeling...we all go thru that emotional crap. i mean, i've been there, and you know what i almost did... then you told me that...and now i'm telling you that... ... ... i'm here for ya, you knoe? :) see you around..make alotta ingatz...and make it good... :D



*sigh* "...i've been sitting here,trying to find myself...i get behind myself..i need to rewind myself..." ... :) ..."i'm sorry i can't be perfect...now it's just too late, and we can't go back, i'm sorry i can't be perfect.......



....

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y is my 411 in bold lettuhz? (LAAANNNCE!) ..hehe... i haven't thought of the right stuff to put there... :D but anywayz... just thought of sharing some stuff... :D

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another song i found ... kinda mushy for most of you.. but i love it... :D

Say Goodbye by S Club...iz their last song btw, they already disbanded... :'( it's one of those groupz that i've kept an eye on... since they started... i don't know...i like 'em...i had this vcd on how they started and all that...i've always adored brit accents... and i like Hannah...



this is for Ja, btw...we should've been celebrating today... :D August 2, 2001...11 p.m. :D i remember crying... :) iz like...i couldn't sleep well..and everytime i wake up...i always ask myself if i wus just dreaming or something...sometimes i wake up to find myself smiling...like...wow... He loves me... :D ala lang...



In the years to come

Will you think about these moments that we shared?

In the years to come

Are you gonna think it over

And how we lived each day with no regret

Nothing lasts forever though you want it to

The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you



Chorus:

Sometimes goodbye

‘though it hurts in your heart

is the only way for destiny

sometimes goodbye

though it hurts is the only way now for you and me

Though it’s the hardest thing to say

I’ll miss your love in every way

So say goodbye

But don’t you cry

‘cause true love never dies



In a year from now

Maybe there’ll be things

We’ll wish we’d never said

In a year from now

Maybe we’ll see each other

standing on the same street corner

no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars

If only I could stop the world

I’d make this last



Chorus:

Sometimes goodbye

‘though it hurts in your heart

is the only way for destiny

sometimes goodbye

though it hurts is the only way now

for you and me

Though it’s the hardest thing to say

I’ll miss your love in every way

So say goodbye

but don’t you cry

‘cause true love never dies



And when you need my arms to run into

I’ll come for you

Nothing will ever change the way I feel





... :'( .... :D ala lang...



let's see...George...our horoscope sez...as of August 2, 2003 :

Cancer June 22 - July 22

Prepare yourself: It might be harder than usual for you to talk to your parents today. You may have been wondering how to ask their permission for something -- and there may be nothing you can say that will get you your way.

and another one:

Cancer!

A work situation may be getting a bit more complicated than you initially realized. Your career goals may not be in line with what someone has planned for you. A sudden realization may make you consider other options.

...hmmm...



cool... George...thanks... you want me to burn one for ya? just give me a blank cd.. k? :D

im havin a hard time getting a good copy of "Magic Stick" and "My love is like...wo"

... i can't wait, i can't wait!!!



and altho Ja can't read this... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JA! i really don't want him to know about this site... it would freak him out..altho i'm already happy like he is wit his life...IF he ever gets to read this...he would think that...you know..which is...not... you know... :D there's so much i wanna tell about my current "status" right now...but i just can't... :D but iz all good... :D



Aiman, a good friend of mine...(he's in the states now...) he's doing a Manga of us..his friendz back in hs... and...i have to say..his drawingz are far more than great. and i have a very COOL character... :D tsk tsk... i think i'd end up wit someone...in the manga... ala lang... :D



speaking of the states...i guess y'all HAD no idea...my 'rents had plans of me studying in the states..somewhere in L.A. ... Azusa Pacific University... cool school... but they didn't push thru... sad...



ala lang... :D





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i finally found a song.... :D YEZZZ!!!

The One by J.Lo



taking away

the fact that i care about you

it's just your ways, so sweet

everything seems right around you

did you know

that you had this calming way about you

in your touch

and i wanna know if i could be your girl



[chorus]

the one who puts her arms around you

the one who lays her head beside you

the one who listens when you need it

when no one else sees, i can see it (your girl)

the one who knows when somethings wrong

the one who knows your favourite song (your girl)

the one who all your family loves

the one you place no one above



i'm happy to say

in a lot of ways you've changed me

makes me smile

when you said that you were glad the day you found me

i'm wishing away

any harm that might ever find you

heaven knows

i really feel, i'll always be you girl



[chorus]

the one who puts her arms around you

the one who lays her head beside you

the one listens when you need it

when no one else sees, i can see it (your girl)

the one who knows when somethings wrong

the one who knows your favourite song (your girl)

the one who all your family loves

the one you place no one above



your girl your girl your girl

i just wana be the one who's true to you

i just wanna be the one who makes you smile

the one who holds you down

your girl





.... HEHE! who's it for? BIG SECRET! :D hehe... actually..it's a nice song...



btw, Mum called Ja...he was in his CWST class... imagine..celebrating your 18th birthday up in the mountains... silly ja...sayz he could "finally" watch freakin r-18 movies...Ten wus ryt,,,like,HELLO? he's been watching them eversince...talk about Orignal Sin, in which he borrowed from ME. we both agreed they had some purreti good scenes...hehe...Angelina Jolie and Antonio Banderas should definitely do another movie together...don't y'all agree? hehe...bad Abbie... but then... they do look good together,don't they? ... uhh.. yeah...



i'm burning the CD we all gonna listen to when we're on the way to the bar... it has....U don't have to call,I want you,Magic Stick,Shake ya tailfeather,Rock wit you,Can't hold us down,Like glue,where is the love,Ignition,I know what you want,Let me blow your mind,My love is like...wo,(mr.bartender) it's so easy,act a fool,in da club,say what?,seniorita,family affair... :D cool...cool...can't wait... :D



anyways...i'm crossing my fingers the whole week..that everyone would come...but..wud we fit in? where are we gonna ride btw? (HI JOEL) oh, we should talk about it over dinner this tuesday night. the tropa should be COMPLETE this time. c'mon guys..like i said..we need to take mr.stress off our system... a cosmopolitan and long island tea would help. :D



see y'all ...



i'm outtie..



p.s

watch out for my movie! Legally Blonde 2: Red,White and Blonde ... :D Reese Witherspoon is ma HERO! lolz...

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Wow...what a day... :D well...i was in my Retorika class, when i looked out the window, i saw a bunch of bio students taking a FROZEN CAT out of a fridge. made my eyes...uhh... well... let's say...nearly popped out... :( it's sad to see dead cats. i remember seeing this cat who got run over... i remember crying! HAH! it may seem shallow to you but it's not 'ta me. i'm the BIGGEST aminul lova... it's sad people treat them that way. like they're some toy... if i see a stray cat, and as long it's not mailap,i'd touch it... they'd say.."Abbie, don't! that's dirrrtty!!" and i'm gonna be like... "@&#&^%!" hehe... ala lang... :D



Thank God for Gail...i got my I.D. back last night... then when i went back to the E-Houz for Root Beer, i saw Sister and complained about it...then it lead to..."let's see if y'all attend our acquaintance party"... and i said.."sure, sister! Kung gusto nyo,kakanta pa nga ako e!" ...*silence*



i wus kidding! :D but then...if you guyz bring earplugz i'll sing for all of you... :D i'll be singing "SWAY"... :D or "STAY"... cool...



last night Upz and I stayed up 'til 2 A.M. talking about life...life...life... and i woke up at... 6... :D went back to sleep, woke up at 7, and took a shower... :D



i just realized...we should be thankful we still get to wake up in the morning..."another day..." ...



hehe...uhh... lance...how am i gonna make the letterz smaller...and bold... i am such a igno. :D



email me!!! Blanc_lapin@hotmail.com

it means "White Rabbit" in french...again, inspired by The Matrix... :)



*sigh* time's almost up. i kinda g2g. haven't eaten dinner yet...and iz so fureakin' COLD here... oh, Len and I are in the ERS, btw. :)



hope to see the tropa today... i'm gonna miss you guyz...for....about...3 dayz... la lang...





I WANT MY MUM!!! :D





i'm outtie...



p.s.

Karlz...get well soon..tho i know you don't blog much...:)

last nyt was a blast... :D

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