THE OTHER DAY…



Woke up at 6 A.M. feeling a lot more worse than last night. Went back to sleep. Woke up at 8 A.M. felt better, but then… OH, great. I got the colds. And sore throat. Great. Looked for that roll of tissue in the dresser… Had this flashback…Cameron Diaz from “ The Sweetest Thing” … lalang



A bin full of used tissues later, (eew) I popped the 3rd strepsil into my mouth. My grandma barged into the room later and handed me my medicine and told me to take it… thanks to her, she also bought me 6 choc’lit marble doughnuts. YUM-MY. Made my day.



Past 6 P.M.., I wus still sitting in the kitchen, chewing on turon. Finished half of it when I looked at the clock and it was 6:20! The heck! 20 minutes late for church! UGH. Got there at 6:30. Decided to just stay out (like all the other late people). Well, I din’t thank God for me being able to shift ( well I did, the day I got in, and the day after…) but I did pray for Lance. Pray he gets to shift, too. Don’t want him to leave… it would ruin everything. Hey, we are starting anew.



Cool. Tomorrow I get to go shopping… finally. Good thing Mum let me. But I won’t be shopping much by June… well at least I get to ‘celebrate’ being able to shift. It’s a big step. Y’all might think of it as something real shallow, but I thought it helped me see life in a new way. See where everything’s going. Guys, I got in. I did it. I will be what I wanna be. I will do what I wanna do. And this is just the beginning.



Guess I gotta go take another warm shower before I hit the sack. Gosh…I need a massage. It’s been centuries since I had one. If I wus in Jeddah, I’d call on to Mum and she’d massage me until I doze off. *sigh*… and whenever my legs hurt… miss my Mum.



Oh, and hey… Joel’s birthday is on Thursday. He says we’re gonna be doing the same thing… Eastwood as usual. Pray Mum lets me. *crosses fingers*



Bonsoir….



MWAH!



Oh, and… Abbiekins? Haha! It’s cute. Like it. Nice one Drichy. It’s so Veronica from “Archie”… I’ve been calling my Mum “Mummykins” ever since… (my Dad would really hate it if I called him Daddykins…just like Veronica..hehe…)



Can’t wait ‘til tomorrow! Hyuk. But…something else is bothering me. I have this weird feeling. Kay has been acting real weird. Jeez. I guess that’s what you get for not seeing a the person for…3 weeks. Haha. Funny. Wow…can’t wait to have that I.D. pic and finally get back to the dorm. Live a life again. Of course I do have fun wit my cousins and all that…I love these guys. But I wanna spend time wit you guys,too… I MISS Y’ALL ! SOOO MUCH!.. at least I still get to see you…some people I don’t…since October 12th. Ugh. Kay is one of them.



this is all something new for me peepz...



YESTERDAY...



Arrived in Glorietta at around 11. Before Topshop,passed by Kikay...saw these really cute Newsboy caps.had a flashback of Heart in "my first romance" trailer...OMG. i'm in Kikay. Heart is Kikay's endorser. This nice lady comes up to me and says i should try one on...I'm like..."uh...no,it's okay"...hehe..anyways, here goes the real thing: First stop: Topshop. looked around, found a top...tried it on. I'm not feeling it. looked around...found this white top...a white strappy, cowl neck top. tried it on...loved it!...hehe...i wus also supposed to get this stripped black and white tank top but then i remember Heart wearing the exact same thing for her Seventeen shoot. Okay. let's skip the tank top. Got another Black top...looks like a corset...then saw this really cute frilly mini skirt. But i might wear it...once,twice. not practical. decided not to. so i paid and we ate lunch...Pancake House. i love MMC:3! it's what me and mum always eat aside from Pancakes. hehe. Mum and I would always go on a date (aww)... we'd go Friday's, Don Henrico's...



...the last time we went ta Friday's this bartender wus giving us compliments about us looking like sisters. Mum looks at me, and here she goes wit the eye blinking... i'm like... "UGH"... hehe...but honestly i hear it everytime...anyways...



after lunch we headed ta G4 to check out U. XOXO... *inhales* love their tops... but then i looked at my left and i saw..... *drum roll*... BABY PHAT. sounding like Lance, i thought... THIS IS TYT! ... BABY PHAT IN THE HOUSE! hehe... hmm...then checked out Essenses. found NARS. darn, i remember the first time i got NARS,it wus about 1300...hehe. it's Nars, anyways...so I'm like...since i have Nars, let's skip Nars and let's check out Lancome...so we did. JUICY TUBES!...i read in a mag that it tastes really sweet, just like strawberries. hey it does matter. #17. that's the color that matches my tone, but i already have that color...went to Bobbi Brown...decided to get a lipgloss there...passed by MAC, saw that really nice sales"lady" (hehe...he's gay but REALLY nice and pretty)... then went to Cinderella, my couz got herself a pair of Chuck Taylor's... then we went ta Mango... UGH. i shouldn't have let go of that XS basic white shirt!... grr... saw Megan Aguilar there. so i got this grey razorback tank top instead... i wus furious, i shouldn't have let go of that basic white shirt...AHH...no matter what, i'm definitely going back for one. hmp!... next stop: Defect. really cute. really cheap. i could not believe my eyes. :D... after that, we went ta Beauty Bar...my couz got...a lipgloss... (the one stolen from me...) then Guess... got a shirt...then...went to Tower Records. Unfortunately, no stock of Mandy Moore's "Coverage" and Lilix's album... went ta Powerbooks and i was supposed to get this book..."What are you going to do with it?"... i think... French Characters. really nice cover...but then found this book..."The secret dreamworld of a Shopaholic." read the synopsis. I'm like... hey, does the author know ME? hehe... although i had the other book in hand...i decided to let that one go. It did have a nice cover, there were french names and all that...it also had the word shopping in it's synopsis, but...it's about this married woman...okay...the setting is in Paris, but...oh well...so yeah... after Powerbooks, we got ourselves some Ice Cream in Dreyer's...



speaking of Ice Cream... BASKIN ROBBINS!... they have a stall in Greenbelt! AAAAHHH!!!.... :D French Vanilla...miss it... Dad and I would go Baskin Robbins, get half a gallon of ice cream... (you get to choose all the flavours...hehe...) and i end up eating it myself. :D I just love ice cream... Dad would get me either something from Baskin, or Mars Ice cream (YUM-MY!!!!) or M&M's Ice Cream...or Movenpick...Choc'lit Chip... OH GOSH... see why i miss Jeddah so much?...and the thing is... no Ketchup flavored Lay's here. darn it.



Anyways, got home past 6. tried everything on. decided what to wear ta Eastwood... :D read the book, then slept really early.



TODAY...



Got to read everyone's blog. Bummer. you guys did have fun, din't you? and you did watch the Baguio Angels, eh?... WOW. :D thanks for the pasalubong, Drichy...



Saw my fone wit Lance's name flashing... nice. at least my phone isn't flashing Joel's name this time. ugh.



Still no text from Kay. HMP! People nowadays...they say things they don't really mean. what is it wit you people? ugh. but i'm still thinking Kay isn't like that. na-uh.



i wanna take a nap. got a text from Alan at 8 A.M. asking if i wus going to that MTV thing tonight. i said i don't think i will be. though i want to. even if it's just being an extra, i want experience! wanna know what it feels like to be a part of something. even if it's just being an extra. haha. funny everyone says "everything starts from scratch"... hmm... got this funny thought...what if the artists turned out to be Salbakuta... uh... SHOOT ME RIGHT NOW!...exagg...



sometimes i figure i should go call Mr. Carlo Alberto ( i call him Big A... )again and arrange a meeting in his office to finally do a vtr. but... guess i SHOULD go CalCarries...or John Robert Powers. :D Ms. Mylene from John Robert Powers already texted me to go to their office in Legaspi to do an evaluation, but... OH WELL... :D



Read George's blog...saw Keith tag... Abbie, the new shawty of JOU!... hyuk.



Din't know buhay pa pala ung Burnham park. wow. the last time i went ta Baguio i wus 3. and i miss horseback riding. the last time i did that i wus 11. i even have a picture of it. terrible picture. eew.



anyways... gotta shut me peeperz!...



Bon apres-midi, guys... love y'all...



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I wus supposed to post this the other day :





Exhausting. Fun. Coreshaking. – 3 words that could describe this day.



First of all, it IS exhausting since I slept for…6 hours. Had to go all the way to Dasma…jeez. Nothing really processed.Coreshaking since we got to talk to Ms. Sighari. Who, gave us a direct and negative comment about our stand in shifting. Fun, since we got Ed to give us a ride home. But the most fun part is the trip. We passed by Ed’s house in South Bay. Chill out for a few minutes while he packed his stuff. Afterwards, we went ta Festival… finally, finally got me a frapp and a pretzel from Auntie Anne’s ( thanks ta Ed, he treated me!..) … Len never stopped complimenting me but I hope she’d also focus on what she’s good and beautiful at. Lance, well… he practically made my day. Hehe.

Y’know… Ed is such a good guy. I mean, he took us home and I didn’t hear a single murmur. All he said wus…”nako…napasubo ata ako dito ah…” he wusn even blaming us. Basta. I really appreciate it. Everything. I pray he stays there ‘til we graduate. It’s also a good thing since I could just hang out wit him whenever the guys in the tropa are busy or something, or out.. right? … hehe. Lalang..



Ang kulit ni Drich. ;S



Thank God the guys ( Ed and Lance ) are finally back in Dasma now.



Okay…I…I…I think I’ve had enough for this day.



I gotta sleep. Tried calling Mik and someone answered. Someone just like him, but sez Mik’s in the shower… I dunno. I’m going….CRAZY.



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IT”S OFFICIAL. I got in. Len got in. We got in. *freezes*



I GOT IN! I FREAKIN’ GOT IN!!! WOOHOO!!! …



Hi, this is Abbie Almasco, a Broadcasting Journalism Student at the De La Salle University- Dasmarinas. AND I’M GONNA KICK ASS!... Doesn’t it feel good? This is what I want. This is what I really want.



But yesterday din’t start any good. I wus in the van (in Pacita) got this text from Len that she wus in Ed’s dorm wit Lance and that she had bad news. So I went ta Ed’s dorm. Unfortunately, Ms. Sigari told Len..”I can’t let you shift. That’s my final decision”… I kept cursing then. Later that afternoon, we found Mrs. Sarile at the CAD, so Len decided to get our waiver from Sir Aspra. Len went alone, while I was still in front of the CAD, binabantayan si Mrs. Sarile just in case she leaves the office…

“ABBIE!!!” … we heard Len scream as she wus going down the stairs. Good news. As Sir Aspra handed Len our waivers, he said… “ O, papirmahan nyo na yan kay Mrs. Sarile ” … we were jumping like stupid…but that’s not it. Mrs. Sarile wus really nice, and direct in a good way. She looked at us and said…” Oo nga, bagay nga kayo sa Comm. that’s the best comment I’ve heard in days. We took the written exam. The exact same test I took when I applied for AB-COM back in May 2002. I just smiled to myself. While we were taking the exam, Mrs. Sarile wus signing our shifting forms. *heart beats faster*



After that, we went upstairs and had Sir Aspra sign our shifting form. Before we left his office, we were like… ‘SIR!! SIR, THANK YOU!!!”… we were giggling and all that, and he said…” O, pakabait kayo dun ha…” we were still giggling. Then he said… “ ay, ang sasaya … we went out of the Dean’s office and we were screaming… Len even went inside JFH 209, and I just heard her… “AAHHH!!!!”… hehe. We saw Lance, and he wus like…” Ang daya nyo! “ Len hugged Lance and I grabbed his arm, and we were like… YEY! WE SHIFTED!...



After that we walked to the canteen to check Ed. I wus calling Mum… she wus like.. “ OH MY, YOU DID? THANK GOD!”… in the middle of hearing my mum scream, I said… “So, where’s my money?” she shut up and said… “HA?”… hehe. Kulit. I texted George, we were on the way to the Admin…then George called me. Afterwards I got a text from Aldrich, then texted Kay, then Upper, then Ayie, then Mik, then Ja, then Ed. Saw Mark at the admin. Congratulated us. I miss that guy, too.



So we jotted down the subjects we were gonna take. Left the school at around 5:55. eew! I wus sitting next ta a couple… a not so very ordinary couple. What the – is that a tomboy ? eew! They’ve been cuddling each other like… all they lack is a room. Got down at southmall, took another ride to Festi ta meet my couz. Went around wit her friends, treated her to dinner… got home at 9…took a shower…then I just kept texting…texting…texting…



…then Drich called… “ listen to the music! “ … heard HAPPY (the song Karl hates cus according ta him all you ever do is jump to it…) ..” C’mon, dance wit us! “… and I’m like…”Ohhhkay… you’re drunk noh?..” he isn’t. hehe. At least I think he isn’t.



what I wanna dance to? ME AGAINST THE MUSIC… “all my people on the floor…let me see you dance… “ YEAH… I must say Britney… outdid Xtina this time. Hey. She’s a lucky gal. She recorded a song wit THE legendary Madonna… gosh. And she gets to smooch Madonna, too! HAHA.



This is Abbie Almasco reporting… hyuk.





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Good luck ta us tomorrow. We’re gonna be shifting. Finally. God help us. And we are gonna be meeting Lance. Yey!... Miss him. :D



...the three bratz went ta Glorietta yesterday. Aldrich is there again wit Zubair today.. Ugh. i wanna go...so badly. but then i can't go there until i have all the money i've saved in hand. fine, i could wait. i'd rather sacrifice me not going to my second home for a while. (a while? that's 'til next year!)... yeah, you might think i'm exaggerating and all, but when i step into that mall, there's no stopping me. and i mean it. that's how i am. hehe. so i'd rahter not.



Oh, and to Mr.AIMAN DIZA..Moi, you're a rag addict too, eh?... Gosh, you and Lance SHOULD meet. i bet you're gonna get along really well, especially wit playing...Final Fantasy...and all that. jeez. good thing you're not into Counter... oh, and if you are... Hand me a gun. i'm gonna shoot myself. Kidding. Miss you, moi... :D Moi, don't worry about saving... you're gonna be a millionaire soon. wit that kind of talent? ... gosh. ;p well, unless you wanna walk out of the mall wit tons of shopping bags in hand, then i'm gonna tell you to start saving right NOW. hyuk!... enjoy playing moi... uhm...i'll try playing rag...whenever. :D



Bryan texted, asked how everything's goin...he din't even say "It's Brian"... he jus said... C2. hehe. i call him C2. he's crazy #2. Guess who's number 1. ANA! MOI! hehe. i miss everyone in Kuwait.



and my friend Adnan texted and called me. from Jeddah. got my smart number from Nica.all of my friends are in the damn school! and i'm here...but yeah. cool. i miss him. this guy used to court me, but then i didn't really turn him down, just that... well, it all started when this guy "yeye" asked his help to court me...later on, Adnan started courting. gave me all these flowers and all these chocolates... we ended up being REALLY CLOSE FRIENDS. he's my kuya. :D and he used to stay wit me in school 'til 6 P.M., esp when Ja couldn't stay wit me. aww...miss those days.



You know what i miss about having a boyfriend? I remember this one time when Ja and I were the only ones left in my classroom, and i wasn't feeling really well,i just hugged him REAL tight. Kissed me on the temple...and i remember feeling really good after that. and when i feel really down about something, expect his shoulder to be there...and expect someone kissing my hand, telling me everything's gonna be fine. and i'm like... darn. that's all i need. and i used to think...Ja is all i need. God, i do miss Ja a lot. miss hanging out wit him..



anyways... gotta get some sleep.



i love you guys. wish you luck!..



--+> xoxo Lia*



p.s.

ta all the dormers... the sight of all those clothes hanging out of your dorms will shock you...



haha! i couldn't help but wonder... who's staying in my room?... *bites nails* pray it's not some pig. when i get back to the dorms, i'ma clean the bathroom REALLY well. and pag-pag my mattresses and... okay...i'm exaggerating. :D



NYT! :D

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RED.



Nope. It doesn’t mean that my life if full of love, nor anger. It’s what’s missing. Love. Oh gosh. Missing? Err… or am I just running away from it? … from what’s really there? … like I always say, “ I’ll never know…” unless…



There are some people that…I’m really confused with how they really want things to be. That could be the thing holding me back. If you look at it, it’s really weird.. Love is holding me back from Love. Whoa.



Hope I get back to shore soon.

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YELLOW....



sunny. full of hope.



just want to remember this day. one of the days in which i've felt really positive about everything. except one thing, which i don't wanna think wus part of the day.



what's important is, i'm back. back to being the Optimistic girl everyone knows.



At least i still have myself.



"I love you too, Richard. But i love ME more." ...

- Samantha Jones is one smart woman.



it's cool cus a character of mine could be found in these 4 women. :D i dunno what you guys think about it, but it's what i think...



oh well...



I'm still praying i get into Journ. Love you guys...



oh, and today... God wus wit me! :D

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Watched the season finale of Dawson's Creek. Ugh. what a tearjerker. Jen died? i'm like... WHAT THE - Jen had a baby AND died?... Gosh... the episode is like...beautiful AND tragic at the same time. but oh well... things like those happen in real life anyways... Joey and Pacey finally got together. Joey said something that hit me. i don't know if i should say it, but... Pacey said ... "you're off the hook"... and he explained further, and as far as i remember this is what he said...that he loves Joey, but then he always thought that there wus never "the right time" for both of them...but then he has always loved her, and he thinks it's better for Joey to be loved by Dawson, or any guy that would feel just the same way as Joey makes him (Pacey) feel.. "so, you're off the hook!.." ... and Joey replied wit..."for the record, i don't wanna be off the hook. Pacey, I love you. I always have."... and she explained how "REAL" it always felt, and how scared she wus,so she just kept running away..."and if you let me off the hook, that's just gonna keep me running away..."... COOL... haha. No comment.



Today i went to school..took me 5 rides before i got to school. UGH. don't ask. anyways... just as we were about to talk to to Ms. Mahsa Sigari (yes,... THE Ms. Sigari..), we were told that uhm, she probably wusn the one in charge of the "evaluation"... thanks to this guy Lloyd* (*tell you more about him later)... who lead us to Mr. Harold Palad, who interviewed us... to me he was really challenging. Challenging in a good way. So, he asked me these questions... haha. i felt like... shaking. that was a coreshaking moment!... hyuk...



Anyways, yes...about this guy... so he helped us... I'm thankful for that. but then, we were walking on our way ta square to see Ed before we leave...

*beep beep*... we turned ta see Lloyd in his car, asking us ta "jump in"... i hesitated...then i'm like..."No, we're okay..." but he made this sad face... so Len wus like.."sige na nga!.." so we rode...i wusn really comfortable wit... those. anyways, so we were dropped near A's. thanked him for the ride and all that. after we got Ed out of the stall, we asked him to walk us to Gate 1. Saw Lloyd again.

.."Uwi na kayo?.." i nodded.he smiled and drove away. when i got to Pala-Pala, i checked my phone. "boyfriend mo? baka kc may magalit e..."... i just said something like... "it's like, we're together but we're not..." ... i just made something up. i'm sick of these guys tripping... i dunno. i'm flattered, but i'm sick of it. don't get me wrong, okay? ... but yeah. the way i look at it... how i feel about it... i'm just SO ... sick of it. i don't even know who's serious, and who's playing... of course, i DO KNOW a few people who are at least SERIOUS being friends wit me. but then i don't, really. it's just good to take time getting to know each and everyone... who's capable of taking care of me... i mean, really...really, take care of me... i'ma admit...at the start of the relationship, i want the guy to "take care of me"... i'm going through a lot. you have NO idea.



Oh, it's SATC. :D... i just COULD NOT believe Samantha broke up wit Richard!... jeez.



there are some things worth gambling on.



*sigh*

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gosh... can't wait 'til tomorrow...! :D

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SKY BLUE.



that's how things are to me now. partly sad...and partly clear.



i thought 'd be writing whatever color depicts my life each time i blog.



finally got myself doughnuts. yey.



but there's still something missing...



I KNOW!...



i'm in dire need of a Topshop Tank top... AND...a frapp (of course...i've always been in dire need of one...) hyuk. how shallow of me...



but then...i just can't wait 'til all of this is over. 'til everyone is living their lives the way they wanna... i mean, just...i guess when i see everyone else happy...but then...the thing i definitely can't wait ta happen is when God finally takes this blindfold off...ta finally stop wondering who i should really be with. there. i said it. :D but when? God knows.



everything happens for a reason.



i'm excited about shifting! :D



uhm... he told me he wus gonna last a week without texting me... hyuk! until i texted him...

..what? i just miss him... so yeah...since he mentioned it...i won't text him starting tomorrow...i guess it's not testing him.i guess it's helping him. he wanted ta do it in the first place anyways. haha. the thing is, would Ibe able to it?that long?a week...is long...for me...but.. oh well, if he could then i could. i bet he could last YEARS not talking to me. so i guess i could do that too... hmm..



Cherchez La Femme...Puquiqe vous parlez en voyage... Le Brasier...Tu es toujours la.... like these french songs. hmm...maybe i should go ask Tower Records for...some french artists...cool.no, i won't be buying a Tina Arena or Celine Dion album... imagine me singing in french...i don't even know what i'm saying but yeah. hey, i used to sing Larusso songs back in high school. :D O ne saimera plus jamais... haha. i forgot...but yeah...one of the songs...i think.



hey. finally saw THIS IS THE NEW SHIT video. from Matrix Reloaded. Marilyn Manson is...fishing cool...

(haha! Nessie used FISH instead of F**K back then...)



oh well...



i miss Eminem. don't you?...



have you heard about 50 cent getting this 4.1 million dollar house? 16 rooms...38 bathrooms... *faints* *thud*



hehe... uhm.. okay..i'm starting to sound like a joel. OMG! i'm having Joelitis! and as my dawg...Basil always say... the only cure to Joelitis is... nah... don't wanna bother him. *bleh*...



Kay still doesn't have any load... gosh... ako pa nakaubos...kakahiya... ...



Bon-apres midi! ... mwah!

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Confused and Shifty at the same time? uhm... Hey, i didn't wanna be shifty in the first place! it's all this confusion... honestly... with these people...all i ever do is assume...as i said, nothing is official as of now. like i told Lancy, i'm confused,too... i just had to blog whatever i felt... it helps. :D



anyways...got a text from Drich about them going to Glorietta. darn. i wish i could go...but... wow, believe it or not, i'm actually saving my money 'til May... lalang...i just wanna have something new by the time i turn 18... some of the things i really want... and the ones Mum didn't wanna get me before... HAHA! now's my chance...ta grab what i wanna! ;p *bleh*... it's exciting! :D and i'ma be going to a spa! hyuk...



Lance...don't blame God for not giving you what you want. He did. She did. She just didn't wanna. Get it? :D It's good you're finally starting to be "religious religious"... again... :D fun. let's go to church together sometime.



Yea. let's just see how everything turns out.



Guys don't cry, eh?... hyuk. i think i can name a few... :D



...hey, my life is unstable, too! i could be thinking of this other person in a minute and think of another person the next!... sometimes i end up screaming with the pillow in my face... because it's driving me MAD!...REALLY mad. and i always don't know what to do about it.. but it's funny as i start to get to know them better i'm like... "tsk tsk... bawas points! " hehe.. especially the ones really hard to deal with. you'll know who's sweet, who's the gentleman, who's the playboy, the prick, the perv and the klutz. and don't forget, you'll also know who's the one wit disorders... i didn't mention any name!... HYUK! y'all know who it is!...



i didn't have doughnuts for breakfast. Grr. I'ma go withdraw some money and I'll be taking this i.d. pic, requirement for shifting...



George...thanks huh... can't wait ta see AB BROADCAST JOURNALISM on my I.D. ! AAAHH!! :D



Gee, i wonder wut you guys are up to now... you in g1, g3... you sippin a frapp? *drool*... is it Vanilla? i want an Ensaymada... i love their Ensaymada... oh, and where are you eating? Friday's? Don Hen? can i have a bite of Buffalo Wings?... can you guys wait for me here while i stop by Topshop,Mango,U,Essenses,Beauty Bar and Defect?...i really don't like shopping wit guys around. well, i guess Lance could tolerate that attitude of mine.even if he hated me being such a Madonna. i'm sure he'd still help me pick a top... hyuk. so, where are you guys right now? so will you wait while i shop?..argggh! i'm durreeming again. Although i will do that before 3rd year. right before i turn 18.



well...honestly, maybe you're not taking it THAT seriously, but what if I am, right?...that's how i am...it's like...before i even get into the relationship i try to see what it would feel like if i get into it, and if it lasts...would "we" go anywhere, what about the future? ...



Watched SATC? Carrie wus SO right about one of her "i couldn't help but wonder" wonder....

What's the harm in believing?



... :D



Bonjour and Have a nice day y'all...



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HYUK...



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This day is FUN. Let’s see… I went ta church… but before that, my couz and I stopped by Jollibee (haha! :D ) ta get a Mushroom and Cheese burger… (finally found a reason ta go eat at Jollibee…) then… just as my couz wus ordering my second burger for moi, this couple came in, all snuggled up to each other…actually SHE wus ALL OVER HIM. My couz gave them THE stare just as she wus carrying the tray to our table cause she caught them showing off their pucker skills. … we both are liberated, but even the most liberated person in the world would find it disgusting. Talk about doing it at the wrong place and at the wrong time. And besides, the way they hold each other… it’s like… what they lack is the key to a motel room or something. So after they ordered, the guy went to go look for a table to sit in and the gurl went to the bathroom… after a few minutes, she got out, stood still somewhere near our table, staring at her bf, and smiling at him, then went back to the bathroom… after that she came out… talked to this guy who she didn’t even know and she was starting to caress him, and he pushed her away… and he’s like…”do I know you?..” … I wus just holding back, but deep inside I wanted ta laugh the hell outta me… then she talked to this waiter… she wus like, touching his face and all that… my cousin and I couldn’t help but just… look and smile at each other. Gosh. What is it with people today? … haha. Reminds me of that sinasamba kita incident… hyuk.



Anyways, went to church. Prayed for everything… shifting, happiness… for all you guys… :D



We got home… my cousin took a shower… I wus in my room, as usual channel surfing…then my cousin barged into the room in her towel… I grabbed my towel.. (my turn!..) when MTV started playing Rivermaya’s top 10 videos, one of them which turned out to be a Boy George video…I always teased my cousin about her looking like Boy George… HYUK!... so she started dancing around…I joined her…and I’m like… AAH!... I’m taking a shower! So…after that… I barged in the room in my towel… haha… then they were playing MC Hammer’s “can’t touch this” video… haha…then we were like…dancing around in front of the mirror!... I wus doing this pulp fiction dance like crazy!...UGH! you couldn’t imagine… hehe… my couz tied her hair up and she looked totally 80’s…so I did my hair, too… then we all went ta the kitchen…ate dinner… but before that we were even making fun of a lot of things… lalang… got a text from Kay…it’s sweet…he doesn’t have any load, and yet he still thought of texting me goodnight… :D then, my younger cousin and I were fighting over the last pancit canton left … haha!... I like, put it in my shirt and I said…”don’t even dare!”… but she wus pushy…so I ended up sitting on it…haha! I WON! *bleh*



… then we all headed back to the room, I wus sitting on my bed…then my cousins were like… “Ate Abbie, could you hear that noise?...” … I said no… then this crazy thought came up to my cousin… “ di natin alam , binu-buldozer na pala bahay natin noh? … and she said we’re gonna be doing this version of “Thank You”… haha!!!.... gosh… if you guys were here you would be laughing your asses off… jeez.



What the hyuk? … I’ll Never Break your Heart is on MYX. Haha! Reminds me of Sixth Grade. Reminds me of Ja. The mushiness.. I miss that feeling… ;p HYUK!...



We’ll be going to the school on Tuesday. We’ll finally be shifting. I claim by next sem we’re gonna be official Journ students… yes we will…



Bonsoir!!!! MWAH!



--+> xoxo Lia*





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BONJOUR!!! ... hehe... je suis francais, y'know... ;p



yeah, watched MTV Mush last nuit... cool... liked some of 'em... I'ma download those french songs... i remember... i do have that Larusso CD... liked most of her songs... anyways...



COMPLIQUE. que be comment tout be a moi... et rien de a du autour de il.



haha. if some french guy were reading my blog, he'd probably say... (in tagalog) ... BAROK!!! and laugh his head off... My cousin Karin (who's half-German by the way..) studies in this I.S. in Alabang and they got French Class... i'm like..."you are SO lucky to be having french class..." ... she says she's not really good at it... but yeah... anyways... it's been... 6 years before we got to see each other again... she's thin, and she's got really long legs and i'm like.."now that's what you call a

'model' " ... :D



darn. i'm hungry. no doughnuts yet. grr...



can't wait 'til i get ta shift and get back to the dorms. i'ma be fixing my dorm... i mean, really fix it... back in Jeddah i used to fix my room...i mean, move my bed and couch around...haha... give it a new look...every 3 weeks... where's that side of me now? i want it back! ... hehe...



i also can't wait 'til we get our own house... and where... i told mum sa Southvale nalang or BF homes or Southwoods (take note: Golf course!!!...) or Southbay.. but...as what Mum said..it all depends on me Dad... and i want a car! ... Camry... ;p i'm sure they won't approve of getting me a Beetle... hyuk. but yeah... also,i really wanna go Europe! ... can't wait 'til all that happens... i swear... but yeah...i am enjoying life.





uhm... just wanna say...



muchos gracias para la amor tu tener ver give mi. yo se es estupidez para mi a dejar tu libre complice yo todavia amor tu de alguna manera... it's been hard enough for me. a esconder todo esta a me. i know someday you'll understand. but honestly,ver it is tu yo suenyo acerca de. but then... i'm starting to dream about somebody else now...



George... that person you might think will bring me happiness... well, it might turn out to be someone else... it might. but if it will... i don't know, but... if he really will bring me happiness then i'll go for it. but if someone comes, and the person who's been there all along is the one i see, then i'll go back. i'll go pick him up. but i can't do that right now. things are different now.don't wanna ruin what he's starting, and cause another havoc in his life. i've caused enough.



i plugged my earphones and practiced french. i have this CD that "tuitors" french... i guess drinking Evian would definitely help twisting this darn tongue o'mine... HAH! that's a fallacy! ;p



i swear, when i got all my classcards, i'm like... i'm officially gonna be kissing my Consti, Retorika, Logic and BioScie books au revoir! HAHA! ...



... now i could say that i don't love you no more...and i could say that i've closed the door,to our love...baby,i just wouldn't be the same.. cus your love is...still on my brain... -- Justin T. is definitely talking my lang.



i got to fix my binder again! :p i found this really cool TOPSHOP ad in Elle Magazine... the one i bought in Singapore..way back April 2001... haha. our flight wus delayed for another 5 hours cus of those magazines. haha... my mom had to had her Singapore dollars to US dollars to pay them... then we were late... hehe!we even had to pay... ;p you should've seen the look on my mum's face... but she didn't really get mad at me...anyways, now what i need for the binder are... tropa pix..i'ma borrow the negatives from George and Aldrich... (the one's taken in Kameraworld in Festi...) GUYS! need them for my binder...

AND...i'ma finally get a studio picture... :D



Kay told me sabay daw kami matulog last night at 10...i ended up sleepin at 1 A.M. cus i watched THE BODYGUARD! haha... what?it's a nice movie... hyuk. uhm... ubos nanaman load nya... haha... wawa bibi...i'm sorry, kay... *bites fingers*



and Ben called me!!! GRABE... miss him so much. in the middle of the convo, Joel called up. he wus at a debut, and Drich wus there,too... right after Joel called, Drich texted...told him Joel called...and he wus like..."ahh..i just saw him out in his fone...kaya pala " ..hyuk. about Ben, we both feel the same way...about certain things. it's cool, he understands me. :D





anyways... bon-apres midi guys...



--+>xoxo Lia*

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LOOKIE!!! got this in my HS webbie...



15 Things You Probably Never Knew or Thought About



1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.



2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.



3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.



4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.



5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.



6. You mean the world to someone.



7. If not for you, someone may not be living.



8. You are special and unique.



9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.



10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.



11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.



12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.



13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.



14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.




15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.





khh khh... emphasized some of 'em... ;p

... basta... :D





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what's wit the stupid codes? arrghh...

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3 doughnuts, 2 mosquito bites, and a text message. It’s what I had this morning.



It’s nice to see Ja tag. Haha. Wrote his name backwards. Crazy. ;p



Anyways… yesterday… Thank God… answered half of my prayer… I didn’t get anything lower than 1.25 … I know, mababa pa yun but honestly it improved… and my GPA is …exactly just what I need to be able to shift.



Well yesterday wus supposed ta be…all … good… since my grades turned out well… but… an old friend of mine approached me… told me some stuff that I don’t really know if I should believe in…but it looks like she’s telling the truth this time since I have proof…



See, back in first sem, I was into this guy… and we started texting. And he wus kinda courting me… well yeah, and just as I was gonna say “yes” … the guy I wus texting turned out to be his friend, who was into me… (yeah, I know… such a-holes)… it’s funny how things were way back then… so… this guy I liked told me that. His friend kinda asked if he could court me before I even started liking this guy but I said “no”… so after that incident, I stopped talking to them and all that… then… we patched up…

After that stupid pageant (w/c wus second sem) … my prof way back first sem took us to dinner (including that guy I liked back then..) there wus 4 of us… me, him, my prof and another classmate. In the middle of dinner, my prof and classmate left the table and I wus kinda freakin out, cus … he asked to give him a chance, and he apologized for everything… and… here I go with the “NO” … so, yeah… I just let it all pass…and I eventually forgot about it.



Yesterday… this friend of mine told me… that this guy I wus into before, and his friend… fought cus of me.. they had this exchange of “eh mahal ko parin si Abbie” lines… sure, I should be really flattered… but… I’m sad… nakakasira na talaga ako ng buhay ngayon...kahit di ko naman ginusto..



Haha. The funny thing is that, another old guyfriend of mine came to me, and did that “sinasamba kita” thing… he wus like, bowing and all that… he wus like… “Abbie, sinasamba kita…pwede bang manligaw? Kamukha mo kasi si…” yada yada yada… “pwede bang mahingi number mo?” … I said No, and he said ‘Ang Yabang mo naman!” … so, Ayie and Len to the rescue!... they were interrupting him and all that, Ayie ended up giving her number… she winked at me as she wus writing the number down on a piece of paper… *whew*… turned out, he wus “high” from Mary Jane. Oh gosh… It pretty much freaked me out, in a way… but if George were there, he’d say…”another barkada moment brought to you by Abbie… “ hyuk.



Speaking of George, we were at the COS guidance office for like, 2 hours… we were waiting to talk to the person in charge of the “trip to Baguio…” I knew it. I’d turn out like Ate Blair, too… Dad said no. hyuk! … the thing is, we were waiting for a long time, and the time we got to talk to him, I had ta leave ta get my classcard… and no one wanted to go wit me EHEM… right, Aldrich? … so yeah, anyways… I went ahead… and … met Len… she wus waiting for me there… on my way home, saw Paolo… and we took the ride ta southmall together… kinda miss doing that… usually I’d go around the mall alone… but I’d be walking really fast, and I’ve already had a few traumatic experiences wit walking alone and all that…



Oh, and Congratz ta Upper… *wink wink*



…oh wellz… IT AIN’T OVER ‘TIL IT”S OVER….



Ja… if you ever get to read this… THANKS! ;p miss you… miss all of you…



Maya called me up yesterday…right after I saw Lancy… it’s like, there wus this cold air… I miss Lance narin…



George, good for you. And if she did say anything…ignore her… hyuk. Thank God! I knew you weren’t gonna be my classmate…



And about that BIATCH in the e-house… UGH. ang mga tao lately nawawalan na ng magagawa kaya ba saakin nalang binubuhos yung galit nila? … but Kay is right… BAHALA NA NGA SILA SA BUHAY NILA… *tee hee* guess I gotta wear my cheerleading uniform, join my sister Kirsten Dunst, and do that cheer…. Haha! …



…oh hyuk… I just heard MAYBE and now I’LL BE… I’ma sue … 101.9 for this!!! And my neighbours… who always play the radio like there’s no tomorrow…



this is it guys. I’ma be optimistic. By next sem, I’ll be an official Broadcast Journalism student… that goes for Len, too…I’m gonna be missing my classmates though… and this is gonna be a new adjustment for us…but yeah…I have Len wit me anyways…



Thank God for everything… I have… and… did have… didn’t have… and will have. There’s a reason for everything, y’know…









xoxo Lia*

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Hiya guys! Wut up? … just done writing on the other blog…*whew* … that took like an hour… let everything out… hehe… knew it would help..anyways… Gosh… I’m thinking about tomorrow. Can’t help it. But I keep thinking, why should I feel scared anyways? … I mean, I know I did well, I know nabawi ko naman ngayong finals ung mga grades ko , why worry, right? I know I PASSED ALL OF MY SUBJECTS. God, I’ve been so pessimistic lately…and everytime I think of “grades” and “shifting” .. call me crazy, but I just go grab my rosary and pray that I passed and that I could shift… sometimes, when I’m just lying in bed, I pray ta God and ask his help…to stop making me think of all the negative stuff… I mean… okay, okay, I know…I know I passed… ugh. God help me…



I’ve never been this worried about school!...



Guys… I need your prayers… please pray for me… I know I keep saying this, but honestly..prayers do help.



Mom sent me load and I called her…I kept bugging her about helping me save my money to be able to SHOP ‘TIL I DROP before June… I kept telling her all the prices of the things I wanted… (i.e. Calvin Klein underwear, pants from Topshop {moto} and Armani…hehe…DKNY…HAHA!!! ) and everytime I do, she’s gonna be coughing and she’d tell me, “Sweety, I can’t hear you! The line’s all choppy…” hehe… Mommy talaga … and I reminded her not to forget all the other stuff… hehe… XOXO is lot more cheaper there than the ones sold here. XOXO is cool, too… ;p …in the middle of our conversation, she wus talkin ta Jason and she wus like… “Jason, NO!...not the wires!...will you please move?..” … hehe… that darn cat. Miss him. I’d go around the house carrying that cat like a baby… and I’d cuddle him a lot. He’d sit on my lap and I’d go pinch his nose, and play wit him, and I’d always end up getting a scratch. Ugh. I remember getting one in the face…oh..and that did not happen just once. Grrr. I used to tell myself …”this cat is my lil brother…” hehe…



Tomorrow I’ma be getting up at 5 A.M. gotta go Sta. Rosa, meet Len there at around 630. It’s gonna be easier for me… (and cheaper, too…) Ate Gloria , our “yaya” *tee hee* would accompany me to Balibago , where I’ma meet Len. After that…we get ta school… and… God knows what. Right now, I just feel like, banging my head on the wall, so…I guess I’ma go do that…



Oh, and..last nyt, Brian called me, they were in the airport. He wus wit Karl and Kelvin. :D SAD… everyone’s going “home”… can’t do that yet… hafta wait ‘til next year… well, at least I am…



*sigh*

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I did not want something more than you… how many times do I have to tell you…there’s nothing wrong with you… it’s always me. I wus looking for the “feeling” … look, let me tell you… I loved you… but, the love wusn enough…



…I hate the feeling of being shut out… and it would be useless if I asked if how wus he doing… oftentimes, I find myself wit my s55 in hand wondering if I should call, or text… pero parang pag ginawa ko yun, ang kapal na ng mukha ko Maybe he is doing fine. Maybe he is moving on. Probably “attending” to himself… if he gets a text from me it might just ruin his day. He’s probably forgetting me now… he probably hates me now.



Watched Charmed last nyt… Phoebe had this dream, a guy in mask wus chasing her and the only way for him to disappear wus to unmask him…in which she did. Turned out the guy wus her… she understood the dream, and it’s like, she’s running away from herself.



…Maybe I am, too. Running away from myself. Running away from what I REALLY feel. Hey, like always… whenever I feel like he’s moving on with his life, forgetting about everything…here I go with wondering… “maybe I still do love him…” … and the thought of him being second choice is…wrong. Whenever I make a move, I’m always like…”won’t that hurt him?”… I’m like, super concerned…but…never show it. He was never second choice…



And I guess no matter how many times I explain it to him, it would always result to one thing… I’m still not gonna give it a try. But whenever he moves on, I’m gonna be like… “no, I just want you there..” … I remember telling him HE should move on. He’s like…”No”, but I’m like…”Yes…Yes you will…” … and now he’s doing it… I don’t like it. Whenever I read his blog, I get this..bad vibe. You can’t tell me not to read it. Right now, it’s where I could…see…how he’s doing, what’s on his head, and all that.



It’s funny cus everytime someone calls me… it’s like… Is it him? Is it Lance? …haha… turns out to be Len… or Brian…or Joel…or my Mum… and I’m like… “what was I thinking? Why is he even gonna call me anyways? “ …



The thing is, maybe I’ve just put him on one side… I’ve always had this feeling…if we ever did get together…seeing him, the way he does things…the relationship is gonna be SUPER serious. And it kinda scares me. Am I ready for that kind of relationship right now?...and the thing is, am I ready to be in one, with him? … is he what I really need right now? … or is there more out there?... or am I looking for something that’s right in front of me ALL ALONG? … but I guess I never am just gonna know… I can’t get into any relationship now, unless I know what I really want, and when I’m so sure that I could handle it… when’s that gonna be? Year 3045? When everything looks like the fifth element and Star Wars Episode II ?



But if I just let him stay there, and wait… and we still won’t end up with each other… that’s gonna hurt him more. If I let that happen, I’m gonna be the first cancer who’s ever let her selfishness go too far.



He wus right about that joke…”Maybe Abbie should break her nose. Bring her ego down…” … maybe I really am super self-centered. I can’t blame anyone who thinks that. It’s my fault. I never expressed…how I really felt….about him…



I just miss him. I know, I have all my friends, (really great friends) who could calm me down…but, he’s different… he makes me feel secure, I could talk to him about anything, I wus never scared to be myself around him because I know he’s never gonna complain, or think that I’m a freak…



But I never had the courage to tell him that. SEE? That’s the point. I never had the courage to tell him how I really felt…what more of getting into a relationship with him? I’m still not strong enough.



And even if he sings that Sheryl Crow song….



“Lie to me, I promise I’ll believe…lie to me…but please don’t leave…”



I won’t let that happen…cause…



“I never asked for this feeling… I never wanted to fall…I never knew how I’d felt ‘til the day you were gone…I wus lost…I wusn’t looking for love… somehow I let my emotions take hold, and guess what, all at once…I’m in love..”



and now…



“I have been lying to myself… and i..I have been dreaming of what I know would not come…but no matter what I try to do, to think I’m doing well… reality is, that I’m still not over you…”



and if he sings…



“and it's okay if you had go away…oh just remember the telephone, well, they’re workin it both ways…and if I never ever hear it ring…if nothing else I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else ,and that's okay..cause I'll remember everything you sang”…







then I’ll say…



“ I didn’t notice… but I didn’t care.. I tried being honest..but that lead me nowhere..one of these days…I won’t be afraid of staying with you, I hope and I pray… waiting to find a way back to you… ‘cause that’s where I’m home…”



and he might interrupt with..



“everytime I feel alone…I can blame it on you…we both know, that we want it…but we both know… you left me no choice…”



…I guess I should say…



“would you want me, when I’m not myself? Wait it on when I am someone else?..”



and he’d reply with…



“ knew the signs wasn’t right , I wus stupid for a while…swept away, by you…and now I feel,..like a fool…so confused…my heart’s bruised…wus I ever loved by you? … out of reach, so far…I never had your heart… we never meant to be..”



I’d close me eyes and sing…



“ the road ahead holds different dreams for me and you…”



*pause*



…deep inside me, I knew…it always was…



“you see, I always was your girl…always we’ll be… you and me against the world…”



but none of this seems to be getting to him, so he sings…



“you wanted more, more than I could give..more than I could handle…and the life that I could live…you wanted more…more than I could bear…more than I could offer…”



…I give out a sigh and say…



“ so why don’t you go your way, and I’ll go mine…live your life, like I’ll live mine…baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine… cus we’re better off, separated…”



but then he sings…



“ the sun won’t shine since you went away… feels like the rain is falling everyday… there’s just one heart, when there once was two… but that’s the way it’s gonna be… until I get over you..”



and,…just how I always sing…



“ and I really, really, really care… and I really, really, really want you…and I think I’m kinda scared.. COS I DON’T WANNA LOSE YOU… if you really, really, really care..then maybe you can hang through…I hope you understand…it’s nothing to you…”



he turns his back cus he’s sick of all this…



I know I have…



“..been running from these feelings for so long…telling my heart I didn’t need it…pretending I wus better off alone…but I know that it’s just a lie…SO AFRAID TO TAKE A CHANCE AGAIN.. SO AFRAID OF WHAT I FEEL INSIDE…”



and I think…I think he’d end it with…



“maybe it’s wrong to say please love me too, cus I know you’ll never do…somebody else is waiting there inside for you…maybe it’s wrong to love you more each day, cus I know he’s here to stay…but my love is strong…and I don’t know if this is wrong…but I know to whom you should belong…”



....to whom I should belong? … uhm…i think 3 weeks of not seeing your friends does help… last sem, people kept asking me what I liked about “this guy”… I always gave out a shrug. Thought I knew. Now I don’t. that’s the beauty of not rushing into things. Nothing is official as of now. Honestly. And I don’t really know what made me so “clingy” … it’s good cus I started to get to know people a lot more better. And I finally realized… I know what I deserve. And it’s not this… not this. I’m still on the search of knowing what I really want. Thank God, probably there wus still one screw tight…nothing’s official…I’m still free…still free.



and in the end, if he’s the only one I see, and I’m strong enough… I’m sure I will give us a try. Though I know I could do it right now, and I’d be happy with it, it’s just not time for that yet. I still want to see MORE. See more…see if I still have to…look…



but even if we don’t end up wit each other,…hope we’d still be whatever we were before this…before all this happened. Before we both fell. I know somehow you’re still in it… maybe I am, too… but maybe letting all this out could help. Lance, how are we gonna get out of this? … honestly…should we really be…totally out of it? I guess we should. For now.



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uhm...things are pretty weird...i don't know why... but... i'm going through the same thing over and over and over again... like, nothing's even happening, and i'm confused!!!...



i just wanna let it out... if something happens before "it" happens, i'm definitely going for it, cus this is something i don't wanna let go of, because if i continue waiting, eventually "something" is gonna happen again, which would lead to another confusion, so, i therefore conclude that if it happens, i'ma go for it, so everything stops there, and i'm surely gonna be contented wit whatever there is, and i'd stop being confused... :D



i hate feeling this way...i swear... i can't go on wit anything because there's always someone who'll be affected... just like this one... and don't you just enjoy being around a lot of people witout anyone telling you not to, and meeting other people...going out wit your guyfriends... riiighhht?? ... you know... you still have that freedom... the thing is...you meet all these people... you like all of them... then you end up confused...who would you really like? then... you start liking one... but one of the people who you like starts liking someone else, you feel...kinda jealous...you don't want that to happen...then...it happens to the other one...and the other one... gosh... i don't know HOW i should feel...



honestly, you can't blame me... next to academics, this is the next thing bothering me...aside from that, everything else is fine... so,i can't stop thinking about this, until everything is settled... you can't blame me if this is affecting me too much. guess you'll hafta know me first before you judge... you'll hafta know WHY ... but yeah... i can't expect everybody to understand... :D basta, i'm taking George's advice. i'm just being true to myself. and this is my side.



*sigh*... basta...i'm still single...not with anyone...nothing official... :D that's it. i still don't wanna commit as of now.i'm still in the stage of...knowing what i really want.. REALLY want.



I know I did hurt someone. I did it for the both of us. I'm still selfish at this point. I still want my freedom. Although, yes... I did love him... I told Tony why I didn't wanna give it a try wit "him" and why i just left him hanging there... Tony summarized everything for me. He said... " this is it...: the feelings you had for him isn't enough..." ... YES. that's it. I did feel the "love"... i did Love. I DID. but the love i felt wasn't enough. i couldn't put it into words, but thanks to Tony...



I LOVED. but it wasn't enough. so that drove me to looking for something more.Although i know he could give me more than enough. definitely MORE THAN ENOUGH. since he always made me feel secure. and he always made me feel like..."this is reality"...and he also taught me how to embrace it... he's already given me more than enough. yes...i was in love... i was. but... un nga ..may kulang.. but i guess he misunderstood my actions in some way, which made him fall more..uhm, beyond this limit... but i was happy wit him... i just know i won't make him that happy...now i know why... and before the love grew more...something happened -



... don't ask.



i know i ruined his life somehow... but there's this part of me that says i still have some sorta...feelings for him. but it won't happen. but i'm not closing my doors. anything is possible... but...i guess for now... (well, my bad...) this isn't the right thing to do, but it's what we should do.. i mean, i don't think not giving US a try is right. HELLO? ... i'm turning down something before i've even tried it... i thought i wus being chicken...i guess i'm not. i guess i wus brave in a stupid way. stupid in a good way... i turned down something {more than} good enough...



right. i wusn chicken...i never wus.i wusn scared to love. i already did. i wusn scared to fall. i already have.



guess i just moved ahead of him. i couldn't say i've avoided the feelings, cus...he-llo, i fell already...but i probably just picked up all the pieces before he did. left him hanging in the air... i'm sorry...



you know who you are... i'm sorry ... i'm really sorry... i'm sorry and thankful at the same time... there's so much about you... so much more... you've got a lot to give... and, i'm not happy without you. hope you believe that. you're not doing the right thing. but it's your only choice left. don't wait... it's gonna be useless as of now...i just had to let this out. i had to swallow my pride before i got the guts ta type this. but i hope you understand now...



xoxo Lia*

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Evolve? are you for real? ... uhm... hu are you? is that really "You' ??? ...



anyways... nothing else has been bothering me but... how my grades would turn out... i can't wait 'til the 17th. i'm like...."Oh my God, i might end up wetting my pants..." ... people, please pray for me...



... guess that's all ...

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Yesterday I met up wit Drich n Karl at Festi…watched “Inner Senses” one hella creepy,weird…love story… it’s actually scary…you should’ve seen us freakin’ out…but not like how Joel did… haha! Ala lang… uhm…



Got another white top from Kamiseta! Hehe…



Y’know what? I’m thankful cus hindi ako nagpadalos-dalos… Lance is right. You go wit the flow, but if it’s taking you somewhere you could always swim back…well, probably not back to how things were, but to somewhere, where you really feel you wanna be in… it’s what I’m doing now. Funny. They kept asking me what is it that makes me clingy…I don’t know. Tony gave me an advise to isolate myself from them. I guess I gotta do that… no texts, no calls, nothing. For three damn weeks.



I miss him. And I was always never comfortable wit him avoiding me…but…this is right. As always, the right things…always go the hard way. That’s how reality is. Like a slap in the face. Or even more than that. I’m sure he does not understand why I had to say “no”… (no one does)… no one ever will. We may never be how we were… but… at least in that short span of time we got to know each other…to a certain extent…he made me feel secure, he made me stronger, he always listened…he helped me move on wit my life…he comforted me, he always cared…he always loved… before all the other people “appeared”…I owe it to Lance.



Lance…you might hate me now…but I don’t think there’s no reason not to. I just left you hanging there. It’s not you. It’s me. It’s always been me. But I will never uforget that day…you finally said it…

today, I woke up and heard “I’ll Be” playing real loud on my neighbour’s radio…made me smile…and sad at the same time… now I’m listening to … You and I both… Lancy, if you really wanna not…be friends…I guess I shold be okay wit that. If I were you, I might have thought worse. “thanks for everything” ? I don’t think you should be saying that, I have not done anything for you, for you to thank me… that’s supposed to be MY line. Just…MINE…



But then I do hope we’d still get to watch Revolutions altogether… we weren’t able to watch How to Deal together…(I know I watched it ahead but I don’t mind watching it again…*tee hee*) …



I need Topshop, Topshop, Topshop…



….



Xoxo Lia*

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someone named "evolve" wus...dissing me in Nikki's tagboard... i jus said something like.."Nikki, ang hirap nyang intindihin...pero cge... gulo ko rin noh?.."

then this wus the reply:

evolve: Nikki, PIGILAN MO KO. PIGILAN MO KO.

evolve: KAYA PWEDE BA?

evolve: maraming taong nagugutom, namamatay, at di titigil ang mundo dahil may lalaki kang di maintindihan.

evolve: sino ba yang abbie na yan. ang arte ha. papatayin ko na yan e. oi miss, marami pang ibang mas mahalagang bagay sa mundo



ala lang... uhmm... AM I JINX? what the heck? People keep taking me the wrong way! ... THIS IS SO STUPID! okay, i'ma calm down...i'm not really good at doing this alone...



MAARRKKK! i need him to calm me down... uhm... ARGH! ...



jeez... i guess i shouldn't speak nalang... people just... people just SUCK.

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If people keep reacting this way, how am i supposed to post whatever i want to in my blog?... this is where i can do "public" thank yous and all that... but people take it the wrong way... well it's their freedom to say whatever, too...but... it kinda sux. hehe... but what the hell... like whatever i'm saying right now would affect them...



anyways... here i go again wit feeling confused. i don't even think i should be. Cus... y'know... it's not even there yet, so i shouldn't wonder if someone would feel bad about it...i mean, yeah...



YEA! ... it's not there yet... i'm just going wit whatever. and i like it this way... it's nice cus at least wit doing this, i won't have regrets later. i don't want that to happen... i just don't... so this is the right thing to do, too... i'm taking my sweet lil time... it's gonna be worth it in the end ;p



hmm..i'ma miss y'all.... it's gonna be 3 long weeks of not seeing you guys...of course some of us would make a way ta meet... *wink* ta those who know what i'm talking about... can't say anything direct anymore...even if what i'm saying myt be obvious they could still think of a lotta "alternatives" hehe... as what my "Creme" always says..."BLEH!" hehe... bleh,bleh,bleh! .. :D



uhm... y'all take care huh...



--+>xoxo Lia*



p.s.

Kay, please stop calling me Mommy...or Mama... hehe! :D and yes, we're going to a gay bar... i jus wanna see what you're gonna look like when you see all these...haha! knowing you hate gays... I'ma take you, Drichy, Lance, Karl, Brian, Ed, n Joel there if i could for a good time... of course Len, Ninz and Gail should be there too,,,haha! and don't forget BEN! :D



...killer!!! haha...that would be KEWL... too kewl... :D

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I wasn't even "telling" anything YET. not even... how last Tuesday night,Wednesday night,and Thursday night went... and then i see this... GOSH! Oh well....



Yesterday, me and my cousin went ta Festi today...watched How to Deal ... yeah, it's a pretty good movie... the thing is, Mandy Moore wus afraid ta give in ta this guy, "Macon"... cus most of the things hapnin around her kinda affected the way she thinks about Love... that she dusn wanna... fall in love... cus she thinks... all it does is hurt... oh, yeah... don't worry... if you guys wanna watch it, i'll watch it again... why not... there are really nice scenes... like that one when they were in the dam. really romantic... *blinks*... :D



Oh, and I got myself these really cute Heart-shaped vintage earrings from Babo. Not only vintage, it's also very Boho... i wus lookin' for nice Peasant tops but then... i can't find any...so i guess I'ma go find something in my wardrobe instead....



... cool... Karl and Margie tagged... :D it's nice to see people tag...esp the ones who didn't really tag you bufore... haha... lalang, I'm being mababaw... :D oh wellz... oh, and... uhm... i won't mention any names, but to those who comforted me today...thanks... :D ala lang.. oh, i'ma go early ta skul by tomorrow...okay...and since.. it's my blog...at kung may ma-offend at maabala sa mga sinusulat ko, pakialam ko sainyo? ... George is right. i have the rights to blog about this... but not exactly how i feel about things cus ... you know why....



"Kay" is the first guy who "brought me ta class" last Thursday.. nice of him to offer... :) I'm thankful cus I have this.. opportunity of meeting all these great people... ala lang... it's nice to have you all around, and get to know all of you more.. it's... great... and... i know i'm not doing anything wrong naman hanging out with you guys cus i'm not with anyone yet...ryyytt? :D but it's not really like that... but yeah... but the thing is...nothing's official as of now... it's like...dating... you can "date" diffrent people....as long as you're not "with" someone... ... am i ryt? :D hehe...



uhm...nothing really much ta say...so... yeah.... Ima go now... :)



xoxo Lia*

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My heart says we've got something real

Can I trust the way I feel

'Cause my heart's been fooled before

Am I just seeing what I want to see

Or is it true, could you really be



Someone to have and hold

With all my heart and soul

I need to know, before I fall in love

Someone who'll stay around

Through all my ups and downs

Please tell me now, before I fall in love



I'm at the point of no return

So afraid of getting burned

But I want to take a chance

Please give me a reason to believe

Say, you're the one

That you'll always be





It's been so hard for me

To give my heart away

But I would give my everything

Just to hear you say



Someone to have and hold

With all my heart and soul

I need to know, before I fall in love

Someone who'll stay around

Through all my ups and downs

Please tell me now, before I fall in love...
...



hey there guys... :) uhm... this week I felt so blessed... :D i don't know, but... yeah... I do. even if i'm running outta load... haha! i'm still blessed. Thank God for that... uhuh... Thank God for that. :D



so much unforgettable momentz... :D that i can't blog... :) cus people might say sumn...



oh well... i still have my journal to write it on... :) yeaaa...



uhm... something i should blog about? ... uhm.. nothing much i guess... HAHA! i'm actually just stopping myself from saying ANYTHING that happened this week... *bites lips* hehe...



mwah!



i'ma do it the Hilary way...hehe...



xoxo Lia*



p.s.

Thanks for the load, drichy... ;p haha... Ed has sumn to do wit this, too! oh wellz... see you guyz next week... ima eat more doughnuts.... haha... PEACE OUT! ... :D



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