With so much to say and so little time.

Let me say this:


All the Elan shoots, the tapings, the features, the interviews... Yowza! Meeting great people, being at my favorite Photographer's studio... It's just great. Plus nothing beats finally having a picture taken with someone you've had a crush on since you were 15.

I'm so sorry I can't say anything yet, and uhm... I'll reply to your comments and tags as soon as I have time to even read them. You get me. Ha ha. I totally miss interacting with you guys.

I'm at Basil's right now, waiting for my room mate, Upper. We'll be going back to the dorms at 12.
Just saw The Exorcism of Emily Rose.

Freaky. Especially that part when you wake up at 3 A.M, or when your clock stops at 3 A.M. Waaaaah!

Smell ya guys laytah!

Zuvee, my adorable fcukstain... Belated Happy Birthday and I miss you na, sobra. *besos*

Oh and...get a copy of The Philippine Daily Inquirer this Wednesday AND watch us on MTV Get Spotted on the 30th at 8:30 P.M.

God Bless you all! And if the Exorcism haunts you like me...three words: Half a Unisom.


Elan, here I come.

And I just couldn't wait to sign that contract. Will do that today. *giggles*

This is definitely one of the most unforgettable moments of my life. When I can officially call myself something almost every other girl dreams of...when I take that first step... when I open that door. When I can finally say that I am....

A model.

And I get to be a part of one of the most prestigious modeling agencies. I...was handpicked by Elan. I still cannot believe it up to this very moment.

And you know what else? Andrew's finally supporting me. ALL OUT.

It feels great. Let's party.

p.s. Visit their official website, and you'll know why I'm so happy about it!


When pain is worth it...

Andrew Kay Colimbo Bautista... back in second year, he was THE talk of the town. And yeah, I thought he was hot, but I wasn't very interested.

But then I got to know him better. And it's really not hard to not love him. I mean, sure he's gorgeous but once you get to know him better? You'll realize all the physical aspects? That's just a bonus.

Andrew and I didn't start off very well as a couple. He wasn't very serious with me, but I on the other hand was already very into him.

But it all ended with both of us being crazy for each other...and not to mention both very posessive of each other.

I did something wrong, but it was also kind of a misunderstanding.

If I lose him...I wouldn't know what to do.

If I lose him, that's the end for me.

It's something I always want to hear from him...

It was kinduv dark when he wrote this. :)

Andrew and I aren't what you call "The Perfect Couple"... but then I guess we just love each other that much...

No one can love him like I do. No one can hurt him like I do.

I'm sorry Bub...for everything.

But I'll never leave your side. Even if you tell me to go f*ck off.


Houston, we have a problem...

... and they just keep on comin'.

Guess what guys???? Lorelie from Summit Media texted me yesterday about the details of the fitting at TopShop (drool) on the 11th and the rehearsal on the 12th.

Today, Ms. Honey (of ABS-CBN) texted me that the Orientation for the OJT will be on the 11th and 12th.

I said yes to Lorelie first, since..technically she texted me first PLUS the orientation was originally scheduled on the 8th and 9th.

And now I don't know what to do.

I can't miss the fitting and the rehearsal, because on the 17th, the Presscon/Fashion Show for the Seventeen Favorite Model Finalists will take place.

*It's in Capisce at Metrowalk by the way. 1-7 P.M. heehee!*

I can't miss the orientation as well. But I guess I can do something about that.

I'm just all messed up right now.

What to do, what to do??? Do I try to talk to Ms. Honey? Ma'am Abi? What?? Argh!

I'm going psycho.


Now's the time when I'm in dire need of a doppelganger.

Eek! That's creepy.


The many, many things…

Like I always say, even if I’m not physically busy, my mind tends to be über-busy. I’ve been like this even on schooldays. What more this sembreak??? Since I spend most of my days ceiling watching (something Whanggo Gallaga said he would never try doing), I’ve had a lot of time in my hands to simply think of the many things I did, the many things I’ve realized, the many things I want to do, want to have, and never got to experience this sembreak. This is gonna be one pretty long entry. But trust me, it’s going to be fun.


1.) I spent time with Carlos a lot. We practically realized we have the same brain. And I would always enjoy spending time with him. We talk about EVERYTHING! And it feels really good to have another guyfriend who you can feel totally comfortable with, plus the thought that we’ve known each other since we were 5.

At Glorietta.

2.) I got a perm. I was really bored with my hair, and since I’ve always wanted to have wavy hair, I finally got it. And it feels good. A lot of positive attention! (lol!)

I haven't brushed my hair yet!

3.) I was one of the talents for Groupie TV. Howard Yambao got me in. I’ve known him since college, and now that he’s working in GMA, he got me in to be one of the talents for one of Groupie TV’s segments. Groupie TV will be shown on QTV Channel 11 this November. It’s GMA’s sister company now. And if you do see it, I APOLOGIZE. You’ll see why acting has never been an option for me.

I had to kiss Marco on the cheek!

4.) I had more fun with my cousins. It IS a normal thing for us, but this time we actually exaggerated. A little. (lol!)

Obviously cousins, eh?

5.) Chat a LOT with my fellow Seventeen Finalists. It feels good to have met new friends like them! PLUS Chesca Sumilang as well, who was a finalist of the Candy Model Search and does modeling for Seventeen now. And Carissa Francisco, who won the Candy Model Search in 2001 and does modeling for Seventeen now, AND a LOT of people from Multiply! It’s really cool! Yowza!

6.) Camwhore. This is the first time I decided to “document” everything that happened this sembreak in pictures. I uploaded all of them in my multiply account, so if I were you, you’d sign up for one now. Multiply rocks.

Ooo..Happy Halloween!

7.) Sign-up for a Gmail account. (Lol!) I just use Yahoo for “IMing” and back-up. How will I tell everyone not to email me at Hotmail anymore??? Hmm.


1.) OJT. And it sucks. We already paid for an apartment we were going to rent for the sembreak but it didn’t push through. It’s really sad.

Stole this photo from George.LOVE IT!

2.) Guesting at Breakfast. For some reason, it was postponed. But Kris said we’d be having a presscon this month, we’re guessing this is where the awarding and all will be held.

3.) Win Seventeen’s Favorite Model Search. BUT then, Congrations, Camille Cruz! I kinda knew it! (lol!) Goodluck in your new career, and I hope we’d get to work together again sometime in the future. I have a copy of the magazine already and you really look pretty (as always)! I mean all this! Love you, Camz!

Photo courtesy of Seventeen Philippines

4.) Go shopping. YET. I can’t wait. I’m thinking I might go raid I LOVE YOU or MARNI’S ROOM.

5.) Revise our thesis. *&^#%(*@*&$#@*&$!@)_(@$ !!!!

6.) Get a copy of Love in the time of Cholera and The Zahir. Kayo nalang! It’s okay if you don’t wrap it. Thanks, huh!

7.) Go to the Halloween party at the AAV. I saw Yen’s multiply yersterday and looks like she did have fun. Aw. Well as for me, I spent it with Carlos and two of his friends in Greenbelt. It was torture for me. Like always. Window shopping sucks sometimes.


1.) Star in an MTV. Seriously. I’ve only realized this lately. I think it would be fun. I’m no actress, I admit. But I’d like to star in an MTV. So. Yeah.

2.) Pose for Preview. It’s a DREAM of mine to be photographed by Xander Angeles. I love Preview’s classy/über-artistic photos. I consider it my bible. I cannot go through a month without a copy of this magazine. Seriously!

3.) Shop like there’s no tomorrow. It’s been eons since I last did that.

4.) Buy a new gadget. Like a PDA or the Playstation 3 and learn how to play Final Fantasy or something. And of course, Tekken will always be in the picture.

5.) Find a good modeling agency. Because it’s what I plan to do after college. I want to pursue this dream of mine since I was eight. I just want to be known for what I can do, for what I have. And this is it. And never underestimate modeling my dear friends. It’s not as Zoolander as you think.

6.) Have a sport. I’ve always wanted to play Baseball and Football but people always tell me that I’m not fit for it. Probably Tennis or Badminton will do me good. I just hope my right arm doesn’t get bigger than the left.

7.) Try something new. I’ve always been spontaneous. I wanna be that again.


1.) No matter what happens, I will always go back to Andrew. That’s reality, right there.

We'll still be walking a long way together...

2.) Being 19 isn’t very bad. It feels good to be called a woman. Yes, I am a woman.

3.) No, I’m not a woman yet…

4.) I really really really want to go to Paris.

5.) How much I miss highschool. Everything about highschool.

6.) I’m still a crybaby! (Mommmmy!)

7.) Everyone goes through that f*cked up phase of life. I was so stupid to have thought that my existence is useless, that there is no reason for me to be here, that I will end up sad, yada yada. Take my advice : Don’t ever, ever think of taking the knife in your kitchen drawer and the medicines in your first aid kit at these times. No good will come with it. BELIEVE ME.

8.) God never leaves us. We leave him. Think about it.

Life is so beautiful you guys. If I were you, I’d do something unusual, something crazy. I’d do it while I still can. Enjoy life!!! Fall in love! Ride a roller coaster! Publish that book you wrote! Ask someone out for a date! Wear something crazy!