I'm dating everyone right now...

Will DeVaughn, Jesse Metcalfe, Channing Tatum are my lucky guys.

I wish.

I'M IN JEDDAH NOW! Sitting with my good good good friend Jennver, and I'm suffering with colds.

While in Dubai, I was pulling off a Honey using the WiFi access while I was on my I-mate. I was typing a blog entry about how pissed this one copycat makes me but just as I was going to press on PUBLISH my PDA died on me. Very nice.

I barely slept the entire flight. I was up watching all these movies and I loved Step Up! It got me all kilig. Ha,ha. John Tucker must die just made me drool over Jesse, though.

I missed it here. Most of the time I'm grinning and smiling looking around, remembering how my life was here and how much I missed it back then.

I can't wait to meet up with Ann.
And visit my old school!
I never thought it would be this exciting.

I miss you guys.

Okay, gotta go.
Boyfriend number three is calling.

OMG I have four boyfriends, I forgot to mention Andrew!


Three hundred and Sixty five days of Abbigasms.

(Thank you Lance for inventing such a word)

IT feels like just yesterday we were right outside the gate lighting up all the fireworks we bought from Bulacan. I remember clearly lighting up my favorite, the Chinese fireworks that symbolized Love, Peace, and Success, wishing at the same time before I heard it fire up to what appeared like a moonless night.

There I was, ignoring the rest of the fireworks that looked like moving pieces of artwork drawn into the sky, blankly fast-forwarding to what would the year be like for me. And just like last year, I felt butterflies in my tummy, asking God what he had in store for me.

This has been one of the toughest years for my relationship with Andrew. I may not have been as stupid as I was the previous year, but I was on a different level of stupid this year. But I learn from it as usual. As the year progresses, the voice in my head starts to get louder and louder, and louder.

This year, I have concluded that I am partly mentally ill, but Lance told me that we all feel that way. So I say,Cheers to being part-Marissa Cooper and part-Peyton Sawyer, two of television's most complicated, troubled, disturbed lasses ever.

This year was nothing like I expected. Its the perfect mix of pain and everything that contradicts it.

Alas. The worst and the best, and the only ones I'd like to remember this year. Come see the silly drawings on the side of my pictures. They look ew to me. Ha,ha.

January 2006.

I continued my stressful but fun internship at ABS-CBN. I always have fun even if I get back home at 12 AM. Take note, I commute.

Andrew and I celebrated our second anniversary, but we won't have the actual celebration until September because I was completing my internship at the time.

Bianca booked me for the Prom shoot, where I got to work with Camille (again, after months of not seeing her), and Hazel and Princess Violago.

Tata booked me for Seventeen's situational shoot where we shot at her place at the AAV. I made new friends, Corinna and Sara.

Andrew and I appeared on La Salleño's cover together with Athena and Anton (wow, they casted four a's for the shoot. Ha,ha).

I "hosted" this year's Fashion Rally. If that's what you call it.

February 2006.

Andrew and I celebrated Valentines Day at MyLK. It was kinda off, but we had fun. Thanks again Upper, for the ride home.

Ack! The Seventeen summer shoot! It was fun because I worked with Crizenda and Vince. I'm so thankful, Tata and Cindy. Thank you for booking me.

March 2006.

I knew I was going to miss Upper so much. She's the sister I never had. I love her to bits.

Upper and I had an impromptu (sort of) trip to Tagaytay because I was drooling over Halayang Ube the night before.

I started bonding with my Kidlat family. Ha,ha.

April 2006.

I was a talent for Rex and the City. It was hilarious working with that guy. I enjoyed with Ara, too!

My co-ABS interns and I relived our days at "Bahay ni Kuya" in Pepet's house in Imus, Cavite. You can say we had one helluva night, drinking it away. I ended up tipsy and sleeping under the pool table, and after showering it off, I enjoyed watching my friends puke away to Dreamland. We barely had sleep, but it was fun.

We headed to Puerto Galera where we spent three days and two nights, and I, spent most of the time lazing in bed tuned in to Animal Planet. God, I miss my JOU family.
We all had a LOT of tummy-filling moments. You know who the clowns are.

As soon as I got home from Galera, my family and I headed that same night to San Fabian, Pangasinan. I didn't even bother to unpack. Ha,ha. I also remember talking to Tabs on my cell on the way and listening to Ben Jelen's "Come On" the entire trip. We stayed there overnight. I remember this crazy person drooling over my legs while we had dinner in Chowking. Ew.

May 2006.

Spent THE most unforgettable summer with my Babe. I think this is when it really occured to me, that I could totally spend the rest of my life with him, just being there having petty quarrels and making up for it everyday. It was the perfect summer for us.

My first trip to Pangasinan. I'm so happy to get to know his family! I love bonding with them. I just hate that Andrew and I fight even when we're there.

Worked with Laureen Uy after Cindy booked me for my first Fashion Spread in Seventeen. So far its my favorite fashion spread.

This is where my obsession with Rent started.

Upper celebrated her birthday in Matabungkay, Batangas. The JOU people + Andrew reunited! I love that I didn't really feel the moldy stones because Andrew was "carrying" me the entire time.

Ha,ha. We ate at CPK like every week.

I bought and started writing on my...what most people would describe as controversial... journal.

June 2006.

I met up with my highschool buddies! The Autistiks. Hahahaha. We slept over at Ann's after celebrating her birthday at Bubba Gump's. Then we headed to Carlo's pad and they drank and then we went back to Ann's place and we were camwhoring 'til 5 AM. The next day we went to MoA, which was my first time there.

I met up with my Seventeen girls and had a very memorable day. We were Super yayas for the day, to Cham's beautiful angels. I love Chammy! I also love that part when Camille, Frank, Saab and I were left at the car and we had to drive them home to Antipolo. Camille and I had this "heart-to-heart" talk after. I miss them.

OMG I turned 20. Ew. But the good thing is, I turned 20 doing what I loved. Bianca booked me for the UAAP Beauty Ed, and I celebrated it first thing in the morning at Sara's studio. I walked in, saw Jigs and Tatin and I was like, "Its my birthday!" Ha,ha. I love Jigs. I was still sleepy that time and he was like, "Hey Abbie, are you okay? You seem so quiet today." Heehee. Isn't Jigs the sweetest? I'm happy I got to work with Claude again, too! Plus Bianca and I were so inggit with Claude and Tatin speaking french. Aah.

After the shoot, Andrew and I met up at Greenbelt and I treated him at Bubba Gump's, too.

Mika booked me for a shoot for Seventeen where she was styling and I had a blast working with Cham, too! Most of the time I'd just admire Mika for being so multi-talented, and she's THAT gorgeous. I must be so lucky to have met her.

I also spent two consecutive stressful days in school, enrolling. Now I miss that.

New roomies (that I love, too) - Cathy and Chaiyie.

This is when Anna, Jhen, Kat, Pao, Tsik and I started to bond and gotten REALLY close. Anna's dorm is like my second dorm.

July 2006.

OMG how could I forget, it was my first iMaxgasm experience. We had a hard time though, since all the tickets were sold-out on weekends so we had to go there on a Wednesday and buy tickets for the following Wednesday. The experience was unforgettable because... DUH, what could be better than sort of seeing Brandon Routh right in front of you? It made me want to take him right there and then. LOL.

Celebrated Horhe's birthday at his place in Tanza, Cavite. It was a long day and I wasn't feeling very well. But nothing beats Karaoke and my JOU family combined.

Celebrated Fiesta in Kawit, Cavite. Thank you Crizel for accomadating us. It was cool that we were able to visit the Aguinaldo shrine, too.

Ack. When Andrew and I "discovered" the Ukay in Olivares (Tagaytay), we said HELLO to chilly afternoons Ukay hunting almost everyday. This one time we were there, we walked all the way from Olivares to Starbucks! It was the best. I love walking around with my Babe, we get to talk about a lot of things, walking with our arms wrapped around each other, just as they do in the movies. Ha,ha. We had dinner one time at Antonio's. YUM.

I met up with my HS buddies in Alabang and ended up in Malate where I saw Hanny. Woohoo. Crashed at Jason's. I love that my boy and HS buddies get to bond.

August 2006.

As much as I want to support my boyfriend in everything he does and loves to do, I, most of the time hate hate hate going on his Taek competitions and promotions because of the lame system. I mean, imagine sitting down for like 10 hours and by then your boyfriend hasn't even started yet, and all you see is people in white, screaming their butts off. The restrooms are filthy, and you're uncomfortable. Most of the time we end up fighting and then I don't support him. No hugs after the fight, no wiping off of sweat, no picture taking. I'm a bitch, I know. As much as I hate myself for being that, sometimes it just can't be helped. I can support my boy in everything that he does, but I lose being the stage girlfriend that I am when it comes to Taekwondo competitions. No offense.

I was interviewed for a job in this super-grool "company", ISDA. Fortunately I got the job.

Upper, Ara, Apple, Andrew and our HF friends and I met up and had dinner and this super scrumptous shawarma resto.

Andrew turned 19! And I got him a simple gift. Billabong boardshorts. Ha,ha. He told me to spend the rest of the money for myself. Isn't he the sweetest?

Jhen and Anna celebrated their birthdays at Tagaytay. We went thrift shopping even if it was raining hard and had dinner at Yellow Cab. I miss my Polca girls.

Ohmygaa, my first VTR. It was for Fita, I think. I saw Andre Felix during the VTR, and just as I guessed, he got the job.

September 2006.

Belated Anniversary Celebration at Nasugbu, Batangas. Two words : Walang tatalo.

October 2006.

Visited Pangasinan for the second time. It was an impromptu trip, thanks to Milenyo.

My good friend since gradeschool, Nat passed away. It was one of the saddest. He just graduated this March. Andrew and I had another one of our huge fights at the wake that's why I decided it was best we headed home before we made a scene. I'm really sorry Nat.

Andrew and I made the most out of our last month together as "students". We had the privilegde of seeing each other everyday, doing almost everything together and all.

My parents surprised me again. They came home without telling me they would be. Ha,ha.

Visited Palawan after 2 years. Met up with my gradeschool buds. Panalo.

It was the hardest moments of my life. Leaving another home. But this will be the closest home to my heart. The dorms.

November 2006.

I had haircuts like there was no tomorrow.

One of my OHMYGAA-I-can't-believe-it-moments : My Mom got me the limited Tim Yap ODM watch. And I bump into Sky and Carlo afterwards.

Got Babe a pair of Havs.

My obsession with Marie Antoinette begins right after I saw it.

And Andrew starts spending weekends at home. Yay.

I finally got a Starbucks planner. Last year really disappointed me.

I got another perm.

Hello, Moto.

Mom and Andrew bonds a lot.

December 2006.

Third visit to Pangasinan, this time with Mom.

Bianca booked me for a Holiday 2006 Beauty Editorial. Worked with Xeng Zulueta again. I love the vibe she gives off, like you've been friends for a long time and she's sharing chi-chi with you. I love her! I want Xeng to do my make-up when I get married. Heehee.

We found a new home in Rosewood Pointe. I really can't wait to start a new life there with my Grammy. Hello, Global City!

Reggie celebrated his birthday at EK. After months of missing them, I finally get to hang-out with my Kidlat buddies again. Tabs knows why I'm thanking him, too.


Yesterday my Mom and I went to Fix in Alabang and I was thinking about getting my hair cut short like Jessica Simpson, so it would like, appear as wavy but I decided to get bangs instead. I love them.

Oh, and an addition to being the proud Pinay that I am, I got a YABANG bracelet at Branded. I love that its only PHP50.00! Hey, you. Get one, too!

My flight's tonight. Off to Shawarma land. I guess its going to be awhile before I blog again. I'm going to miss you guys!

Yesterday, just as planned we were going to get the movie tie-in of Marie Antoinette : The Journey by Antonia Fraser. But I guess everybody seems to have fallen in love with her that's why its sold-out. YES, sold out on all Powerbooks and Fully Booked branches. Even Bibliarch, Sketchbooks and Montage had them sold out. I guess I'm just gonna get one in Dubai, even if I had planned on reading it while we're lounging in the airport. Oh well.

Guys. Tell me how your year went!
I'm wishing you all a happy and blessed year ahead!
Go 2007!

P.S. SHOUT OUT to Camille Agcaoili. I love you so much, Choclit Cake. You're the best. Imagine, you were listening to my rants at 5AM! I so so so love you for that. HUGS.

And Yen! I bumped into her at the Town yesterday. Yenny! I'll be learning Belly Dancing soon, promise you'd teach! O-yay!


Happy Holidays, I miss camwhoring!

Yes, totally irrelevant.

Gah, I missed blogging. You know what else I miss?
I was browsing through my inactive Multiply account and I came across those camwhore-filled albums way back last year.

Okay, not to brag or anything but I wish I still looked like that whenever I camwhore. Ha,ha. What is up with my self-esteem? LOL!

I'm sorry I wasn't able to greet you guys yesterday. I wasn't even able to text my Christmas message (yes, I composed it myself, just like I do every year) to all of my contacts, thanks to running out of credits. Oh well.

So how did your Christmas go? Mine was better than the usual. Its been a few years since I last felt the Christmas spirit, but I sure felt it this year.

Today was my second day of driving lessons. My Tito is teaching me, today I practiced driving in Southwoods. I can't wait to drive my own car. But whenever I'm off to learn, I just get so jittery. Oh well.

I think I'm going to get bangs tomorrow.

Lance I hate you for ever mentioning /b/ boards.
Okay now I'm starting to get addicted.


Twelve Twenty-four, Two Thousand and Six.


Ohmigosh, stop laughing already. These photos were taken eons ago.
We were young and so in love. Ha,ha!

Seriously -

No one thought we'd get this far. Hell, I don't even think you thought we'd get this far. But hey, we didn't just prove everyone else wrong, we also proved ourselves wrong. Because we're still fighting even if there are times when we don't know what exactly we're fighting for.

I don't know why I go so crazy over this relationship, and you don't know why you're still in it.

But, we're still here. And I know we'll always be. Like we both intend to.

You will be the only one who can make or break me.

I cannot wait to marry you. Seriously.
I've said this a million times, but if you asked me now I'd definitely say yes.
I love every bit of you, Andrew.

Oh and no, we cannot name our children Chantel and Chanel.
End of discussion.


Oh, and yes. Its big.

I'm preparing for my ANNUAL YEAR END REPORT!
Exciting. Ha,ha.

Tell me how your year went, too!



While I'm getting used to having a Mom again after years of separation (I took up college here and both my parents were in the Middle east), I couldn't get over the fact that I snagged a genuine Miu Miu dress at the 3 for 100 section at the nearest Ukay.

I also can't help but feel anxious of the new home I'll be having in a few months.
And everything starts from scratch. For the meantime I will be dealing with having almost nothing at home. Ha,ha.

I remember when I moved to Jeddah my room was almost empty. Months later it just got fuller and fuller.

I guess I'll be doing the same with this one. As soon as I get there I promise I'd work my butt off to look like we're settled, so I can finally get a dog.

I surfing on Dogster right now and I can't wait to sign-up for an account when I finally have my own! All the stories of dogs who died in their sleep or got euthanized made me cry.

But what should I get first?
Siberian? Spaniel?
No, Siberian first.

I'm kind of falling in love with Bichons.
Okay, Siberian first.

I'll name it Atienne, regardless of the gender.
Kish would probably be for my future Husky.

Here's to sleepless nights of pampering, litter box training, cuddling, taking pictures of it sleeping and signing up for Dogster!
I'm soooo ready.


It's been what, ten years?

It feels like I was out in Mars having a vacay.

The PC broke down while Andrew was using it three days ago and we weren't able to go online since. Thank God its okay now.

The other day we went to EK with my fellow Kidlat people. Only without Mara, Regine and Crizel. You can say I was the only girl there. Ha,ha. But there's nothing wrong with having all the boys to yourself sometimes.

I was such a scaredy cat I didn't ride the Space Shuttle.

We didn't stop falling in line for the Rapids until everybody was soaking wet.
Yes, I will post photos soon when my Mom is done with the sermon.

What I hate about moving is all the hassle and the new adjustments!
But the thing is, we're not moving until the last week of May.

I guess having a lot of stuff does have its cons.

And I hate everyone else making a big deal of things. Sometimes you can't help but think about getting married (like right now) just to shut everyone up. And so everything you do together would be legal.
"OMG they're brushing their teeth together, I wonder what else they do together".

I just keep mum about it but inside what I'm really saying is LEAVE ME ALONE! I've survived years without almost anyone there and now that everyone's here I feel like I don't need any more guidance, not because I can do everything on my own but because I've gotten used to that kind of life where I control everything and I do what I want to without anyone telling me what to do.

I know its bad but for crying out loud.
Treat me like a twenty-year-old.

I am not the same person as you left me, and I sure as hell have changed. I may not be able to handle everything about life, but I sure can handle myself.
I've done a lot of things without "guidance" and I survived. It wasn't easy but I went through it.

So please.
Don't make rebel. Its not a threat. But I can't help but feel like I'm on a very short leash. I'm not used to that anymore.

As mean as this sounds, please leave me alone.
At least for now.

Just one day without this.
Just one day.

Or a year I guess.

How much does one island cost?


Turn again and turn towards this time.

The Marie Antoinette OST was on repeat mode in my MP3 player yesterday. And as I'm typing this entry, I'm on track number 4 of the first disc.
Pulling our weight by The Radio Dept.

Lance granted my wish! He helped me DL it step by step. And so I must say, I'm loving Torrentspy right now. I was able to DL The Beach's OST as well. Ha,ha sorry. The first time I downloaded Torrent, it wasn't working well.
Now I can say hello to THE OC SEASON 4 EP'S! Yes! Hahaha.

Okay. Gobbledygook.
I haven't used that word for eons.
Ha,ha. I wonder why.

I really cannot wait to get a job.
I used to hate the idea of finishing school and working to earn a living.

Now, I'm just so atat to finally rant about something more senseful.
And to get off that leash.

I sound so rebellious.
Maybe because I've been that these past few weeks.
And I hate it.


Party hard, Live forever.

I'll have to credit my good friend Aiman for the title entry.
Its how he describes living the Marie Antoinette life.

Thank God!

Come May 2007, here I come Global City!

Here's to partying and rubbing elbows with Tim Yap (here's to hoping, I mean).
Here's to early mornings spent pigging out in Krispy Kreme.
Here's to unlimited WiFi access at the clubhouse.
Here's to loads of night swimming.
Here's to feeling like living forever.



Porn Star Super Bomba.

Sounds a lot like Rockstar Supernova. Ha,ha.

Anyways, Chucky (a.k.a. THE Elvin Valerio) gave me that idea as we were texting this morning. He said "Porn Star Super Bomba" was the name of a band he saw recently in Saguijo.

Its kind of related to my current post, since someone I call "Tabs" teased me of how I looked like a "bold star" in my recent Multiply headshot (which is my current Candy faces primary photo).

So what? Ha,ha.

I still love it. But what I'm more proud of now, is my recent Beauty Ed for Bianca Consunji's 2Bu! article.

PHILIPPINE DAILY INQUIRER, 2bU!, DECEMBER 13, 2006 (PHOTO CREDITS : Photo by Sara Black, Make up by Xeng Zulueta, Hair by Felicity Son )

I had a great time, as usual shooting with Team Bianca. Ha,ha. I got to be in a studio again after a long time! And I got to finally meet Patty!

Biancs, if you're reading this - Thanks a lot!! YOU'RE THE BEST. Anything for you!

I was touched when Andrew got up early and bought a copy. He should've been resting at the dorms today since he doesn't have an exam scheduled for today. I LOVE YOU BABE! Thank you!

Will post BTS photos SOON. Please pray that my brother, Juan Tamad would stop influencing me. He's already did that for the past few days.

I love you, Maria Antonia Lothringen!
I don't think I'm ever going to get over Marie Antoinette.


My Christmas Wishlist.

What a cheesy title entry.

NO. This is not an open letter to Santa Claus. Even if Santa reads it, I'm sure he won't grant me my wishes because I've been quite a bad girl this year. And even if I've made up for my mistakes, I think Santa should be granting the wishes of all the families affected by the calamities. I also know this goes beyond his field of work, but Santa should fill for what the government of every country lacks. Which means, Santa... you should run each and every country on Earth.
Please kick their filthy, corrupt bottoms.

As for my wishes, Its up to God to provide them. But first, it would be up to me to be able to reach them.

Alas. Here goes. My wishlist that applies not just for Christmas, but for 2007!

1. A convertible beetle.

♥ I've always wanted one. I want it in RED! The seat cover is going to be in leopard print. Wild! Ha,ha. Although I love staying at the backseat, I just cannot wait to drive on my own and feel the wind blowing through my hair! And I'd do it "Stars are Blind, Paris Hilton" style.
ROAD TRIP!! Ha,ha!

2. Two dogs would be fine.

♥ The Cocker Spaniel was always a dream dog, since I saw it in a black and white photo on my "How to draw" book that I got aboard a boat named Doulos. I fell in love with the Siberian Husky since I saw Devil on "Snow Dogs". These are two of my dream dogs. And I can already imagine them jogging with me, and sticking their tongues out of the car when I drive about town. I'd love to get a Toy Dog, too. But these two are my priorities! Ha,ha.

3. My personal IT bags.

♥ Although it would be great to be on IT girl La Lohan's shoes to be able to tote all the IT bags the world has to offer, my IT bags would be the Fendi Spy Bag, the Chanel 2.55 and the Balenciaga Motorcycle Bag. I know they're out of "style" but to carry these lovely ladies around my wrist would be a dream come true! Heart Evangelista said that she would invest on designer bags because she would be able to pass them on to her daughters and I agree. But if I would ever buy an LV bag, I wouldn't invest on the monogram bags because they're all over the place.

4. Because I am a hardcore gadget girl!

♥ Thank you Pop for that. Ha,ha. Right now I'd really love to have the Powerbook G4! And the Sony DSC-N2 digital camera. Please please? Ha,ha.

5. Chwispy Chreme for Christmas!

♥ I first read it in Corinne's Multiply account a few months ago that there would be a franchise of Krisy Kreme in the Philippines. When I heard about its grand opening, I was one of those at home wishful thinking that I was first in line so I'd have like a year supply of these scrumptous doughnuts. Ha,ha!

6. Knick Knack Knickers.

♥ I've already bought my second set of CK underwear last month, so I wanna get a pair of lingerie from Victoria's Secret, La Senza and Chantal Thomass (I saw Aurora's pair in her friendster account and it was love at first sight!). Here's to feeling sexier when you're not nekkid!

7. High-end, Avant-garde.

♥ I have ALWAYS, always wanted to be a part of an avant-garde shoot. Like crazy make-up and super hair that would leave me unrecognizable. Like a whole new different person! I love love love everything avant-garde. Especially when they do it on Preview. Appearing on Preview Magazine will always be my number one dream. And I hope I get to see the day.

8. A pair of Skull-printed Vans in size 5 please.

♥ Because they rock. But they never fit me. That's really sad.

9. Shop like a crazy person at Marni's Room and I love you.

♥ I have ALWAYS wanted to shop there! Seriously. But being a mallrat, I get easily blinded by Zara. TopShop. Mango. And who could blame me? Ha,ha!

10. Tickets to... wherever.

♥ Because I have always dreamed of seeing the world. I always thought that it would be the best gifts ever, seeing what God left for us to see. I would love to explore other cultures, and see how different my way of living has been. I think it would be the most magical experience.

11. Diamond-batting peepers.

♥ Because I adore Madonna (totally), I got all giddy when I saw these on her, because I've been eyeing on them even before they got really sikat. Plus after seeing the very controversial Gretchen Barretto bat her eyes over a million times last Sunday in The Buzz, you just gotta say it to yourself: "If I ever have a pair on, I would never do something like that."


12. Because they're Tsubiliscious.

♥ With about PHP15,000 a pair, you know you've got to have one. I know I do. I WILL SOON INVEST ON TSUBI JEANS! Come 2010, you'll see. Ha,ha! They've just arrived in Manila! Aaaack!

13. The modern-day Tiara.

♥ I've always always wanted one! I think they rock. I hope Hermès makes these really cute skull-printed ones. For me, they would definitely be to die die die for.

Anyways, I decided that I continue to update my wishlist first since all these things just keep popping out of nowhere. I'm too tamad to post photos of the past week, but do not fret. I will soon.

I believe one of my biggest dreams is about to come true.




Due to the weather, the WiFi connection went bad since the 9th.
Since we're leaving for Alabang in a while...

I'M UPDATING LATER (this post will be replaced).

Yun lang. Just want to tell all y'all to hang-on. Haha.

Haha (biglang shout-out).

See you guys in a while!


Yes! Finally, a poser!

Hahaha! Parang masaya pa no? Nakakatuwa lang kase.

Hahaha. Love the spelling. Ayos. Pati ba naman yung ABOUT ME hindi mo pinalampas? Aysus.
She just used one photo of me, but what really ticked me off was copying my ABOUT ME profile. Iba na pag salita mo yung ninanakaw.

WelI I kind of know her friend who commented, "That's her Honey, I took that".
She was this girl who sent this specific message to Andrew dated March 2005:

YOU'RE HOT! HEHE... san location mo??? uhm..
cavite?? sayang may girlfriend ka na... ok lang
makipag friend seo... labas namn tayo sometime...
if you don't mind..."

I think she was pissed at me for replying, saying something like "He has a girlfriend, don't you get that?" Basta, something like that. And I don't think she has gotten over it since.
Isn't that funny?

I'm sorry sweetie. You girls started it.

The ironic thing is, MAMATAY KA SA INGGIT was written as her shout-out. Not to sound stuck-up but isn't that supposed to be MY line? Specifically FOR people like YOU?

Oh, go to hell.
Or better yet, EAT CAKE!

Maybe you're not bad at all.
So girls, I hope I made your dream come true. Now you can have all the attention you want!

I love you guys!

I LOVE YOU AMIRAH. Thanks for telling me, I MISS YOU!! :-)


More cheese?

"Love makes virgins of us all and gives us wings"
- Elvin Valerio

This wise man has shared so much to me and has taught me a lot without pushing too hard to stuff all the words in my head. He just does that. Its part of his magic. Its actually weird because its a side of Chucky I haven't seen before. And you know what, he's actuallyr right. He's right about a lot of things.

Love can do that though. It transforms us into something else. Something bigger. Something greater. Something better. Its just so ironic how it can bring us down. Tear us apart. Make us go crazy.

Sometimes I wish it was easier to forget all the bad things and just think about the good ones. I wish love did that too. I wish it could overcome all the shit.

But in reality, there are times when its not enough. Then all the other factors come to mind.
Okay maybe you're going to go all "No you're wrong" on me, but unless you haven't seen the bad side of it all, then you don't know what I'm talking about. Its hard to admit but even love has... a bad side.

I always thought Weddings were great. Weddings were easy. Weddings... are actually scary. Unless you're dead sure about a certain person... that's when... they become easier. That's when you know you're really ready to deal with all the scary stuff about that person...about your lives...about Love.

"Love is easy".

No. It's not. It never is. There is always something there to complicate things.
I believe that...the greatest love is...when people don't really understand what's going on except for the two people in love with each other.

In the movie Brokeback Mountain, Annis and Jack loved each other so much. And I know this should be a gender issue but actually its not. Love sees past through these things. And its amazing how two people can fight for that feeling. But that could only be possible if... you let love take over.

Let love take over everything. Every part, every vein, every bone, every cell of your body. And then...that's when things would get easy.

Do you actually get what I'm trying to say? Don't hold it back. Never hold it back. You're going to the wrong direction if you do.
Let them in. Let them in.

And then maybe...just maybe... Love could really show you the greatest things in life.
Just make sure they're doing the same thing too.

Don't be stupid enough to go on a one way street. Love can make you do that. Either you're aware of it or stupid enough to ignore it.
The manual doesn't include being a martyr to be happy.

This is sappy.
Jeez. I can't believe watching One Tree Hill over and over can do this to you.

HAHA!... but hey, I actually meant all of that.

It feels great to be in love just... don't be stupid.
I should start reading a lot of poetry starting tomorrow.
Hmm...Add that on my must-must list.

This is so sappy, I didn't even know if I made sense. But someone taught me how to stand by my words. And I am.

I'm so thankful to know a lot of people who has taught me a lot. Well yes, they can end up hurting you...but as that cliche goes... what doesn't kill only makes you stronger.

Life can suck..but it will go on, believe it or not. As much as we think the world will end for us.
God gives us a lot of people to lean on. And of course God himself will always be there. And of course...he's that one person we should let in...fully.

And...don't leave people behind.
Because once they let you in...

..they give it all.

I'm not sure if I already posted it, but I just felt like posting it (again, if I already have). I found it last night while I was looking for my old template.

Speaking of template, the blog is almost done. I'm still searching for online HTML tutorial (what a dork) so I can edit some more. And I'm waiting for Lance's response to my HTML question.

Jeez I hate that everything is about HTML now!

I'm glad you guys liked it. But I REALLY want a drop-down menu!
Okay, am I showing signs of desperation? That's a good thing so some good 'ol soul would want to help me.



This is bleak, you guys.

Do not fret! This is not done yet. Ha,ha.

Its 1:40 A.M.
I sat my ass in front of this freakin' computer since 10 A.M.
And my lay-out isn't even done yet.
I am a ditz.

My brain cells are dying.
I find it so hard to understand HTML.
My eyebrows meet whenever I try to figure them out, even basic HTML!
What the f?

I want drop-down buttons.
I want my titles to be big and bold.

Suggest websites that I can go to so I can get better at this.
I really hate HTML!


I'm still fixing my border tomorrow.
That's it for today.

Sorry if I've been leaving you guys hanging!
When this is done, I promise matitino na yung entries ko.

Thanks for visiting!
I deleted my old template by accident, I've already linked a lot of people, please leave your blog addresses nalang so I can link you again.
So sorry!


Time, time, time.

It flies so fast.

Anyways, I'm back to my old template. I'm currently working on my new Marie Antoinette inspired lay-out, and I'm really forcing myself to learn HTML now. So I won't keep asking help from my friends, I know they're really sick of it already. Ha,ha.

I had fun today, thanks again Bianca for booking me!

I know I said I was gonna make kwento and all. But super hectic ang schedule ko!

I spent like 7 hours in front of the PC working on my new lay-out but I'm not satisfied with how it looked like so I'm not going to use it first.

I'll post more tomorrow, IF I'm not dead-tired (again).


Lucy, I saw you on the telly. I was screaming like a crazy person.


C'mere Kitty! C'mere You!

Of all the cats, you're the one I'd want to strangle.
And then I'd strangle all the members of the Pussycat dolls, too.
But that's a different sorry.

But hey. That would be a crime. Its a bigger crime than the one you've always been committing. Besides, you're not doing anything wrong. I should be happy that its actually the sincerest form of flattery. Ha,ha.

I just got back from Pangasinan! I repainted my chipped nails. I know its bad to sleep late when you have a shoot the next day. But I'm a bad girl. Ha,ha.

I can't wait to see you, Bianca, Sara and Patty! I'm excited to work with Xeng again, too!


Will reply to your comments tomorrow guys, and will post photos too!
Oh and I'm typing my Wishlist and my New Year predictions too.

O, baka pati yan gayahin na ha. Buti nalang ako inaamin ko pag gumagaya ako.

But anyways, its Christmas. So everyone does the wishlist. Hahaha.
I have a lot of kwento! Can't wait to tell.

My nails are almost drying out so I have to tuck myself in. I need sleep!
I don't need bigger eyebags for tomorrow.



Of all the things.

Last night as I was about to take a shower I suddenly remembered what day it was. The 30th of November. The last day of the submission of the photos to complete my registration. What a dumba**. Ha,ha. How careless could I get?

Anyways, don't fret you guys. I'm sure there are more opportunities. Especially when I finally get "things" done when I get back from Jeddah.

I'm in Pangasinan for the weekend with Mom. I was having a hard time taking a shower pala last night because of the Grudge-like kisame in Andrew's bathroom. It was open, and exactly on the shower-head pa! I was freaking out like a crazy person thinking something blue with really long hair would be popping right in front of my face. But hey, that's just lack of sleep. Hahaha.

Weather is kinda bad but not as I expected, thank God.

I can't stay very long.


Couldn't we all just get along?

One of the reasons why we can't feel the spirit of Christmas - is because of all the blood spilled on the ground.

But anyways. I'm not in the mood to talk serious. I'm currently watching 24 and its too much (ha,ha!).

Do you want to know how silly Andrew is? Oh who cares if you're not interested, I'm letting you know anyways!

Since we got our MMS and GPRS settings activated together last Sunday (ha,ha! Di naman super late no?) since we got our new phones, we've been sending MMS messages even if we're like 5 inches away from each other.

Today, after decorating the Christmas tree (which was, by the way the first time in years I felt the Christmas spirit again), I took a photo and sent it to him, using this word that I learned from Cams. too. Heehee. His reply was something that made my day.

ABBIE: MERRY CHRISTMAS, BEB! Payce Niggah! Bizzack! Hahaha!

ANDREW: My X-mas socks por x-mas! Merry Christamas!


Hey guess what, yesterday someone called for me, but since I wasn't home, my grandmum jotted his number down so I'd call him as soon as I got home. But since I got home late I called him today. When I dialed the number the operator answered:
"Welcome to Solar Entertainment Corporation..."

I gasped.
Solar Entertainment.

I submitted my entry about two weeks ago but haven't sent them photos yet.
When I got to talk to Onel (the person who called me up yesterday) later that afternoon, he was already verifying all the information I sent in the online registry form. When it came to my height, I said 5'3". And there was a long pause between us and you can tell that he was smiling while saying "Mmm..." and I replied saying the same thing. Ha,ha! He said that there would be a slight problem with the height but I told him that I submitted an entry anyways because it was worth a shot.

He then asked if I submitted photos already but I said I haven't yet. I immediately suggested I'd submit them, just in case. And he agreed.
"Just in case." We both said.

Just in case God says that I'm meant to get in. Then I'm meant to get in.
That's how life is supposed to be.

I'm thankful I finally feel the Christmas spirit.
I can't wait to write my annual year-ender report this December, and my New Year Predictions, too.

A SHOUT-OUT to Chesca and Cariri for both looking ubergreat in Candy's December ish (I grabbed a copy today, and as usual Candy still never fails to please the 13-year-old in me!)

Ack. Will upload more photos tomorrow, the ones taken the other day and yesterday. I'm really tired.

I miss you Babe!


Bonding, Borat and Camwhoring.

We went to Shangri-la today to pick-up the shirt I had reserved at Zara. Thanks again to Saab who told me where she got the shirt I recently saw on her Multiply (her friend was wearing it and later on she ended up getting it too not noticing na magkapareho sila. heehee.) It was skull-printed so kahit matawag na akong gaya-gaya okay lang! ha,ha. Thanks Zuv. I know you don't mind! Heehee.

I also got a gift for Drew's sister at Zara, since we'll be spending the weekend in Pangasinan and Kaye's birthday is on the 28th. Wah.

And then we watched Borat!
It was funny. But I kind of expected more.

On the way to the cinema I saw the Happy Feet stall and I wanted to get this Mumble keychain to use it as a charm for my bag. Ha,ha. Grr.

Sorry, camwhoring (especially at Zara) is a guilty pleasure. I know I look like a poser though. But who cares? Hahaha.

The overused peace sign.

I love this top.

Gaya-gaya ako kay Saab!


Mom and Drew. Love you both to bits!

Love. Ha,ha! Cheesy.

I love you SO MUCH Mom, you're totally THE best!

Anyways,I really hate that I've said "I'll pass" on almost every offer made and every VTR go-see invite I get! I mean, there's like always something in the way of me being able to go back into a studio! That really sucks.

Essy just texted me asking if I could do a fashion ed with her but I ended up saying "I can't" again since I'll be up North at the weekend. It sucks, really. But I can't give up spending time at Drew's. I just hate that I've been letting too many opportunties pass by, and to think that I'm struggling in this industry which I don't know if I am already a part of but oh well. God has a plan for me.

Something funny happened today. After having dinner I was singing "But its better if you do", and less than 3 seconds later my phone rang, in which "But its better if you do" was my call alert.

Ha,ha. Just sharing.

I wanna watch a lot of films!
The Nativity Story. Apocalypto. Blood Diamond. The Reaping.

Sheesh. I still haven't seen "Ang Pamana" yet! Grr.

Get me a soundtrack of THE BEACH!


Hello, Moto!

Well whaddya know.

My Mom and I were already booked to leave for Jeddah on Sunday. But somehow God wants us to leave after Christmas (on the 29th to be exact). Well, its better than leaving on January. Besides there are so many unfinished business here.

Anyways, yesterday, I finally got a MotoRazr V3x! I know its been a long time since it was out but who cares? Its hot pink and it flips and I love it! I used the money given by my two of my Uncles (as a graduation gift!).

I had it Gmasked today! Weepee! Single layer lang , cherries. I was supposed to have crystals stuck lang sana under the outer LCD to form a skull. But since putting the crystals can possibly do damage to the phone (like when you want them taken out na), and I can't cover it with a crystal case once the crystals have already been placed, I decided to just have it wrapped. And boy did it look hotter! Ha,ha.

I GOT ANOTHER PERM! At the F salon in Greenbelt. I was looking at the BedHead products when this familiar face came out of nowhere and asked, "Do you need any help?" I turn and end up starstruck. If I'm not mistaken he's the internationally acclaimed stylist who now works at the F salon. How stupid can I actually get to forget his name?

Sarap pala magpa-thread ng eyebrows! Try niyo!

Later that day, Drew and I met up too.

Getting another perm and Mom getting her hair dyed.

At Chef d' Angelos.

Tada! I love the flip'n'toe cellphone accessory I got at Colorstone too! Ha,ha.
Hello Eyebags.

I know I'm outdated but I'm in love with it.

Yay! Another Bed Head product. I really am a bed head, actually.

Tomorrow Drew and I will be meeting up again at Shangri-la (with my Mom of course) so I can finally buy the shirt I had reserved (thanks Zuv! heehee) and a shirt I can give as a gift for Drew's sis at Zara .

Then we'll be watching BORAT! Yay.

OH AND Paris and Nicole are BFFs again! I just grabbed the December copy of OK! Magazine ( I just love Paparazzi photos, seriously!) and read that they're BACK to being friends again. That's good news! Looking forward to seeing Pap photos of Mischa, Lindsay, Paris and Nicole all hanging-out together.

Need to get some rest! I've been sleeping for less than eight hours almost everyday, including weekends! Really, really cruel. Someone get me an OST of The Beach, please! Its a way better alternative than sleeping pills.

And yes, I FORGOT. How stupid can I get? KILL ME NOOOW!

I really do do do do super love and miss you to bits.
I know you had fun yesterday! Can't wait to see you again!

Me want bed.

I can't wait 'til we turn three!

Ha,ha. Okay enough.

Me want bed.


What's your heartsong?

I really thought I wouldn't be able to see it today.
I still have so much I want to see. BORAT, ANG PAMANA ... Yikes.
(Cariri if you're reading this, pinagbigyan ako ni Mommy! hahaha. We'll be super busy up until the day before our flight. But we still manage to squeeze in time for Mumble! heehee.)

HAPPY FEET isn't your typical animated film. I love that it's a musical animated film. I hope kids would learn how to appreciate musicals more after watching it. Plus it also talked about animal rights. And I love that.

Speaking of animal rights, I want you guys to read this entry I typed on Multiply regarding animal rights, and how strongly I feel about it.

Here's the link:

Animal cruelty stops now.
Help me, Help them!


I was just watching this documentary on NatGeo about an outbreak coming from the pigs. And they were just pushing them into this pit and burrying them alive. They also shot them to death, and the pigs were screaming.

Are people really (this) cold-hearted these days?

Wait a minute.
No really.

Whatever I saw on Happy Feet today, I hope people really were as caring and as compassionate as they were in the movie.

Animals deserve their part of the world. And you might think of it as boring, but wait until it would really affect you. I just hope you won't regret that you didn't even lift a finger when that day comes.

ANYWAYS, that's enough ire for the day.

I haven't found my heartsong yet, because the song hasn't been made for me yet. Err. it hasn't been composed or released yet, I guess. Or maybe because I easily lose myself. Don't worry. Just because I don't have a heartsong doesn't make me any less of a person.

I can be Mumble.

And so I leave you with this (really silly but cute) question:


A ton in my shoulders.

Ack. Sorry. My blog isn't really fixed yet.

When can I say that and make it end with an exclamation point?
When can I stop asking questions?
When can I stop asking questions.

This has been one of the weirdest phases of my life.

First of all, I claimed my transcript of records from school a few days ago, and saw
"... Ms. Almasco graduated on the 27th of October, 2006."

There was no reaction.

I went blank! Like, "SO?"
I graduated. As I expected I graduated on October.

For some reason I know I should be happy about that.
So long to the days when I have to get up at 6AM to take a shower but end up skipping class and regretting it later.
So long to arguing by Andrew's window and screaming both our lungs out regardless of knowing that everyone can hear us and gossip about it later.
So long to dating on a daily basis.
So long to being less than an hour away from an impromptu Tagaytay date.

So really, is that something I should be happy about?

Everything happened so fast.
The next thing I knew all my stuff were in blackbags scattered around the house, and the dorms were empty.

I can no longer hear my boyfriend's voice everyday.
I can no longer barge into Anna's and Kat's dorms without knocking.
I can no longer diss the people dissing me.

But oh well.
Let's walk down memory lane for a while.

Giddy Abbie in uniform. Ha,ha.

I used to hate it. Now I really miss being in it!

The days we used to sit by the Rotonda by day.
We usually sit there at night time kase

SM. Wala nang choice eh.

I will miss taking up summer classes.

And summer escapades, either its just us or with friends I love.

And spending really boring days at the kubo.

This month (God willing), I'm spending a few months in Jeddah, and when I come back, I could finally start focusing on my future.

It's something that scares me nowadays. I still haven't made up my mind on what I want to do with my life.
I've never felt so... senseless in my entire life. EVER.

But oh well. Who knows, its going to dawn on me soon.

I hope ISDA takes me back. Will elaborate on that some other time.

Anyways, here are photos from this weekend. Andrew spent them here, remember?

Mga gusgusin.

After attending mass. Yes, retainers. Grr.

Andrew's ALA ARABIA tat on my arm. Ha,ha!

Andrew's hairy leg and the "tattoo" I drew the next day.

I couldn't believe I won't be able to watch Happy Feet tomorrow. Not on the iMax theatre? After swearing to myself that I wouldn't miss it for the world?

The days have gone real slow for me. I wonder when everything's going to be so hectic again I feel suicidal.