This blog is bakin'.

But don't take me out from your links!
I'll be back as soon as...
I'll be back.
And as I always say "Don't hold your breath though!"

Will miss y'all!

Merry Christmas you guys!
(Happy Birthday Papa Jesus!)
and Have a blessed New Year!

Happy Birthday, Pop! (lol)


Would you want more cheese in that?

March 8 2004
I remember feeling so excited about how the future would turn out to be that I forgot how to live day by day. Enjoy what I have as of the moment. The last time I was in the relationship, I thought way ahead. I wanted a pretty big house. Just enough for all 5 of us. I wanted 3 kids, girl first. I wanted to settle down abroad, I always imagined my firstborn daughter sitting at my hubby’s lap while he reads her stories by late afternoon at the couch outside the porch. On how the sunset would reflect on their faces. On how my daughter would end up sleeping on her dad’s shoulders. Just the thought of it makes me cry. That’s gonna be another chapter of my life. But then all those dreams faded. I thought I had found that one person I could spend the rest of my life with. But I just thought way ahead. And I fell for all those plans. They were marked in my stupid head that things were SUPPOSED to end up the way I had pictured it. With the person I had pictured it.

But things change. They can get better. Lucky for me, I believe it did.

It came through Andrew.

There are times when I would find myself going there – to that dream. But I stop myself. I have learned the art of living each day to the fullest. Sure we do talk about children but we don’t really take it that seriously. C’mon, we have a lot of time for that. :D I’m just leaving it all up to God.

For now, there’s just so much to love about Andrew. The innocence, the sweetness, the doodles he writes at the back pages of his notebook, the *blinks* he does, his smile, his arms, the way he gets jealous and still deny it, the way he’s give me kisses on my cheeks for more than 5 times (hehehe…), the way he hugs me SOOO tight, and the way he pinches my nose, and would you believe? The green jokes. I have eventually learned how to “ride on”. And we’d laugh of course. There’s also so much to know. I do think it’s not easy for Andrew to open up about his feelings sometimes. When I got to read the stuff at his notebook I was shocked… in a good way. I never knew that’s how deep his thoughts and feelings were. About me. He’s like this male version of me and it irritates me sometimes, cause I see myself in him, and I go : “ OH MY GAWD! …that’s how irritating I am! “… Funny I found my very own “katapat”… :D

May 07 2004
I was on a ride home and I was thinking about Andrew the whole time. And then I thought of the things we do when we're together. When we just sit, talk and cuddle...I'd tell him about my childhood, and he'd tell me stories,too... and then we'd just laugh about the stuff we tell each other... and then in between our conversations we'd just stare at each other and I'd smile at him...then his hand would rub on my back...then the times he'd hug me and he'd feel my tummy...the times when he'd lean on my shoulder then gimme this really tight hug...then I'd feel him breathing on my neck...and then we'd just sit there...talking about how we feel...

He changed a lot. And it just feels good that he's learned how to be more open when it comes to how he feels for me. I just love it whenever he tells me how he feels.

And then it hit me, on that way home. While I was in the van with PINK BUNNY in my arms. How I just love telling him stories, and how I love the way he always listens to me even when he's really tired and sleepy... I could do that. I could wake him up when it's sunrise...while we're just lying there...and then I'd just tell him my thoughts...and then he'd still listen... and then I thought of how happy I really am with him...and then all those... just started to make me cry.

For the first time in my life...I cried with tears of joy over a guy.

Hey, don't find it weird. It's just how it really is. I'm not just in love.


July 03 2004
My Mum brought us at Ed's place last Friday night ta sleep over, (me and Drew..) They were all like "Asteeg! Your mom let you sleep over wit Drew?" hehe. Well, that's how close me and my Mum are. And that's how much she trusts both of us. I feel so lucky. My mum just doesn't know how much. But I am. I feel so fortunate.And I may not be Bill Gate's daughter, I feel like one of the richest kids...filled wit God's blessings. *sigh*.

Grabe. feels so good to wake up next ta him again. Thing is, when I woke up he was already awake, and he had his big arms around me..I even caught him staring at me. Haha. :D As much as I hate him looking at me, I just LOOVE it whenever he does. What irony. :D There was this time when I was falling asleep, and I just peeked and he was staring! He's like... "Ang cute!!!" hehe. Aww. *kilig* thing I love is whenever we'd do that nose to nose thing and he'd end up kissing it. Gawd, that guy just loves pinching my nose. I don't see anything so different about it. Mmm...

September 25 2004

3 days ago was MR.CET. Hehe. It was a big day for my Baby. It was a big day for me,too. I had to be his P.A. in which I volunteered to be. No one else had to be. :D It was one heck of a day that I wouldn't forget. One of the "moments" is when he was in his formal attire and he was looking at me,I gave him a flying kiss and he kissed me back! haha. Minus the hands, of course. :D My Baby won Best in Formal Attire and Model's Pick. :) After the pageant I ran ta him backstage and gave him a big hug. :D And of course, it feels good ta actually be there backstage ta dress him up, fix his hair, and we even manage ta give each other a kiss before he goes onstage! :D :D :D It feels good ta pick up after him. hehe. After the pageant, we both decided not ta go back to the dorm since it was 9P.M., we ate dinner at Arroz...his hands were on my waist, and he just kept pulling me closer ta him,and he kept thanking me. That night, he was nothing but extra sweet ta me. He forced ta sit beside me at Arroz even if we both couldn't fit on my side of the table, and he just kept giving me a peck on the cheek. Then he'd just keep saying " alam mo, mahal kita!" over and over...*kilig*... :) And then we crashed at Ed's, before we hit the sack we sat on the parking space and we stargazed. We were looking for our very own constellation. I found one that was sorta like a diamond when you connect them, and when I pointed it out to him I said, "do you know that 'diamonds last forever?' " Then he said, "Talaga? Sige, yan na lang ung constellation natin! :) " ... Aww... Because just like us, we both would want our love ta be like a diamond. Something that lasts forever.

Oh man, and its not even close to Valentines Day.
Oh shoot me, I am totally head-over-heels-over-mountaintops-and-popsicles in love.
And that didn't even make sense.
But I am.


I'm becoming this.

In this life, there really is no one else we can turn to but GOD.
Grabe. Grabe. Grabe.

I have to keep this vibe in for the next *bleep* months 'til I see Andrew again.
For the meantime, Ann will be coming here next week. And we're going to raid Toppys and Zara and and Mango and God knows what else. After this I swore to my Momma that I would never go shopping again until I get home, because there's something a WHOLE LOT MORE IMPORTANT THAN TOPPYS THIS TIME. OMG and you never thought it was possible.

And let's not jinx it. I'll keep praying for it nalang.
God knows what is needed to be done.
And I CLAIM IT - IT WILL HAPPEN. I have God in my heart and in my life to make it happen.

Even if I still get visits from my ex friend - the black horned red monster sometimes.

Oh and Ma went to Haraj (biggest flea market in Jeddah) yesterday, she got me this genuine DKNY bag for like SR 5. And its in effing good condition!!! Panalo.

Sige ha, replying to comments soon.
Just sharing a little. I miss blogging. I miss you guys!

I'm not making my traditional yearender in the same way this year.
I'll work on it soon though.


I saw that one coming!


I took out my CBOX because what I thought was gonna happen did happen! Someone tagged me about seeing Andrew and some girl in ATC daw sweet to each other. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Actually I told Andrew just now and we laughed together.
You should've seen our faces.

And you know why we found it really funny? Nah, maybe not.

So sorry to everyone who dropped me a message in my CBOX!!! Ack. Andrew advised me not to take it out and just ignore comments like those but I don't want to see other people waste their time on nothing, so...

I do appreciate all your comments I swear.
Man, that was a good one.


"Seek and you shall find...."

When you want the truth, ask it from no one else -- BUT GOD.
If you trust him enough, He will give it to you.

Today God showed me something.

I didn't sleep at all last night.
I went to work today feeling (and looking) like crass.
But what matters is that its all good now.
Okay relax. Saying it won't jinx it.

Also, always remember that when you bring back the closeness that you have with God, your ex-friend, that black-horned red monster will come pouncing at you anytime.

This is one of my most toughest phases in life.
I've lost my appetite to eat because of this.
And I sleep less, too.
Its a turning point.

If others can do it, so can we.
If he says "DON'T WORRY" -- then don't.

I'm sorry I haven't been replying to comments. Boo.
I'm just trying to let it all out now, finding my way back to that old happy yellow brick road I was walking on. Right now I'm in the Forbidden Forest.

For the people close to me and who care, please pray for us. We really do need your prayers right now. That's the most you can do. Thanks ah. God bless you all.

Must make two banners to hang on my office cubicle and my room saying this:


I had a relapse.

I don't know anymore.
I can't.

It might change tomorrow.
Pray for it.


It's (not) too late to you mean it (doodeedo doodeedoo doo)

Always remember that SORRY is not a word to be taken for granted. Not a word to be overused. Not a word to say when you’re not sincere about it.

When you say SORRY, try your best to never do what caused you to apologize, ever again.

In other words, don’t walk on the path I’m walking.

I apologized so many times to Andrew whenever I was playing Dick Tracy on him for more than a couple of times this week. Afterwards I would say “Sorry. I was just wondering.”

Totally not right.

When your boyfriend asks you to trust him, and you can see it in his eyes that he means it – TRUST HIM. Don’t listen to all the loud noises in your head. If the things you hear in there worry you, and you know would make things worse – SHUT IT UP. PRAY. Ask for peace and guidance. God does not whisper things that make you doubt, no. That’s the black-horned red monster you’re hearing. DON’T LISTEN TO IT like I did. It will drive you nuts. Today I ran to the bathroom and (excuse me) barfed. I was seriously THAT bothered.

In my case, I know my boyfriend than most of the people around him (not as good as his family, of course. But pretty close). Andrew and I have spent our years together almost everyday. We’ve been like, practically married to each other (and I did say that a lot of times already). If you’re in the same situation as I am – you moved out of the country, leaving him behind after more than three years of being together, and on the 6th month of you being apart someone tells you stuff about him that makes you think of suicide – THINK AGAIN. DO NOT JUMP INTO CONCLUSIONS. Talk to him nicely and ask him. Ask him seriously.

If he assures you, that he is doing NOTHING behind your back, BELIEVE HIM. Do not judge him. Boys find it very hard expressing themselves. Don’t take it against them. Sure, you’re having a hard time adjusting to your situation, but just because he isn’t showing you that he’s A-okay does not entirely mean he isn’t finding it difficult. Always remember to consider his feelings. Don’t be so consumed of your fear of losing him or cheating on you that you forget that he has feelings too. Duh, he’s human.

Don’t expect him to ALWAYS tell you where he is 24/7. This is really one of the hardest realities I am facing right now. I got so used to knowing where he was and who he was with ALL THE TIME. Give him time to breathe. Someone once told me, that you have to grow as individuals too. So do just that. This space that you have right now? Use it. Turn it into a good experience and learning point for you, and for your relationship. If you love each other so much, you’ll learn how to trust each other – you can still grow as individuals even if you’re a couple. If none of you let go of each other (meaning communication lines are totally wide open), you’re okay.

I thought Andrew was letting go of me today. BUT THANK YOU LORD. THANK YOU LORD. Because he didn’t. He got so pissed at me for continuously nagging him this week. And I deserved it. I deserved his anger. I mean, if I were in his position, I’d be pissed too.

I apologized again. But this time, I swear. I really mean it. I will never do something like this again. I will not wait for the time where he gets so pissed off and so fed up of everything he decides to break-up with me. The thought just makes me want to jump in a plane right now.

The lesson here is TRUST YOUR BOYFRIEND. Always remember that you know him more than anyone else. Don’t forget that he loves you, too. And just because he can’t show how much he does right now, doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you anymore, or as much. You have to realize that in long distance relationships, everything is limited. Be contented of what he can offer, and understand his situation. Stop arguing with him, because for all you know, he needs you more now.

And I just realized.
I’ve been asking him to change for us – and that we needed to compromise for our relationship to work. But I was wrong. Because I don’t do that myself. I have to stop acting like a friggin’ dominatrix. I have to let go of the whip and learn how to listen to him. Ako narin mismo ang nagsabi. He’s a part of this relationship. His voice needs to be heard too. And as his girlfriend, I have to listen. Not because its my responsibility, but because I love him. I have to start analyzing myself as his girlfriend, and stop looking at myself as the victim. I am not perfect. He is not perfect. We both commit mistakes. But I always focus on his mistakes. What about mine? I always focus on what he doesn’t do, but what about me? What about the things I don’t do? I always say “I gave him everything!!” But didn’t he do the same? He sure did! I’m just too blind to notice it all because I’m too busy looking and noticing all the red marks on the paper. I expect so much from him, wanting him to do exactly what I do for him, but I should respect that he has his own way of doing that, and in his own time!

I totally wanna kick myself in the buns now.
And salmonslap myself (I miss you Lizzerino).

I have to stop torturing him with all the doubts.
I have to stop torturing myself with all the worrying,too.
He begged me to not worry because he loves me.
ME. I’m all he wants, nobody else.

I’m a nutcase! If Andrew totally lost his temper he would’ve totally broke up with me, and it would all be my fault. And I wouldn’t be able to live with that.

I have to stop thinking all guys are the same.
Andrew will not do that to me. He will not leave me.
He promised me. And I will trust that. I’m scared shitless but I will trust that. I always talk about taking risks but here I am, still on the edge, not letting go.

I have to see things clearer. The wind is blowing hard on me, making everything so blurry. But as I turn to my right, Andrew is there – holding his hand out.

“Trust me, we can get down there alive”

I take his hand and then we jump together.
No parachutes. Only each other.

That’s love.

Happy Birthday Ma.
I know I should've made an entry about how you're the greatest Mom in the whole wide world -- and because of that, I'm sure you understand.
I love you.


A little more personal.

Parts of some of my journal entries. Just thought I’d share them with you. It helps me become more optimistic, because it makes me think of all the happy and hard times Andrew and I have gone through to get to where we are now, which is still together.

May 09 2006 4:40 P.M.

“….Sometimes what I really don’t understand is that Andrew and I can be so alike, and so different, and yet we stick to each other. I know I don’t want him out of my life, but does he feel the same way?”

11: 28 P.M. of the same day

“I totally had fun with my babe today. I just hate that I get so moody sometimes. I’m happy that he knows how to apologize now, and admits his mistakes, and that he’s still there for me even if I’m acting that way. Aw. I love you so much Bub.”

May 19 2006 1:06 A.M.

“….I really do feel bad about ever having to leave school…I know that I will really miss Andrew so much. I love that boy so much, I really do. My Babe. I wanna marry him. I’m so thankful God gave him to me.”

June 19 2006 10:21 P.M.

“….I’m just happy that even after all these girls running after him he chose me. And he still wants me….He always assures me anyway. And I believe him. Its just so bad that lately it looks like I don’t trust him, when its those damn girls I don’t trust. Its like they always push me to do something extreme just so they’d stop….I can’t wait ‘til I (really do) have him to come home to.”

June 22 2006 12:32 A.M.

“….I really pray we’d be married and that God will help us go through life together. Because like I said, I hate having fights with him but its only him I’d like to have fights with ‘coz…I love him. And nothing beats the making-up part of it.”

July 02 2006 11:38 P.M.

“….God, do I love that boy. Always shows me how much he loves me. Today I was by his window watching the making of Superman Returns and the sequel is already planned to hit the screens on 2009 – three years from now. I was actually scared because deep down I was wishing Andrew and I see it together. I will always remember this day – the day I seriously thought (and got scared) of the future….the wait is always worth it. God, thank you because you gave Andrew to me, thank you for helping me go through all the trials with Andrew and in life. Please continue to bless me, God. I love you, and I love Andrew too. I love him with all my life.”

July 16 2006 1:09 A.M.

“Andrew, I cannot wait to marry you. I really do think…I believe. You’re the one for me. Its you I want to spend my life with. Its you I want to come home to…It will always be you, Andrew. I love you so much. God knows how much.”

September 15 2006 2:14 A.M.

“…Andrew and I are a lot closer now. I feel like we’re in a new phase in our relationship. There are times when I get really sick of what’s been happening with us. And how he acts and all but I never get sick of Andrew. I might have said that but I don’t mean it. I was just totally infuriated…You’re freakin’ it, Andrew.”

September 23 2006 12:18 A.M.

“…I know change is the only constant thing in this world. But I’m praying that our love won’t. Andrew is the love of my life. He is mine and I am his. In so many ways. I’m glad we found each other. I regret ever taking all the time we have for each other for granted. I’m really going to miss him so much. God, please make us both strong, that we go through every trial you have for us together. I pray that you’d still be in the middle of our relationship God, keeping us together. Like you always have. Because we both know how much I love him. I love you, God. And thank you. For always giving me the best. Even when sometimes, I am not worthy….. You’re the one for me Andrew, I just know it. I love you.”

December 2 2007 10:30 P.M.

“…I have to trust him or else this relationship won’t work. *bleep* more months before we see each other. I pray God will continue to keep us strong….This trial made me realize that its Andrew that I want. Its Andrew that I truly love. I want Andrew. I’m gonna marry Andrew. Andrew is my everything…. He is the love of my life. He may not be perfect but he stuck by me. Now that we’re in a long distance relationship, he still stuck by me, by my side. Honest and Faithful. I have to keep trusting him…God really made me realize that I belong to Andrew. Because when I thought I was losing him to someone else, I felt like dying…It felt like I was gonna die any minute. I will marry Andrew. I will bear his children. I will take care of him and I will make him happy…the happiest man for the rest of his life… I am blessed because I have him and he is faithful, and he loves me. God please make us stronger. This is tough.”

Relationships are never easy. Trust and Love has to be on the same level. It won’t really work out if the other one is on top. This has been one of the toughest points of our relationship. He has a new life now. New friends. New classmates. Its hard to accept the fact that I don’t know much about his life anymore like I used to. I’m still finding it difficult accepting that fact. In the past three years and 5 months of our relationship we were practically like husband and wife. We did everything together.

“….Please don’t worry. I love you and I will marry you. Just trust me….I love you.”

I will hold on to that. I will hold on to that with my life.
I’d die if I lost you Andrew.


Butterflies and Wilting Roses.

Skypage for 9 hours with Babe. That's massive.
Kamusta naman ang 6:37 am - 3:00 pm diba? *kilig*
I even got to watch him sleep and hear him breathe again.
I love Skype! Ventrilo, boo (lol its 'cause I can't intall it in my PC. Ahaha)!

There are some experiences in life that don't need to be shared. Partly for personal reasons, partly because you can't explain it. Its too beautifully complicated and twisted.

All I know is that this is just one of God's greatest test for us. Being in a long distance relationship isn't easy. I'm having trust issues. Its like I wanna cry non-stop but then I always end up wondering why.

I've gotten the assurance I need, but something tells me its still not all ironed out. Unless something changes. And I need to see that change. Because sometimes it feels like I'm just in the background. Trust is so important. Somehow, for some weird and unknown reason, I still can't give it a hundred percent.

I talked to God before I slept this afternoon (I hadn't slept last night). I told him that I needed strength to be able to do this. This long distance relationship is pretty much working. But I guess if it still drives me insane because there are some things that couldn't be compromised... I dunno what to do next. Either way I will, or might regret it.

He's a big boy now. He knows what he's doing. And there is always a choice.
Whether to believe. Whether to doubt. Whether to stay or go. Love or Hate. Cheat or not. To lie or to be honest.

Wherever this road is taking us, I don't know. But one thing is for sure. I know that I love him. And he tells me that he loves me too. Just like the rest of them, he promises to never leave me. But I hope that promise wouldn't actually turn out to be -- like the rest of them made before.

In the middle of all this chaos, the smoke, the blood, and all the dead people laying on the ground, I see a small spark of light at the end of it. Whether or not it takes me months, or years to get to that point, I will never close my eyes to lose sight of it again. I will hold on to it. Hold on to it for my dear life. For if this all falls apart, for if someone else takes it away from me -- I lose everything. I lose my life.

"Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon...."

I've never felt this way in my life. Its like being in the dark without knowing when daylight's coming.

Somehow I have a feeling that this isn't right. But something tells me its worth a shot. But I need his help, too. He has to prove something to me.

I don't really know where I am now.

I loved what Ayeen said in her blog (November 13 2007 post), and I quote:

"Most of the time, I'm in dire need of the right thing to say.
Rummaging through the vocabulary that shouts uncertainties, despite the genuine intention. But I don't hate it. It's how it should be anyway. For if it can be explained, profounded by mere letters, straightforward to its meaning, it would be nothing but a pale existence.
It's hard to keep up with it. Translate every beat with a letter. Form a word, out of glory.
But honestly, I prefer it this way.
I prefer not explaining it in details. For in details, you set standards, you point out specific things...
and love is too big, too diverse, too complex of a feeling for that."

So effing true.

Love is a freakin' battlefield.
All I know is that Andrew is mine. And I am his.
Entirely. For the freakin' rest of our lives.
He is all I want.
But God has to help us get out of this rut.
I know He will.
I trust Him.


P. Diddy feat. Keyshia Cole

It was crazy. It was partly depressing at one point -- but mostly, it was one heck of a night. Well not really, but my standards of “one heck of a night” changed since that got here, and I mean that in a good way.

Let let let the pickies describe how my Friday went!

Oh. And FINALLY. Leopard-print wallpapers. I’m covering one wall with this. Not now, but soon. Promise I’ll take photos!!!
2.Ma and I went to Mahmood Saeed (closest to a Flea Market), we got stuff she needed for her students’ loot bags next week. Among them, we got these glow in the dark bracelets. We got an extra pack for us. Ahahaha. It brought me back to February of 2003. Boyz II Men. Lol. Oh and MTV’s Anti-Aids campaign. Lol. Memories! Guess which hand is mine, and which is Ma’s!
3.Look what I spotted in Claire’s about 20 meters away! Ahahahaha! I’m sorry I can’t help it. You had me at “Hello”…Kitty. Hahahaha. This puddytat makes me weak all over. Its an earring holder, btw. But I decided to put it by my bedside table, next to the other stuff I threw in beside my favorite photo of me and Drew. 4. I got a new pair of chuckies. Baa Baa, white and black sheep, have you any wool? Mmmmmmeeeeeeeeeee!!! There were three other pairs in Elephant, Cat and Rabbit (which was embossed in felt-like material, COOL!) print, but this one had like the “liveliest” color so I chose this! Ma was furious. Completely out of the budget but I was depressed!!! Remember that when you’re down a size 35 ½ (as for you, whatever your shoe size is) will always help! Ahahahaha!

Last night was pretty tough, man. Ionno. But as always, God irons it out. Thank you, Lord! Medyo nakakahinga na po ako ng malalim.

My boss emailed me earlier just as I was finishing work, telling me and a few other officemates that we’d be off tomorrow. The other half of me is throwing a party and the other half is actually planning a rally. Lol, exagge. I need money!!!! But anyway.

OMG I haven’t been working out lately. Grabe, my tummytumtum is getting so big!!! Ew! Hahahaha. But this is a good thing. It means I’m gaining weight. Yahooey!

I wore a ribbon to work today. Methinks I look like one of my Ma’s students. Ahahahahaha. MATILDA! Except mine is pink! Ahahahahahaha!

You know what guys, I think my calling is to really become an Animal Rights activist. Ionno. But I probably really wouldn’t go for PeTA if they don’t start changing their tactics. It’s something I’ve come to agree to a few days ago. We don’t need to beat people for wearing fur. No one’s going to listen to us if we keep doing that. I mean, its not too late. We can still find a much more effective (and less harmful way) of fighting for Animal rights. I read in this one website that PeTA is fighting for equal rights between humans and animals. So why beat the hell out of humans, eh? I wish there was something I can do to catch the attention of people behind the Lagerfeld, Fendi, Prada, Galiano, Gucci and Vuitton empire (dream big, as they say – and the rest of the designers who are pro- KILL ANIMALS FOR THEIR FUR). I mean, I hope God all turns you guys into animals one day just for you to know what its like to be killed for something that (let’s all admit) isn’t necessary. We can still be fashionable in Faux Fur. Let’s not waste an animal’s life just for the latest IT girl to have it on her back for one night (and her wardrobe forever). Animals are living creatures. In the bible, God cast fear on animals so they would be afraid of humans. God indeed knew what he was doing, and why he did it. He knew we would take advantage of them. And believe it or not, for those of you who actually support this, you may enjoy the luxury of owning a dead animal on your closet, or making millions and millions for it – BUT you’ll surely suffer the consequences when your time comes. And you better mark my word for it.

Found it in Google Images. I just can’t find one teeny tiny little puney reason to NOT love Toppy’s. This campaign is so grool. Old, but grool. LOVE-ET!

SO. Guess what, I downloaded a few songs from Savage Garden’s AFFIRMATION album. Lol. I knew I loved you before I met you, I think I dreamed you into life…. Ahahahahaha! Holy crass, LSS! While I was hogging the bathroom mirror in the office again, I sang Teenage Dirtbag!!! So what’s next? Crazy for this girl by Evan and Jaron? Sheraton Days. ZOMG, Just my Imagination by Gwyneth Paltrow and Babyface! Dang, that was one of my favorite songs back in HS! Oh oh oh! And Larusso!!! Ahahahahahahaha! Ban I’m sure you still know the dance steps! Woohoo, INOJ. Love you down, baybeh! And All I want!! Yes. This serves as a reminder. I’m DLing away! Pero para may halong pang-2007 naman, I’ll download Alicia Keys’ latest album. I love that woman!!!

Yeah yeah. Will shush nao.

Bai! Bubai nao! Bai! Bai!



We will cause our own death.

Come to think of it. With the way we have been living our lives these days, its somewhat similar to suicide.

God made this earth, and God made us to live in it.
The way we value everything he created is one of the tests He has for us.
I mostly find it hard watching the news or reading the paper these days. There are barely any "heavy" good news to watch and read.

What are we doing with our lives?
What's the point of all the hating? The killing? The raping? The abusing?
Aren't you scared of what could possibly happen to your souls when you die?
Have you done anything sensible today? Did you even pray? Did you make good use of another day God has given you to live?

Have you lost hope? Like I did?
There is so much evil now. On most days I wished the second coming would be in the next 5 minutes. I'm no saint. But if its what it takes for a new beginning, for a better world, then yes. I am willing to die according to God's will. I have God by my side and in my heart. That's what matters.

And then there's animal cruelty.

The other day I asked Mama why God wasn't doing anything to save the Dolphins from being slaughtered yearly in Japan (after I saw the vid on Kaye's multiply account, I didn't have time to load it when I was reading Saab's blog). I wanted God to make a miracle. I wanted him to save the Dolphins. I wanted him to save every animal abused and killed for their fur and meat. Some people are just idiots to not get it. The only acceptable time to do that is when you're in dire need of it. Like being stuck in an island and you have nothing to eat and nothing to keep you warm. If God used animal clothing to keep Adam and Eve warm, let's not compare to how things were then to how things are NOW. Don't we have enough clothing to keep us warm? Do we need to kill animals for it?

Michael Jackson's THE EARTH SONG

In the end, we will cause our own deaths.
In the end, this world will die along with our souls, for we have already lost them years ago when all this chaos started to happen.

I feel so restless.
I want to do something about this.
But no one will listen.

I bet no one even read this blog entry entirely.
Its not that I want to be heard. I want my message to be heard.

If we don't start the change now, WHEN?
This world can no longer be a better place for our children, our children's children, and our children's grandchildren to live in. We are so consumed by evil that we forget to look back and realize the true essence of this life. Of the very reason why God died for US.

Shame on you. Shame on me. Shame on us.
I don't know how some of us manage to go to church AND not change.

I trust my life into YOUR hands, God.
And I will continue to pray for a miracle until the day I see you.
Even if I won't get to be here when that miracle happens.
I want a better world.
I hope for a better world.
Only YOU can make that happen. Please help us make it happen.

For the animals. And for us.


"Why was your face glowing in the night?"

"Papaaaaaa! Eeeeeeh!"
"Oh, okay, okay I know!"

Lately my Papa would tease me A LOT about Andrew. Seriously. Like, OMG sometimes he would even call me at work. The latest meme is: "Why were you so happy last night? Why was your face glowing in the night?" ZOMG. Ahahahahahahaha! Of course he meant it as a joke, my Papa isn't an extreme cheeseball like me, doi! He likes teasing me a lot, especially when he comes home from work and sees me on the computer, talking to Drew. Ahahahaha, I'm lolling bigtime!

EYNIWAY (HappySlip overload - watched TANKS over 10 times, exagge).

Sorrey, single L lang ang Chandelier.

Finally its ALMOST done. Bleh, I'm not even done painting the walls! And my curtains! I need scene curtains. Last night I lit it up and I daydreamed while listening to Ingrid Michealson. Amazing. I miss doing that. Back in HS, watching the sunset was ALWAYS part of my day. I can watch it from my bed, you see. It always gave me time to reflect. Sometimes I even lit up candles and wrote on my journal. I always had ME TIME. I miss ME TIME nao.

Speaking of high school, Ma got me pizza from Chuck'e'Cheese's. Ahahahahaha. I smiled as I gobbled away.

It was 9 PM and Ann calls me.
"Abbie! Tara punta tayong Chuck'e'Cheese's! Kakabukas lang niya, kakilala ni Daddy yung owner. Punta tayo dun, libre lahat pati food!"

"As in now na?"

"Oo! Ano ka ba, ihahatid ka naman namin pauwi. Nandito si Ban, Jayson tsaka si Ajin. Sasama si Jaja! Tara, go!"

"Mmm... K."

We super had fun. Exagge. Hahahahah! Nagsabog kami ng ka-otistikan sa Chuck'e'Cheese's. Kamusta naman yun. Hello, bump cars. Hahahahaha! We were such bullies that night. I mean we made fun of the other kids (hello, we're like 4, 7 years older than most of the kids there) who looked like people we bullied in school too! Ahahahahahaha! OMG. But just to clarify things, we don't like physically push them around ha. We just made fun of those people because...well, they asked for it, and we just know them well, we don't bully because of how they dress or look. Ahahahahahaha! But yeah, it was an uber un night! I went home like 12 AM. My parents were furious. Lol.

So I was channel surfing as soon as I got home and I saw the making of Transformers on VH1. It was my first time to see Shia smile that wide. And then I saw a dimple! OHMIGAAAAAAA. Ahahahaha. I know I don't brag as much as Janny about her obsession on Shia LaBeouf, but you guys (my blog readers most especially) know that I have crushed on Shia since his semi post-Even Stevens-then-Full Throttle days! With his semi-fro and all. Ahahahahaha! Aww. Janny, is Shia dating anyone nao aside from the two of us? Lol.

Posting this late because the dsl was effed up last night.


Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute...


Hahahahaha. La lang, its the song stuck in my head.
Take me back to 1995. Lol! Come to think about it, 1995 was the year I was introduced to Enya and Alanis. Its also when I adored Cathy Dennis. Waterloo Sunset! Yes! Hahahaha.

WTH I'm so emo right now, Jobiebie showed me this Christian video and they played Lifehouse's EVERYTHING in the background. I got to thinking about the song. I loved it waaaay back highschool, even before Smallville used it as its background music in one of my soopa favorite CLANA scenes. Ahahahahaha. Galing pala, saktong pwede rin siyang Christian song. So I'm listening to it now, together with my favorite Marie Antoinette songs. Nakaka-sad.

Today at service, I was super blessed. I don't know why I keep stopping myself from crying during P&W. Amazing. Its what I really don't want to miss during service. Super nakaka-bless kase.

I got my Ikea chandelier today! Yahoooey! But no its not like Marie Antoinette, hundred pe'cent pure crystal (hahahaha I'm lolling again). Its so pretty! We're putting it up tomorrow, exactly where I planned. Inside that white net which is hanging on top of my bed. Wahooey! Ahahaha.

Andrew and I planned on talking today, but after the service I went home immediately and took a power nap. I was supposed to sleep for 2 hours but I missed my bed so much I ended sleeping for 3. I texted him that I was OL but he didn't reply so I'm guessing he fell asleep na. Kainis, its our monthsary pa naman! Can you imagine, two more months and we're turning 4 years! Yihee! But I swear being in a long distance relationship is super stressful. Most of the time I think I can no longer handle it but most of my friends are telling me that I should be stronger now and less paranoid. Andrew always had this problem with "keeping in touch" with me when we're apart like this. Which is really wrong because its when we need to communicate more. Thing is, I'm the only one who sees it as a problem. Andrew is just chillax. He's always been. And whenever I ask him if he thinks we'd last being this way, he would honestly say YES. You can tell by the sound of his voice. Its hard for me to not be paranoid about everything since I got so used to us being together 24/7. I know everything about him first hand. Now I know about his thoughts and ideas last. What I really hate is knowing what's new with him FROM OUR FRIENDS. That sucks. Its been affecting my work. Last week my boss told me that I should focus on my job because I've been screwing up a little. That's one of the things I hate about myself. Whenever I have a problem, it totally affects everything I do.

Wow. Hello Sunshine! The Earth Says HELLO! Ahahahahahaha. Seryoso, I just got up. Walang hilamos at mumog yan! ...... Okay, ew. Oh, I love that photo of Jason watching me sleep (kuno) awww! Those were taken today lang. Err yesterday pala. Hahahaha.

Lance introduces me to new scenespirations. Of course you already know how much I love Hanna. He's shown me a lot more after I found out about her but Brookelle is the sheettack! He sent me like a hundred links to her photos. Okay about 20 something. Ahahahahaha. Thanks Lancyboo.

I love you. Don't leave me! *sob*

The feeling that I used to tell you about? Yung parang I can sense that there's a big change coming? I can feel it again. I swear it sucks. Most of the time it scares me. Tsk. I tried something really silly, I signed up for this free astrology reading and it said that an astronomical transit is coming my way, like second week of December to early January. It said that if I didn't grab the chance I would miss out on a big opportunity in my life. Hmm. I ditched astrology a long time ago. But for some reason this thing has been really bugging me nao.


I love you Kevin! Hahahaha! Cake I just saw his BUTTHASH HERO vid a few hours ago. I posted in my Multi but saved it as draft muna. Laughtrip super! Hahahaha.

Oh and I saw Footloose just last night. PANALO. I can't can't can't wait for the remake. Yay, Zefron! Haha! BTW have you seen Sarah Jessica Parker in Footloose? She plays "Rusty" and OMG her teeth! Her teeth! I will always love her voice though, like a child with husky voice. Its like her trademark diba? Funny that its how she is even in the 80's. And I thought HOCUS POCUS would be one of my most unforgettable favorite (SJP) flicks as a child. I swear I would pull Mama's hair whenever she's in the scene. "OMG MA! LOOK AT HER! HAHAHAHAHA!" But I wasn't mocking SJP or anything. I was just amazed. Me? Mocking SJP? Not in a million years. I will always love that woman. Please please please let SATC THE MOVIE hit the screens when I'm back home.

I don't really like Soulja Boy. Crankin' I like. Ahahahaha. Jaybo just sent me a link to that vid where Travis Barker remixed that Soulja Boy track "Crank That". I agree with my McLovin' boys. SO MUCH BETTER! I was like "WO!" when I saw the vid! Amazing.

Bad news, Lizzerrino (she called me Abberinno recently. Ahahahahha!)and I are having problems with our flight schedules next year. Oh noes. OH NOES! So please pray for my dearest Sarah and I. May we find a solution to this problem so we can finally be broke-ass female dogs when we get back from Manila. Ahahahahaha! But seriously. Please do. Not about being broke though.

So there.
Heading to dreamland in a few.
Any takers?


Once Fcukstains, always Fcukstains.

The first time I saw her was during the Seventeen Favorite Model Search Go-see at the Summit Office. I was just getting out of the room when a familiar face walks past me. Turns out it was her big sister.

I didn't really get to talk to her until about two weeks later, during our first ever shoot for Seventeen, for the August 2005 issue. I sat on Toto's red couch, about a meter away from her. She had her cellphone in hand, and I had my hair tied up in several buns, I was picking up where I've left off in The Da Vinci Code.

"Anong year mo na?"

That was, one of the first things we ask each other.

"Fourth year. Ikaw?"
"Fourth year ka na? Akala ko high school ka palang! Hahahaha! Ako first year."

"Anong name mo?"
"Hey Abbie, tara picture tayo."

And then the rest is what we would all call HISTORY.

Regardless of who her father is, who her mother is, and who her siblings are, you'd forget that this girl sitting next to you is considered a celebrity. She is pathetically one of the most real girls I've come to know. And I consider myself lucky to be a friend that she would say she misses. Ahahahahaha. But seriously. I guess from a fan's point of view, I understand why some people hate her or don't get her. Its because they don't know her. That's just how she really is, she would practice her right to freedom of expression for all she cares. She doesn't care if she would look silly or sound silly or whatever. Of course she knows her limits. She's not naive. But she is who she is. And it would be up to you whether you would want to take her or leave her.

We don't hang out all the time, but she has her own ways of making you feel like you don't really miss out on all the big details on her life. We don't chat much, we don't text much, we don't talk on the phone much. But for some reason she never made me feel like we lost touch. We have our own way of showing each other that we care, we share our biggest secrets with each other when we have time. Guy problems, kilig moments...

She knows when to be tough, and when to go soft on you. She's made me feel what my other friends can't make me feel. She has this way of showing you that she appreciates you for you who are. With her simple gestures of putting her arms around your shoulder when you walk around, or leaning on your shoulder, resting her arms around your arms, and one of my most favorite Saab-lambings is when she doesn't air -kiss you but actually kiss you on the temple when you meet up, or hug you super tight because you haven't seen each other in a while? I feel super loved. It makes me miss her so much.

Once you get to know her, you cannot NOT love her. There's a lot more to her than you think. She's definitely full of surprises. I will always love her, I will always be her friend, and I will always be her fan.

Fcukstain, no matter what happens, I just want you to know that you always have my back in everything that you do. And I know that we haven't really hung out much, but thank you because you never fail to make me feel that I will always have our friendship and that nothing, even distance can break the bond that we started to build two years ago. Thank you for making me feel worthy of having you as a friend.

You're one of my favorite girls, fcukstain. And its not because you're famous and loved by many. Its because you are what you are, and you just inspire me to keep it real - ALWAYS. And that no matter how many people stick knives in my back, what matters is that I'm true to myself and the people around me. What matters is I have a family to love. And another fcukstain by my side always (in your case, si SP. Ahahahahha).

Pano ba yan, I'm missing out on your party. Promise when I get back, let's hire some strippers. Ahahahaha. Shopping nalang tayo.

I miss you. See you in a few months, and always remember that I am here for you. My ears are soopadoopa q-tipped for any new chi-chi you wanna share with me. Of course if you have any problems, I'm just an IM (and text) away.

(Grabbed from Saab's Multiply account. Photo : Micheal John David [for Steph Nepomuceno] Make up : Saab Magalona. Text/Doodle: Abbie Almasco)


xx -- Your Fcukstrot

Pag nagka-album ka na, bigyan mo ako ng libreng CD. With autograph ha.


Life is a female dog.

Don't even try to guess what my meme has been for this week.

Camille Agcaoili, I love you for always making my day. I cannot wait wait wait to finally meet you. Haaaay. I swear lately, when we chat we have this really weird....trips. Hahahahahaha! Panalo. Cake and I have been naturally high for some reason. I love her so much. Check out the multiply template she made for me in my personal multiply account. Panalo!!!!


Uyyy friends sila! Hahaha lol. Oh and look! I barely have make-up on! Can you see my mole? I have like 9 moles in my face PALANG ha. Hahahaha!

Oh and guess what, I've started writing my short stories! Yay! Haha posting them soon. I'm emotionally stressed now. Inaway ko nanaman si Andrew. Hmp. Its not my fault, people. Don't look at me like that!

Anyways, can't say much. Gotta go to bed or I'll be all woozy and grumpy again tomorrow. And I've seen my assigned claims. They're in effing worm writing. Hmp. Wish me luck with that. I love everyone who dropped by. Will reply to comments asap. Career mode ako sa short stories ko so I can post the link on my sidebar soon and you can go have a look-see-see-see. Ahahaha.

Yay, Hannabeth updates! Lol.

This morning, I had the weirdest dream. Ever.
Okay maybe not, but you get my point.

I love you Lance, Jaybo, Allan and Apple! Lol. Chatting with them now.


You hypebeast clone!

You always make me barf. My Choclit Cake - Camille Agcaoili and I were chatting about you last night and how much you make us want to shove our footsies up your stinky buns. Ugh. You are such a feeler. You're the biggest losaar I know.

SO. I fixed my room (again) today. And we set up the stuff I got from Ikea properly this time. But its not really "fixed" yet, ifykwim. And I'm getting Hanna-inspired curtains when we go to Haraj.

I feel like a Princess! Will post photos of it without my bed cover on, I love my comforter! Eeee!

At 3 AM, Cams and I were chatting about, well a lot of stuff (and a lot of chi-chi), when suddenly an idea popped into my head. Ahahahaha. I made a new blog! Its where I'm gonna be posting all the creative whacko juices, like the MTVs I've been directing in my head for a song that I like. The short stories I've been telling you about, and who knows, maybe poems and songs, too! Basta all my (ahem) creative crap, I'll be posting it there. As soon as I'm done figuring everything out, I'll post the blog link here. But the blog is up na. Just nothing in it yet. Hahahaha. By February I might even make like fanvids, or my own MTV! Ahahahahaha! Okay ba?

I dyed my hair black again. Ang weird kase, after barely a week it washed off! Walang kwenta ang Garnier! Lol just kidding. I used it again. Ahahahahahah.

I love Chocolate Glazed too! Yum yum!!!

I watched Marie Antoinette again today, and all its special features while and after fixing my room. Heehee! Panalo talaga yung Cribs with Louis XVI. It makes me laugh every time I watch it! "THESE ARE MY DAWGS...SOMETIMES WHEN I'M SAD, I LOOK INTO HIS EYES AND IT GIVES ME STRENGTH!". Mind you, his (Jason Schwartzman) "dawgs" are actually half-bodied Roman-looking statues!!! Ahahahahaha!

I never liked the Pussycat Dolls - EVER. But I'm starting to love Nicole big time! I'm downloading her album right now! Her "Baby Love" video seriously got me considering buying a small yacht for me and Babe. NORLY! I asked my Mom if it would cost millions and she said it would depend. Hell no, I won't get anything that reaches a million. Ahahahaha! Just a small yacht for me and my Babe to cruise on. How's that for a plan, eh? Hahahaha. BUT. First thing's first. CAR. WEDDING. MALDIVES. I know I've got God by my side to help us make it happen. Wahooey! And guess what, I started "saving" now! Medyo gagastos lang ng konti when Ann comes here by December. Sakto sa Winter sale! YES.

"HANGIN' AROUND, NOTHING TO DO BUT FROWN...RAINY DAYS AND MONDAYS ALWAYS GETS ME DOWN..." Don't you just love The Carpenters? Have you heard Emmy Rossum's version of this? WOW. Emmy Rossum talaga is ENYA+IMOGEN HEAP! And yes, part FROU FROU too. Download her album!!! She rocks, man.

Have you tried Body Shop's Pink Grapefruit? I bought the entire "line", except for the shower gel cause I'm getting a kilo (maybe half? lol) of Karma from Lush soon. Man, Pink Grapefruit! The smell is amazing. It would make people wanna eat you up when you walk past them. Ahahahahaha! When I apply the lip balm, I always end up biting my lips! Seriously!

Hala, I'm turning into Droopy.
All y'all know what this means.

(Miss you Leeobryan Mallari Lim!)


Orignal Glazed.

So yeah, as I told you in my vlog, today's (make that last night) the grand opening of Krispy Kreme in Jeddah. I just arrived a few minutes ago. Such an amazing experience. Ahahahaha! Merely 10 minutes after I got in line, a girl came near me with a camera in hand and said "Hi, I'm from Fainak magazine, its an online magazine launching on the end of this month." Then she handed me a card. "Would you mind if I took your photo? It would be uploaded there, check the website at the back of the card, but it won't be up until the end of this month. The magazine covers events like this too, and since you're here, well..." And then she took her camera out. "Are you with your family?" But Ma didn't want to be in the photo so I asked this girl that was in line behind me to join me and she willing ly did. When she asked for our names, the other girl said "A.B." and I said "ABBIE", and A.B. said, "Really? That's what my friends call me too!" When we got back into our queue, she tapped me on the shoulder and said "Nice meeting you", and I said the same thing in return.

We were in line for nearly an hour. It was packed, I swear. And man, the cute guys lined up on the other side of the entrance. Ahahahahaha! (Lol, I love you Babe! I miss you!! Haha! )

We ordered a dozen (in assorted flavors. Go figure. Hahahaha) and I tried a Chocolate Chiller. Most of the guys working there were Filipinos, so I was like smiling at them and all. It was nice seeing kababayans. After we paid, Ma and I stood at one corner waiting for my drink to be handed to us, when this one Pinoy guy came out of the counter and asked what we ordered for again. He went in and came back with it and said "Next time ka nalang bumawi sakin ah" and then I just smiled and nodded, I didn't really know what he meant but anyway, just as we were about to leave, Ma turned to me and said "Why don't we get another box?" And I said it was the right thing to do since we were already there. So she signaled "1 more box" to the guy who handed me my drink. He came out with a box and said "Sige na", and smiled.

OHMYGOLLYGOSH. BY THE BEARD OF ZEUS!!! I GOT A DOZEN KRISPY KREME DOUGHNUTS FOR FREE!!!!! Ahahahahahaha!!!! The best. Kase naman, when I was back home I didn't have time to go all the way to the Fort (or Megamall) just to get me a box.

I LOVE YOU KRISPY KREME! Hahaha buti nalang clients namin yung mga may-ari, baka next week hindi na House of Donuts ang dadalhin ng mga boss namin sa work para samin, Krispy Kreme na! Ahahaha!

I downloaded Emmy Rossum's album. I tried DLing it right after I saw her vid on YouTube (remember my SLOW ME DOWN entry? Uhuh), but I couldn't find her album yet. After I saw Tinka post about this in Multiply, she kind of reminded me about it again. So I found it this time and I DLed away! Yay!

But I'm totally loving Ingrid Michaelson's KEEP BREATHING. It played on Grey's Anatomy's season three finale (saw it last night lang on YouTube. Panalo, brought me to tears. I love you Sandra Oh!)

My flight will be moved. Secret nalang kung kailan. I'm surprising Drew baybeh.
"SUPPLIES!" Hahahaha.



Fake laugh.

Oh and -
"Why can't you see is what you want, love is what you need to set you free?"

DOWNLOAD "CLICK YOUR HEELS" -- it effing rocks. LSS!!!!
Indiescene FTW!



What you are ain't WHO you are.

My personal mantra.

Today, I got to thinking about people. How we limit ourselves because of our gender, our race, and our beliefs. I wish we can all find a way to get out of the cages society built us.

I hate that gender affects how we are as people. Generally, we are all human beings. Man, Woman, Sheman, Homan, Whatman, whatever. It is perfectly normal for a man to feel weakness. And it is perfectly normal for a woman to be strong. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever see the day when men are finally free from all the masochism sh*t they have to put up with and just be THEMSELVES. JUST BE HUMAN. Okay sure, they have to stand up for a lot of things, BUT I hope they stop "ACTING" the part. Geddit? Boys cry, even men cry. Deal with it.

I cannot wait to see the day when gays and lesbians are finally accepted. Its not their choice to be that way. They just turned out to be that way. To be in their situation is very complicated. And I really do give them snaps because they are the ones who have embraced who they really are, and are willing to fight for their right as people. I know God never mentioned "IN BETWEENS" in the Bible, but they are still children of God. Most of the gay and lesbian people I know are religious, and I believe that GOD UNDERSTANDS. I don't know, there is no proof of this but its what I think. God never hates. Let's stop pointing our filthy hands at them. I'm no saint. You're no saint. We're all sinners. Pulling off a Pontius Pilate just won't work.

Whites, Blacks, Asians, Latins? Culture, Skin color, Language. Those are the only things that set us apart from each other. Aside from that, what else? We all feel the same things. We all love, we all hate. We all feel happiness and pain. We are all capable of doing great things. We can do what the whites do, the blacks can do what we do, the latins can speak our language, yada-yada-yada. It all lies in our hands. If we want to, we can. Nothing is impossible. No two people, even from the same family, even from the same country, even from the same continent ARE ALIKE. We are all different in our own way. I don't see why we should stereotype people for what they are. Its just not right.

Christians, Catholics, Muslims, Buddhists, Hindus, Adventists, Mormons... Our beliefs DO NOT define who we are as people. I have learned to accept that not all people believe in the things that I do. I think its because I have friends who practice different religions but we never let it get in the way of our friendship. In fact, our relationship is a lot more interesting since we get to share the difference of our practices. I don't think God would want us fighting over our religion being the RIGHT religion, and that the rest of the other religions are practicing it wrong. Even if its worshipping Buddha (and not God) still does not give us the right to prove Buddhists that they won't get anything good out of it. RESPECT THEM. RESPECT THEIR BELIEFS. Religion is not supposed to set us apart from each other. Its supposed to unify us. Do you think God is actually cheering for you when you take people down with your righteous speech on "IM GOING TO HEAVEN, YOU'RE NOT?". Spreading God's word is NEVER wrong but don't make reach a point when you start to act all smug saying something like that. From what I've heard in church, all that God wants is for you to accept Him in your heart. I don't actually recall anything about taking people down if they don't read the Bible, or if they don't believe in the things that YOU do.

I hope we can all live freely. According to what we want, according to who we really are. All we need to know is to properly distinguish right from wrong. Now or Never. Today or Tomorrow. YOU.

Lahat tayo tao. Yun nalang paka-isipin natin. TAO TAYO, at TAO LANG TAO. Yun lang yun. Lahat tayo nagkasala. May karapatan lang tayong magturo ng daliri kung may ginawa ang ibang tao saatin ng masama. Pero wag tayong humusga ng iba dahil lang magkakaiba tayo ng opinyon.

But what makes it really complicated is this:
We ARE human. And we err.

Where do I stand again??


Because nothing compares.

NOTHING! compares to you..... Ahahaha that's how its sung diba? Lol.

Anyways can't say much. Because its "turnin' up...five minutes to midnight, you're comin' home with me tonight..." Ahahahaha! WTH is this, a Or something? Lol.

I raided Ikea last night! Woohoo!!! Wait 'til I show you my bed! I effing love it. It was so hard for me to get out of it this morning, and the entire day it was all I could think of! Hahahaha. Its not really done yet, like this blog. Yihee! Almost done. Hope you like all the new stuff I put, like the slideshow and I added more of my favorite music, too! There will be more changes soon.

Wai is it that everytime I fix my room, it would always go back to the way it was before I fixed it (which means chaos) the next day? Ugh.

Boys = Regina George (they ruin people's lives)
Gotta love it. That's my current YM! status. Hahahaha. Speaking of which, were you able to DL the latest version? Mar gave me a link but after I DLed it, it didn't really install well so I had to reinstall the old version. Losaar. Hahahaha. Oh well.
Okay, yes! I'm pissed off at him. Sometimes he can be such a tool. Like Jack Wyett. Ahahahaha.

Saw Evan Almighty just last night, I loved it. Its really touching. More touching Bruce Almighty I believe.
Oh and the boy I'm pissed at now (he-who-must-not-be-named, lol) got me pretty hooked on BLEACH. I love watching it on YouTube, man! Its dubbed in English! Wahooey! But I haven't even gotten to episode 2 yet but still! Ahahahaha!

I hate you Tric for making me go bawl over your Beyonce experience videos! Hmp.
But you know I love you. But I hate you for this! Waaaah! Lol. *cyberkiss*

Goodnight all y'all!
Another grueling day at work waits ahead!


Avril 14th

It will be playing on my wedding, instead of the traditional wedding song. Most probably in Caliraya, just as Chucky suggested.Tentatively 6 years from now (please Lord, help us make it happen). I’m not sure about the rest. Andrew and I have been discussing this seriously yesterday. But one thing’s for sure. No matter what happens, the honeymoon will be spent here (and yes, he agreed!) :

Amazing. Its my instant pick-me-upper. I just think about us snuggling and enjoying the view and I already get the zsa zsa zsu! Its totally paradise. Ever since I saw it on Preview, I told myself : “this is where I’m going on my honeymoon!” So exciting (Annie you still owe me your photos, I wanna see! Haha, I miss you Annie)!

But the future effing freaks me out.
I’m on fire, and now I think I’m ready to bust a move….

Ahahahaha. Nag-burst into song daw ako bigla?

And I haven’t even started saving yet. Dapat may naitatabi na ako.

Most probably, I can focus on this as soon as I get back from P.I.

And speaking of P.I., I’m really so excited to see Sarah already. We’ve been planning our slumber party since we started chatting. Ahahaha. Plus I told her we have have have to go shop at the independent section in Rockwell, I have so been wanting to go since…well, forevaar! Ahahaha. But of course, we will never skip Toppys. Its our happy place. Amazing that I haven’t really hung out with this cousin of mine yet but I am totally in love with her! She’s one of the effing coolest cousins evaar!

The days fly like doves. I love Paramore. Loved them since Franklin.

Seriously I never notice how fast weeks have come and gone. I love working! Ahahaha.

Got my paycheck today.

I really thought today was Sunday lang. Parang kahapon lang nag-start yung week ko, tapos biglang weekend na! Galing!

Ann is flying on the 21st next month. I can’t wait. Buti nalang I haven’t been shopping majorly at Toppy’s.

I did get a few new pairs of Havies and I raided Body Shop (I am now a walking Grapefruit) recently.

If I have money left from my October salary I’ll be raiding Life for Bed Head and Ikea by Friday (hopefully) so I can prepare for redecorating my room by December. Someone tell me where I could get really cool leopard-printed wallpapers! I think painting four walls in leopard is…well…hassle. Ahahahaha.

I really wanna go raid Sephora and Lush, too (bath bombs, bath bombs!! And moar Karma!!!). But I have to start saving for my plane ticket and pocket money! And a digital camera!!! Kuya and Sarah will be home by June too, and I don’t wanna go unprepared and just use my camera phone for rare reunions like that. Your prayers are needed for this.

December will be loaded with winter sales. The prices are just so effing pathetic. Ahahahaha. Its like, you don’t care how hard you’ve earned your money, you just wanna spend them all!!! ITS BAD!!! I haydet! When I get home, I’d definitely buy ‘Rich dad, Poor dad’ and any book by Trump. Ahahahaha. Someone told me that I should start saving. One of the voices in my head. Grr.

Oh yeah, since I’ve always wanted to name something “Max” (for some reason), I have decided to name the voice inside my head (the one that belongs to me) “MAXIE”. *snorts*

Methinks my Christian D. specs are epiphany glasses. Ahahahaha!

Err. Yeah.

I totally love Coehlo’s “Like the Flowing River”. Its like reading his blog or something. Not to brag or anything (and I know I’m not the only one to feel this way) but I have thoughts similar to his! I really wish I knew how to write as good as he does. I find it really hard expressing thoughts like that. Most of the time, instead of sounding inspiring, it sounds like I’m talking about crass. Ahahaha. But seriously. I’ve really thought of writing a short story (even before I read from Saab’s blog that she’s publishing hers in her blog)

Lance let’s franchise Pink Berry.

The other day in the office, two cute guys were giving away glazed Krispy Kreme doughnuts. Turns out the owners of the "branch" here in Jeddah are clients. So, we get free doughnuts! Yay! Its opening on the 14th. Will definitely drop by after work.

I love Jeddah.
I effing love it here.
Can’t wait for Central Park to open!!!

Mr. and Mrs. Weekend, I love that you have finally come.


Will you love me now that I'm smart -

- looking? Lol.

When I was in grade school, I was top of my class. I was accelerated once, from 4th to 5th grade. I was a straight A student.

Contrary to the belief that “unica hijas” are spoiled brats, well I am living proof that this isn’t true. Most of the time, I had to earn for whatever I wanted. When it came to my grandparents though, it was a different story. They were me genies. Just say the word and whatever you wished for would magically appear on both of their hands. Ahahaha.

ANYWAY. One of the most unforgettable dog cookies I got was this Barbie I saw at the local mall (I was in Palawan). I told Ma I really wanted to have one, so she told me that if I got a hundred on all my exams she would get it for me. I worked extra hard for it, sometimes I would only get 98% on some tests (lol). When I got my report slip, I immediately asked my Teacher if I could run home for a few minutes (home was literally 40 steps away. 20 if you run. Ahahaha) – and I did just that. It was one of the most glorious moments of my life. I felt so proud of myself. It wasn’t the first time I aced all my exams then, but for some reason that certain time just felt extra special.

It all changed when I moved to the middle east. At 6th grade, I placed ninth in class. A lot of things were going on until I didn’t really care about academics anymore. And for some reason, I felt happy being average.

Sometimes I wished I was still as “interested” in acads (in high school) as I was in grade school. Sometimes I wish I paid more attention in class, than wandering off to Nevaevaevaland on most days. I did remain focused on some subjects though. Like Literature and Music. I’d get pretty low and average grades from the rest. Don’t even get me started on Math. PLEASE. Sometimes I think I still hurt Pop. He’s a successful CPA. He used to teach back home, and he’s considered one of the notorious professors in this uni in Palawan. When I was younger, I would watch him correct his students’ papers. I would never forget all those big ass question marks he writes on them. He just looks at it for barely 20 seconds and he knows if its partly correct. Are the answers wrong? Is the solution right? Or is the solution right? And the answers wrong?

There are times when I just feel sorry about myself, for not being the student that I really am.

I remember wanting to give 90% to school, and not 60%. But high school was just too much fun. I wasn’t the smartest in class, but I didn’t get the lowest grades. I would get really high grades, but they come in season, like summer. Ahahaha.

I have no regrets, really. But sometimes I just wished I paid more attention, that’s all. You geddit? Lol.

You might say that I am no longer "smart", or at all -- but life has been good. I'm blessed to know that I have experienced what it was like to be on top of the world. Academically speaking.

My advice to all my blog readers who are still in school: Make everyday count. Always bring your digital camera and take loads of videos (like me). You'll love watching them every now and then.

And to my fellow "fresh-out-of-school-and-into-the-gruesome-industry-of-working-your-buns-off" peeps : Let us all be reminiscent together and wish we would wake up to just one of our high school mornings and when money came easy. Ahahahaha.

Parking now.
Replying to comments asap.

Happy Birthday Justin Quirino, Candice Crisostomo, Regine Rodriguez and Candee!


Shakespeare is dead.

I rode a horse with a white knight once.
And I will never forget it.

Whatever happened to the hopeless romantics in all of us?

I mean, things change. That I get. But love? Doesn't that have to be one of the things that have to remain constant in this world?

I don't think our ways of showing our significant others should change at all. Seriously. For some reason, I prefer snail mails over e-mails. Phonecalls in my landline number than texting (its not really how people back then would do it, I just like landline phone calls. hahaha ). I also never liked using webcams, for some reason I find it really awkward. But I have done it TWICE ( the first time the webcam was on me, the second time, it was on my shoulders and focused on my room. hahahaha ).

My point is, nothing will ever beat how our ancestors (lol) did it.
The serenading and all that. Back then, I would watch a Dolphy or an FPJ film, and it was never without the ultimate harana song.


I would cringe. "That's such a silly song!"
Who would've thought, years after I made that statement, that it would be something I would be looking for at this point of our generation. Not that I'm complaining about my relationship or anything, but...

Where have all the white knights gone? Are they all married already? Have they gotten some girl knocked up? Are they out of the country? Are they...dead?

Methinks all of the above.
What happened to the Shakespeare in all of us? What happened to the people looking for love? For genuine love? What happened to " AGAINST ALL ODDS " and " YOU AND ME AGAINST THE WORLD? ". Can we blame it on how we all have been living our lives these days? Everything comes so easy. So does love?

Back then, people would go through SO MUCH before they got what they really wanted. Thinking about it, it was better that way. We can learn to truly appreciate it when it finally lands in our hands.

When it comes to love, is there really such a thing as "right" and "wrong" ? Are there no gray areas? Can't you just do things because you want to? Because you feel its right even when other people think its wrong?

Whoever said love isn't complicated? Easy? Are you serious??
Love is supposed to be complicated. Only then can love really work. Or not. Depending on what type of relationship you're in.

Love letters. Chocolates. Flowers. Cliche? Yes. But no.
The key ingredient for this to work is SINCERITY.

Where where where are the sparks. I know they're in there somewhere. And with that said -- where have all the real MEN gone?

What happened to things like -- singing out loud in front of your friends for you? Kneeling when saying sorry? Coming late to school carrying a big ass sports bag only to take out a bouquet of flowers for you because he didn't forget your "monthsary" ? Trying to steal a kiss when no one is looking? Sending you emails as soon as he gets home? Calling you every single day even if you've spent the entire day with him? Making everything about you (including his YM status message)? Telling your friends how in love he is with you? Cheeseballs? Passing you short, sweet notes everyday? Composing poems for you? Popping out of nowhere to say "I love you" ? Secretly holding your hand under the table?

Will these things change too? Do they have to? Why?
I want my children to feel the things I have when I'm in love. I'd like them to experience waking up almost every hour just smiling to themselves thinking that they've got the person they truly want and love in their lives. I'd like them to feel watching the sunset one day and realizing how that particular one felt so different from the rest. I'd like them to experience staring into nothingness just replaying every moment spent with the people they love in their heads.

I'd like them to learn that love is not easy. It never was, and it never should be.
I'd like them to be hopeless romantics like me.

"Anak, its not always about doing the right thing, what's right in everybody's eyes. Its about what you feel. How you feel. Don't let anything get in your way. Love will ALWAYS conquer everything. When you love, stand by it. Fight for it. But when you're not sure, don't ever promise. Learn the art of compromising, because everything can be settled when you talk about it. And when you make big decisions, talk about it together. There are no rules in love, anak. I can't tell you though how true love feels like, you'll know it in your guts. You are never too young to fall in love. There is no such thing as 'I'm too young to feel this way'. Love knows no age. It comes at any point in our lives. You do have the choice to want it or not want it. But make sure its what you want. What you both want. Remember everything you said, the promises you made. Don't forget to communicate always. When you feel that something isn't right, talk about it. Respect your relationship and everything you've gone through. Never chicken out if you have problems. Face them together. Don't go marching out there alone. I want you to love truly, anak. I want you to be loved back, too. Because every person deserves to be loved that way. If you want to give it your all, I have nothing against that. Just make sure your partner is doing the same. Only you can tell if its mutual, and it is reciprocated. Nothing beats the feeling of being with someone you truly love. Every relationship goes through rough times, make sure you don't let go just because you're facing a problem. I'm always here for you if you need advice.

Alam mo anak, I knew a Shakespeare when I was your age. It was wonderful. I hope you get to know one, I hope he finds you -- and I hope he doesn't let you go."

Kind of exciting, isn't it?
I do pray, by that time, the kind of love that we knew still exists.

Oh Romeo, Oh Romeo. Where art thou thy Romeo?
Oh, I know where he is. But I'm not saying.


Rather waste some time with you.

Well yes, you guys. But I mean someone else. Hahahaha! Chichi ito!!! Lol.

ANYWAY. Everything in this blog is still raw. I've changed my header for the NTH time nao. Its weird that whenever I'm at work I have all these ideas popping in my head on what I'm supposed to put and edit in my blog. When I sit in front of my PC my head goes blank. The arabic insurance claims must've drained my poor leetle burrain. How sed.

So yeah, I will be fixing this when I can. I'd love to reply to your comments nao, but I don't wanna give like 1 liners and its 1 AM.

Maya called me earlier, I was jumping around the house. Hahaha. And then Grey's went on. Amazing. Must work on us meeting before Saturday.

Forgive me for this!!! Argh. This will look better soon, and I won't promise this time! Basta it will look better soon! Ahahahah!

Nait everyonesee!!!


Make it better.

My short, "meaningful" rant on stereotyping and racism.

I can't make much sense when I talk about them. That's why writing them is the best way to go! Lol. But yes, since I am new with this stuff, I find it quite hard expressing myself verbally. So yeah. There you have it. I won't apologize for my vid this time as it is understandable. I'm a losaar like that. Ahahahaha!

I love The White Stripes!!!


Today? Really?

YES. It felt like it was just 5 minutes ago. Amazing.
I looked around and smiled. I can still hear "Only Time" playing in the background, and I could still feel everything. The scent is exactly how it was, it was as cold as it was.

Doorbells and Ice Cream Sundaes.

Amazing. I shall continue to wish that I can prove Einstein wrong. There is no B. There is only A. And that I will succeed. It will bring me back. It will bring us back.

I can feel the zsa zsa zsu again.
Everything in the world is right, and it stops spinning.
There was only this. And nothing else mattered.

Take me. Why can't you just take me.


Which seems to be some years ago.

At exactly this time of the day, I was face down on my bed, writing in my silver, hard bound journal about an experience I almost had that day. Of what almost happened in school but didn't. And then I told myself that if I ever had the chance to come face to face to it again, I would go and...set myself free.

Next time, will come tomorrow.
And yes. I did let go. Ahahaha.

ANYWAY. You know the new John Lloyd-Bea movie? I saw the trailer at Lora's multiply (because she loves JL oh so much) and I felt like the movie was somewhat based on me. Hahahaha! I know most of us would feel that way about movies. There was this line though that really struck me. Made me wanna cry. When John Lloyd said : "She loved me at my worst. You had me at my best. And yet you chose to break my heart" (CUE FOR TEAR!!!). I hope the movie doesn't go the way as we all expect to (i.e., JL and Bea getting back together). We need a little tragedy people! In reality, things like that really do happen. And in reality, they DO NOT END UP together anymore. We should stop living in Disney Fairytale Land. When Prince Charmings dump the Princesses, the Prince Charmings move on. No matter what the situation is. Because that's how most of them are. In this case though, Bea dumped John Lloyd. She moved on first, and he had no choice. When he found someone new, it made her uncomfortable and she begs him to take him back. Hmm. I wanna watch it. Haha. Will wait for it on DVD.

I have a surprise for everyone. Its coming on one of Seventeen's issues. I'm not sure when, but wait for it! I'm so excited to see it too! Yihee!

Two nights ago, Ma and I bought matching brassieres from La Senza. Its grey with light pink polka-dots and its got this metallic pink strap. I wore an off-shoulder top yesterday to show it off. Its so cool! Hahaha! I also got a new Paolo Coehlo book. I was deciding on whether to get it or The Witch of Portobello but I decided to go with this one first. Its got about a hundred short stories. I love reading them, its like a Paolo Coehlo blog. Haha. I've been spending so much time online that it felt like I've been living in cyberworld. I wanna read more books now so I don't hog the PC every single day.

I also found my dream Prada shades. Its totely a steal for SR1,200. I want to get it because its so cheap but thinking about it, I can get a lot of stuff with that amount of money. Besides I already have the Chanel shades Ma just got me this year (KC Concepcion has the same one! Coolio!). One of my officemates, Ate Liz, told me to get it too because it was cheap but she also did say that the best time to splurge on designer shades is days before I leave for the Philippines FOR GOOD. She does have a point, man. Plus I'm sure there'll be tons of money-worthy designs by then. Haha. But...its hard not to love this one.

I've actually seen it last month but I shrugged off the idea of getting it because I thought it would cost like 3 grand or sumn. Haha. Oh well. This also reminds me of my glasses!! I got these super coo' Dior glasses. Tito Gilbs already ordered it for me, might be getting it by next month. My eyes are starting to fail me. Kazumbruttling!

Claire's is on sale. Love it.

Oh and - I'm totally major crushing on Kevjumba (of YouTube). Why does HappySlip get to be so lucky, eh? Haha! My favorite video of the moment : PUT IT IN PURSE. Lol!

Belated Happy 45th Monthsary, Babe!


Bucky and Snowy the Abbie Slayers.

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Bucky. I barely knew her, but she added me as a friend in my multiply account. One day I posted an album wearing two-toned aviator shades. She commented asking me where I got them. A few days later, she posts an album wearing sunnies similar to mine. Strike 1. Not long after, I blog about my dream bag. The next thing you know, its her dream bag. I blog about my favorite fashion magazine, and next thing you know, its her favorite magazine. I blog about my love for Topshop, and next thing you know, she's shopping at Topshop. I pose like this, and next thing you know, she's posing like this. I upload photos like this, and next thing you know, she's uploading photos like this. I paint my nails blakc, and WHADDYAKNOW! She paints her nails black! I love this movie, and next thing you know, SHE LOVES IT TOO! I use this expression, and next thing you know, SHE'S USING IT TOO! I say I'ma go watch this film, and next thing you know, SHE WILL TOO! Bucky thinks she's cool and that people rip her off. I think Bucky also thinks that I'm stupid and that I don't notice whatever she does. SO. How many strikes is that now? Lol don't stop counting yet. I'm sure she's going to continue ripping me off my entire life. Maybe if I jump out the window she would too? I bet she's not gonna think its stupid. Hahahahaha!

Bucky has a friend too, named Snowy. Snowy is a bit nicer than Bucky. But I detest her nearly the same as Bucky. Snowy is one of the biggest copycats that I have in my network. Snowy likes to copy my poses too, my expressions and the things I like. Snowy also viewed one of my albums before she posted an album similar to my album's subject. When I read her album description, I was like "hmm, this one looks familiar". Hahahaha! Snowy also likes adding up people in my network, even the ones she haven't met yet. Methinks she's also a cupcake. She likes cupcaking with my boyfriend.

I don't make everything about me, and I'm sure they could've probably have gotten it from other people, but man. ITS JUST TOO OBVIOUS. All I can say for these two is GET A LIFE. NAO. Wai do people like then exist? They can be cool by being themselves, you know. They're not so bad. I just really hate that people think I'm the unoriginal one when some of the things I do are really FROM me. Not from Hannabeth or Vanessa or whoever I'm totally gushing over now. Sheesh. I mean, if you were in my position, you'd understand. Stealing photos, is one thing. STEALING IDEAS -- that's the worst.

Keep that in mind before you steal someone else's "identity". Stop hiding under their masks. Be true to yourself. There's nothing wrong with coming up with things only you can understand. That's the point of having your own identity. Methinks I can only accept having copycats and posers when (and if) I become famous. Like when you say "THAT'S HOT" you know that only Paris Hilton came up with it. Get me?

I like to think some are inspired by me. That one is really flattering. But then these two girls are starting to become pathetic. Bucky will always top my list. When I tested her on my pathetic-o-meter (ahahaha! got the o-meter from Tatin lol) and it went berserk, man! My pathetic-o-meter broke!

Ugh. Such GOBBLEDYGOOK but its seriously getting on my nerves.
This will really sound so feelingera, but stop making me a big part of your life. I am no basis for being cool. To Snowy and Bucky : if you still want to copy me, make sure you credit. Stop making people believe that "oh she's so cool for doing this, saying this". I came up with the crap, so give me some credit! I deserve it!

Hannabeth is so right.
"no one is original anymore. everyone feeds off of everyone else."
I copy celebrities, and mix them a little of myself whenever I do. That's what would make it partially original. In other words, I get inspired but I come up with my stuff too. 70% has to come from you, or else you're nothing but a rip-off.

So there.


Sssh, its quiet nao.

Be back in a few.


And the word of the day is:

Third Vlog Entry!

Tsk. Wai do I always get bad screencaps for my Vlogs? Is this a sign that I should stop? Lol.

I was chatting with her when I was making one. Heehee!

I felt really bad about the Glorietta 2 bombing. I read from Niccolo's blog that this isn't the first time its happened. I wasn't really aware of the first one (please refresh my memory). It broke my heart, hearing the news. Glorietta is like my second home. Seriously, and I know most of you feel the same way. People go there to have fun, and ... its just sad that 8 (or is it 9) people had to die from this -- and so many injured. I mean, can you imagine? I can never. I'm in Glorietta all the time whenever I'm home, its just sad. I mean, Glorietta, regardless of its status (whatever that means) is one of the malls I will always be in love with. I've hung out in Glorietta even as a kid!!! May God bless everyone who got affected with this incident. And whoever is behind this, don't worry -- Satan's got your back. Which only means you will lose in the end.

Anyways, I'm chatting with Tinka now.
(Hi Tinks, love you! lol). Just got back from watching Grey's. Katuwa, we're both watching it in MBC4. Heehee!

So yeah.
About my VLOG (totally ewwing at the screencap still) - if you want me to talk about anything, or ask me anything, please leave comments! :-) I love comments, they're the best! Hahahaha.

HAY, work again tomorrow.


Don't You Wanna Be Relevant (oh no)

I never really watch Grey's Anatomy religiously, but everytime I catch it on the telly, I end up teary-eyed. Why oh why didn't I get it on DVD? Man, remind me to grab the seasons --- well whatever is available on DVD nao. Downloading it is such a bummer.

Speaking of which, I am currently hung-over downloading indie albums. I've always been a fan of the indie scene, took me awhile to really appreciate them by heart. Right now I'm totally digging The Cribs (gotta thank Lance again for showing me Hustler. Ahahaha). In addition to that -- Arctic Monkeys, Modest Mouse, Boys Like Girls, Ha Ha Tonka, Bloc Party. Currently downloading a few songs, and albums from these artists(actually moar than just these ones. ahahaha). They rock, I love them. Lizzerizzerrie alsointroduced Feist to me. Gotta love them too. Eversince I came back to Jeddah, music has become my bestfriend. Its always by my side. Whether I'm in the shower, or at work. It wakes me up, puts me to sleep. Makes me happy, sad and giddy. Most of the time its all I think about. Right nao though -- music decided to put countless Ashley Tisdale songs in my head.


Why oh why on merlin's pants did I play HSM:2 non-stop today.

I got doughnuts.
I was replying to my Multiply comments earlier and suddenly doughnuts were marching in my head. They weren't clothed but...they were dripping with chocolate and candy sprinkles. In less than 5 seconds after I snapped back to reality, I was already out of my room and into the kitchen interrupting my parents talking to each other.

And then I jumped up and down like -- OMG.
One totely Sharpay Evans moment.

YAOUCH I just hit my leg on the edge of the table!
Oh noes. Bruise! Bruise!

Best and I had another one of those super meaningful chats today.
He's one of the greatest guys in the planet.Ahahahaha. He even gave me an assignment. Lol I should research on something. Ahahaha. He made me realize a lot. He answered questions I never thought would be answered nao. Amazing.

Lizzerizzerrie showed me a photo today of her new jacket. GRR. It is loev. Of course its from
Toppys, wherelse do we both get our supply? Lol. And her room really INSPIRED me to fix mine! I wanna paint away!!!!


I loev my tights.

Gringo loevs leaning on the keyboard whenever I'm OL. For some reason the mouse on the screen attracts him. His eyes would go wherever the mouse would. One time, he tried catching it with his claws. What an adorable pu--- I mean kitty. You gotta love my keyboard too. Old school, yo!


Another one of my favorite Zanessa photos (in Hawaii -- lol, yes. OLD but GOOD!) Sorrey, I liek sharing my undeniable loev for them with you guys. Ahahahaha. Why are they so effing perfect for each other, I hate it! I'm so jealass.

Methinks I got the munchies from that TV series marathon I did 30 minutes ago. Oh lol and Ellen Degeneres da bomb yo. She got so emotional over the dog she adopted. She is such a sweetheart, I loev her moar nao. Bless her and Portia. Aww. Oh and I really gotta give snaps for Britney. She presented herself (because "surrender" is such a heavy word to use) in jail after the hit and run case charged against her. 'Where's the party at??" Lol. K Brit, as long as you're smiling. Attagirl.

Hopping into bed now, popping a DVD -- and a doughnut while I'm at it.
GAH. Wearing retainers is such a drag. But oh what the hell, I liek wearing them (except when I eat, so off they go!!!! ahahaha)

Today for you, tomorrow for me!!!!