Missing Frankenstein.

Hi Abbie! This is Charisse Katigbak, contributing stylist for Seventeen magazine. Are you free for a shoot on Wednesday June 27 11 am? Its for the What's In Store section of the September issue. (June 23, 10:45 AM)

I regret saying I'd contact her again when I get back. Haaay buhay. On some days I wish I were filthy rich I had a private jet to fly in whenever I get texts like that. I don't know if that sounds pathetic, I know its not a cover shoot or anything like that but man, I'm missing out on doing what I really love doing.

Did I tell you I also had to back out of the international airing of a softdrink ad (read: it's a Coke commercial, kill me now). I was called for a final casting, and when it was down to me and two other girls for the lead (daughter) role, I had to back out as soon as I heard the shoot was moved to last week of June. Flights were fully booked 'til August so there's no chance that I re-book for another flight. Our VTRs were sent to China and I backed out a day before the results were in. I prayed really hard that I didn't get chosen to begin with to save myself and my agency from shame. WAH! But, my agent, Jaymie (who I really love so so so much) told my Mom I was not in some sort of "modeling/casting blatter". In short, hindi ako na bad shot sa caster at sa agency, thank God.

God knows how much I love to model.
I know he has plans for me, so like always I'll just really have to trust him with that.

But I'm human though. Sometimes you can't forget to feel sad about it but that's another feeling I have to fight.

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Let's stop crying, Babe.

"I feel so lonely... I could cry. Ayoko lang isipin masyado... Tangina."

A REAL MAN FOR ME, SHOWS HIS WEAKNESS.
I am so effing sick of men trying to live up to the stereotype that all men have to appear strong. A real man shows emotions in times he thinks he should.

So...your girlfriend is leaving the country, you have no idea when you'll be seeing her, hugging her, and kissing her again.

Do you... show her that you're strong? Or do you...show her that you're weak without her even if you both know you can handle being away from each other for awhile (read: a year at least).

A real man for me, shows his weakness especially to the person he loves. A real man for me is strong. Strong enough to show his weakness, and that he is only human - not some superman hero god. A real man for me, stays true to himself and how he feels. He balances them perfectly.

Andrew showing me his weakness doesn't make me love him any less. Andrew crying because of me leaving doesn't make him a lesser man. In fact, I think I've loved him even more for that. I like the feeling of being needed, of being missed ( I mean, who doesn't right? ), and I like that I feel that rarely because... it only means that he DOES mean it.

I would have been the dumbest person alive if I ever did and do let you go, Drew. You might not be the perfect boyfriend, and I'm not the perfect girlfriend either. But thank you for making yourself one for me. Thank you for making yourself one imperfectly perfect boyfriend - and for treating me like a perfect girlfriend.

Thank you for carrying my baggage with and for me. Thank you for still loving me after I've shared EVERYTHING with you. Thank you for accepting me after EVERYTHING I've shared with you. Thank you because you stuck around NO MATTER HOW HARD THE SITUATION.

THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I AM WORTH FIGHTING FOR. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I AM WORTH WAITING FOR. THANK YOU FOR STILL BEING HERE AFTER EVERYTHING I'VE OVERLOOKED. THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME WHOLEHEARTEDLY.

I now know why God really gave you to me.
You really are the one for me, Andrew. And I really really really mean it.

Tonight, I don't hear you call out my name from your window. I can't see you hop into bed and sleep right the next minute. I can't stick my nose on your window screen to watch you sleep.


As much as we should stop shedding...
I'm sure both our pillows won't stay dry tonight.

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When I look at you now...

...everything seems totally right. And I know I have given you me, 101%. This is it. No b.s., no baggages. Just you and me - and this world we have to fight and live in.

HERE'S TO YOU, ME - AND TIME.

I am all yours.

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Hello, Stranger.

Damn, it was a lot more sexier when Natalie Portman said it. Hahaha. Oh well.

Sometimes, believe it or not... I have strangers to thank for making my day. One of my most unforgettable strangers was this lady who sat at the table opposite ours in McDonald's. We had just finished praying and were starting to dig-in when she approached us just as she left her table.

"Akala ko ako lang yung nagpe-pray ng before meals sa public. Its nice to see young people do it too. Keep it up!"

That's all I needed to hear from stranger to make my day. The best part of it all was that I know I made God happy with that, too!


Another stranger I will never forget is this girl who talked to me right outside the Topshop dressing room in Glorietta 2.

I was holding the Kate Moss hotpants Andrew was getting me (I had just tried it on) when she came to me.

"You're Abbie right?"

"Um..yes."

I already had this big smile plastered on my face.

"I read your blog!"

"OMG REALLY? WOOOW!"

Now I look even more amazed.

"Topshop ka nanaman ah!"

"Oo nga eh! Hahaha!"


After she got out from the dressing room I asked her what her name was.

"ZYRA!"

"Thanks ah!!! Ang cool, sobra!"


ZYRA. Thanks for making my day twice as good as it already was! Hope I did get your name right. If you ever see me again, please don't hesitate to call me! I love it when I see online friends in person! You might just be the stranger that I needed to help save my day!

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You broke mine, I break yours.

Kate, I choose my friends over you. I'm still going to own more of you one of these days. But now, I'll have to feel happy not wearing you, but spending more time with friends I have lost contact with.

Its back to listening to Boyz II Men, my friends.
And crying while doing so.

Can't believe I'm back here again!

Have a safe flight back, Ja. We're all going to miss you so much! And I'm really gonna miss you again.

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I don't need you to make me feel better.

It would have helped if you were beautiful. You're nothing but rotten and dead to me. That's how much I hate you.

Haha. Exagge. But really. That's X, N times for you. X, X, X, X, X!

Hey you know what? I've been really thinking about getting a tat. Ann gave me this really good idea to get it in...secret. Hahaha. I wanna have it in a totally different color (like the one she suggested). Skull and crossbones, heart-shaped "eyes" with a crown on the left side, about two to three inches, way below the right side of my back. I don't want it to be visible even if I have really low rise jeans on. Well yeah, maybe a bit visible in really low rise jeans. Hahaha. But its gonna be quite hard to see in the color I want. So that's cool. I really want to think about it. If I'm undecided before I leave for Jeddah, then it means its gonna take some time. Just remember that you heard the idea from me. If someone gets it before me, they're copycats. Hahahaha! LOL. If I don't get it soon, I'll get one before I turn 30, if I still want it by then.

I'm so exhausted. Spent three days and two nights at Ann's. Exagge, the original plan was overnight lang.

I FINALLY WENT TO SERENDRA NA! I can't believe it, its like super near the condo we bought and guess what... Mabubukas sila ng Topshop dun! AND andun lang yung Cupcakes by Sonja! Ann's boyfriend Lau treated us after dinner to cupcakes the other night. Daming artista, exagge. CHECK! Hahaha!

I SUPER LOVE CUPCAKES. I WANT A BOX OF CHOCOLATE SURPRISE, PLEASE?

Oh and guess who's here.
Ja. Hahahaha! He finally landed today and hell yes we are meeting up after 5 years of not seeing each other. Woohoo!

Okay gotta gotta drool to sleep. Exagge, I am SO sleepy.
PILLOW TO DROOL ON - CHECK!

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When are you coming over?

You! Make sure you arrive on the 19th so I can take you with me to Shawarmaland. And you! Make sure you come over real soon or I'm gonna whoop your ass so bad you wished you never flew in to begin with. Hahahaha!

I am just so ATAT.

Okay so.
Photos, anyone?

UNANG HIRIT
Laureen styled us for a back-to-school segment.



Me, Laureen, Sam and Dior at UH's dressing room, waiting for our turn!


Laureen giving me some love. I totely love her.


Me, Sam, Dior and Laur on our way to Makati to drop me off after the show.



DREW'S ENROLMENT.
After UH, went straight to Dasma to meet up with Babe and our friends.




On my way in an empty public transpo. Sorta...on my way.



Admin.


Gimme some lovin', Babe!


Now this girl, I love so much - Mara!!!



OWNING KATE (part one)
At the Kate Moss line launch at TS Glorietta 2.



My friends have convinced me to get this IF its still going to be available in size 6, which I doubt.


Can't wait for the metallic one to come!!



Its what I've really wanted to get. The signature K top. Woohoo!



APANG FLORESCIO IS THE NEW NIGEL BARKER.
All photos courtesy of Apang Florescio.
Taken after a shoot for Seventeen at Sara's. Gotta love the photos.



Summer girls Saab and Abbie by Apang.



I'm loving this photo. It reminds me of that Burberry ad with Rachel Weisz.



So OK! Magazine material!



So yeah.
Tomorrow I'll be meeting up with Ann, Carlo and Ban. I'm gonna be staying at Ann's overnight. Thank God I have money left pa. I think we'll be eating at the carinderia near Ann's school (DLSU-taft) since she lives near there anyway. Hahaha. Yearight. Like there's some sorta carinderia in that area. Oh yeah right, Starbucks! LOL! Kidding! I love Starbucks, I miss staring at the Banana Choclit Chip Loaves and Muffins I can't wait to get them all in my mouth. WAH.

I effing hate being broke.
But hell yeah. ANYTHING FOR YOU KATE.

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If I were Parisienne, how do I say "video"?

"You know English English people would use 'Photographs' and Americans would most likely say 'Pictures'. So how would I say 'Video' in a genuine parisian way?"

"Veejo"
"Veedyo"
"Vee-deux"

"Okay nevermind thanks."


Hahaha. Talk about having really helpful friends around. Everyday at 3AM - Lance, Jaybo and I would chat and we call the conference - THE GANGBANG ROOM. Hahahaha! So, its like when all three of us are online, we'd be chatting with each other individually and Jay would go "TO THE GANGBANG ROOM!" Mwahaha. On most days we have matching status messages too.

JAY : "DON'T LISTEN TO KNOWITALLS. SHIT HAPPENS."
LANCE : "DON'T ASK ME, I'M NOT A KNOWITALL!"
ABBIE : "KNOWITALLS ARE STOOPID!"

And there you have it. Our rage against know-it-alls. Hahaha. You must admit though, they are kinda irritating. Although I admit to be one sometimes...or is that most of the time? But I only do so because people around me have "looked down" on me. So in times of need...you MUST always, always fight back.

Stab them with your pen! Or err...keyboard! Hahaha.

Funny thing though, now that Kuya got me THE JOURNEY, Powerbooks Greenbelt and Glorietta have already been texting (PBS Greenbelt already called me this morning) about the reservation I made for the book since I got back home. Hahaha. OH, THE IRONY OF LIFE.

I have so much to tell you guys but I'm off to church in a few. So I gotta get ready. Promise, will post pictures in my next entry.

PLEASE GET SEVENTEEN'S JUNE ISSUE, btw.

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