An Open Letter to Portrait Artists

Originally titled as "An Open Letter to Danny Roberts"

Blogger Potraits, Ver. 1 Series

Blogger Potraits, Ver. 2 Series
Photos grabbed from Igor+André, artwork by Danny Roberts

I can't even begin to describe how much I love his work.

I'm pretty tired of wanting to update my header every time I feel like it doesn't define me or what I write, and I was hoping that I'd have something that'll be my trademark. A trademark header. Something that doesn't need to be updated.

Unfortunately, the very talented Mr. Roberts is unable to take new work at the moment as he's very busy. I told him that I hope he remembers me when he's not. He's awesome.

Do you know anyone who is willing to do a portrait of me for my blog header? I'll describe how I want it done. And I am very much willing to pay. But before we start, I hope you don't mind showing me some of your work.

Send me an e-mail at kidgnarlyDOTlovechildATgmailDOTcom. Thanks, you guys! Looking forward, I can't wait!


More than just an Air Supply Hit

In love, its true when they say that "The First Cut is the Deepest". But I got to thinking how, regardless of the number of scars, deep or not, when it comes to love - it always hurts.

Putting aside of the length of time you've been together, you can be in love with someone for a week and it would mean more than a past lover who you've been with for years. It always comes down to the depth of your relationship. How much love you shared with each other, how much passion you had, and all these fuzzy, warm feelings in your gut, that will always be there even years after your separation from each other.

I may have ended up with Andrew after being broken up with him for about 8 months in late 2007, but the process is no different. The drama I had to go through wasn't new to one's ear. Unfortunately I was one of the many. But the thing is, no matter how similar our stories are, the way we feel isn't the same, if there's one thing we have in common, its that our pain can never be put into words.

Betrayal, disbelief, unable to accept that you're going through situations you'd thought would never happen to you, it takes time before you take it all in. And then you think to yourself, "so this is what its like", and then you think, "this is just like in the movies, but nothing like it at all." I have tons of those moments in my life.

But there's something refreshing about being heartbroken. I went through a phase when I would do everything that I could to regain my self-esteem, to pick up the pieces. Just like you, my first resort was talking to my Mom (at the time, even my Dad didn't hesitate to join in all the latest news I had to share about my heartbreak, and would immediately counter me with a corresponding verse in the Bible, which was and is always comforting). Then I spent my month's savings in a 2 day shopping spree at Topshop and River Island, where my Mom didn't find it in herself to object whatsoever. I mean, imagine your very heartbroken daughter lying next to you in bed, almost mute for about two days, and then suddenly comes up with five things to say, "Ma, let's go to Topshop". Wouldn't you oblige? Man, she even helped me damage the place. I'd never forget when we've already paid and she'd spot something and call me out to say "How about this?", and it didn't just happen once. Talk about supportive.
We even got ourselves several matching tops. She's the best shopping partner. EVER.

Countless of days I'd stare at myself in the mirror, analyzing myself, not just literally 'reflecting' on who I am - and then I'd try what KC Concepcion said she religiously does , chanting the words that somewhat goes like, "I am beautiful and this is going to be an amazing day!" I added a little something something as well : "You're absolutely gonna regret this". It sounds pathetic saying it now but it built up so much self-confidence back then.

And most importantly, I learned how to cry out to God. Locking myself up in the pantry, headphones on, listening to Hillsong Albums while having lunch, which almost always end up tasting weird due to the saltwater dripping down my face and to my plate.

No one is deprived of being heartbroken. Its a part of life that we must accept. But take advantage of the time that you now have for yourself. Surely, just like me - you've lost yourself with everything you've invested, and how you always see things in twos when you were with your lover. But now there's just you.

Its sad, but its exciting. The unknown seduces you into hoping for the best that's yet to come. Because everyone will have a happy ending if you don't resort to rebelling against everything that's happened. You know what they say, "Life is beautiful, but even roses have thorns". True story.

I have a couple of friends who has just entered Single Town again. But instead of being sad for them (in which I partly am because I know how it feels), I mostly feel psyched. One day soon, they'll be finding the people that God made just for them, and He will bring them together, although nothing will be easy (its not supposed to), they will find comfort in each other through the rough times, balancing everything with the irony of having such a hard time being with them but at the same time, enjoying it.

God gives us so much hope in the world through the lives of others. I'm sure we're not the only ones who has gone through this, all you can do at the moment is pray, work on your relationship with God and yourself (you've definitely got to know your worth), and the rest will follow.


Featured Fashionista : Aisa Ipac

Among a sea of interesting fashion blogs you'd find on the intarwebs, its quite difficult not to notice Pax. She's got a distinct style that not everyone could pull off.

I definitely admire the confidence she exudes, like there isn't a trace of doubt with her outfit choices (I wouldn't too, if I were her, she has amazing clothes!)

I love that there's so much variation to her looks. You'd never end up bored going through her LookBook or Chictopia page because she's very consistent. Do you have any idea how hard that is? I'm sure even on her lazy days, she'd still look as awesome.

Another proven fact that its not the clothes that make you a hit, an icon, or whatever you want to call it, really - its YOU.

Its not surprising to find out that Pax does so many things aside from being a blogger. Girl is talented.

1.) Place of Birth
Manila, Philippines

2.) What are your inspirations (fashion-wise?)
Fashion blogs, runway shows, past eras, music, my mood, the weather. :)

3.) Do you usually plan what to wear, or do you dress spontaneously? I do try to plan my outfits. But I always end up not wearing what I prepared. So I guess I do spontaneous quite well.

4.) Your other interests aside from Fashion?
Books, mountain climbing, traveling, food, charity. :)

5.) Who / What influenced you most with your love for Fashion?

I think... my grandmother. She has the coolest and most gorgeous clothes. Some of the vintage dresses I wear were hers. She's now 86 and still very fashion conscious. Whenever I go to Bacolod to visit, her requested pasalubong would always be a pair of shoes! Her latest request is for me to buy her cute oversized sunnies. :)

6.) What was one insecurity you always had about yourself, and what did you do to overcome it?
My being tan (my skincolor)! I've tried all the whitening soaps when I was younger. But I've now learned to love and embrace my God given skin color! Especially since my aunt told me that people in the US spend hundreds or even thousands of dollar just to achieve this skin tone. Also, almost all my friends said they love it anyway (Thank you, friends). Hehe :P

7.) What's one item that every girl must have in their closets?

A plain white shirt :)

8.) Other people find it so hard to express themselves through Fashion, what advise would you give to encourage them if they want their mood/personality speak through their clothes? I guess just dress how you feel. Do it for the right reasons. Don't be afraid to experiment. Don't be afraid to be different. You don't need a fat wallet, model body or the fanciest clothes to do that. Work with what you have, it's just a matter of right styling and right attitude. Take inspiration from anything. :)

9.) When and how did you start your first styling stint? Is it a bit challenging to dress other people up?
For paid, I started with open shoots. Those are shoots organized by photographers with a theme and anyone could come just as long as they pay a fee. It was challenging cause we had to style 20-50 people in a day and it had to be spontaneous. And for me styling would always be challenging. All shoots are different and it gets harder each time! Hehe!

10.) Tips for aspiring stylists?
Unless you're friends with Liz Uy or you're the owner of a magazine, enroll in a styling class:) It would give you more exposure and you would meet a lot of people that would really help you penetrate into the business :)

Check out Pax's LOOKBOOK / CHICTOPIA / TWITTER / BLOG to find more about her!



Its been awhile since I published my favorite tunage atm. For some reason I haven't been using my iPod in the past few months. I guess its cos I've been incredibly busy that I can't even update my blog for a few minutes. You know the feeling when you have so much to do, so little time, and yet you digress to do anything else? You're slumped in your office chair doing nothing and everything at the same time, its insane.

But its better than having your brain die on you due to lack of activity IYKWIM.

Anyway, here are some amazing tunage I've been loving these days, some discovered today! Which is what actually inspired me to post them.

The Pierces - Glorious

Oh Land - White Nights

Jamie Lidell - Completely Exposed

Radiohead - Talk Show Host

I've practically listened to Talk Show Host since I was 10, sadly it was after seeing one of Baz Luhrman's masterpieces, his take on Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet that sort of scarred me for life. Its not something a 10 year old would really 'dig' back then.

As the years progressed the song had a different effect on me though. Yesterday, for some reason, I was walking around with this on repeat and wo. I felt like teh sexx. If I had to come with my own background music at all, it would definitely be this.

Updating my iPhone with these later. At the moment I'm loving "White Nights". It'll be my morning song!


Bohemian Umpire

Had another shoot with Jays and Drew late last month, this time at a Baseball Field (there was a Baseball game in the field next to this during the shoot). Uploading both their shots, post-processing done by me (not all of them were post-processed though).

By Jayson So

By Andrew Bautista

Earrings,Topshop/Vest,New Look/Dress,Stradivarius/Boots,Topshop/Bangles,New Look