An Open Letter To The Universe

Dear Universe,

I don't know how to put this. But I give up. I GIVE UP. I do not know how I survived this long. I am staring at my office table, feeling like I'm not here. At all. 

I don't want to be anywhere. I don't want to feel anything. I just want...nothing. I want nothingness. I want it to consume me completely until I have nothing more left to look forward to. This hope, this light that continues to poorly spark inside me? I want it gone. I want it dead. I want it dead for good. I want emptiness. I want it until my body starts to shut down. I just want it to end.

I just want this to end.
Screw you, just finish it already.
You win.