Yeah, you just broke me. But you're right here. Seeing you puts me back to pieces.

That's how much I fucking love you.
I love you to a point that it kills me.


  1. Hi Abbie,

    I have been reading your blog for quite sometime. and I know no words can comfort you and make it easy. I really don't know how to put it but let me just say YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS. I also went through a major heartache. I never got married. So, i know how special it is.. It took me 7 years to HEAL,MOVE FORWARD and go on with my life. those 7 years were the most exciting times of my life by the way I'm 28 years old still single after that "relationship". I loved other guys but his was just different. ika nga "life changer". Just remember that whatever happens you really have to be STRONG. strong is an understatement. it's hard to stay strong when you are just falling apart. but you just have to.. Get up and try to live life with that kind of pain. Kaya mo yan. I also feel for you regarding your loss. I'm sure your Mom wants to see her strong abbie fighting. Abbie, life is unfair sometimes. but LIFE is great. It makes us think why did i end up like these? why do i have to suffer? I'm not even gonna start feeding you spiritual preaching. But know that somewhere God is there for you. He may want you to suffer or go through this NOW. we may not know WHY. or for how long. Me? 7 years. as i look back, i remember lessons and realizations. That Great Love,True Love,One Love is different from each other. I'm contented and happy now. I learned to be happy by myself even without a partner. All my friends are married and they have kids. I don't let myself be pressured by it. I don't want to make comments about you and your marriage or set up whatever it is. Coz whatever i say or we say don't really matter. Don't worry. This too shall pass. and someday Everyone will smile at each other. :-)

  2. You are so sweet, and I felt your sincerity by leaving me this comment. Very few out there understand (to the bone) what I'm going through or how difficult it is, really. I am at loss for words, but do know that your comment made my day. I just hope I can get past through this like you did. Sobrang hirap... Hay.

    Thank you so much and God Bless. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

  3. Hi Abbie,

    You can go through this. and believe me when i say that you'll be so proud,fulfilled and happy after this ordeal. Know that you are not alone in this battle. You are loved. As of the moment I'm having my chemotheraphy because of stage 3 breast cancer. :) I thought for awhile he might visit me or even say Hi to me. But it did not happened. Hindi ko rin naman na ineexpect yun na mangyari. My point is, We don't know what will happen. kung happy ending ba or work in progress. for us. it was a failed relationship. sabi ng iba pwede raw maging friends? siguro Oo. pero parang hindi yata. you can be civil towards each other pero may iba LIKE ME. super cold. and i don't feel any hatred towards him. I still pray he finds the woman he is looking for or yung destined for him. Abbie, wag mong kakalimutan ang sarili mo. Importante yan. Mahalin mo. kahit madaming nagmamahal sayo. You still have to love, appreciate and forgive yourself. Stay beautiful :)

  4. Oh my gosh, Kristine. I was just back reading blog entries and then I found your reply to comment. How are you doing? I hope you're doing much, much better than I am these days. Please keep in touch with me.