Reality Check

I've been working since 2006. Worked in two different companies before landing a job in one of the best Offices in the Middle East. Worked there for five Years, before I ended up jobless a little over three weeks ago. 

I've been reflecting on what the experience was like, as a whole. In the other two companies I worked for, I barely stayed a year. I was always on the lookout for better opportunities, a greener grass (maybe a Garden or something). You'd understand why it was quite difficult for me to leave this one. My job was a mixture of hard and easy, stressful and stress-free. But it was the people I worked with that made letting it challenging. 

Then again, I knew I needed this break. Three weeks passed, and to be honest, it felt like a month (DUH, its close to a month, but you know what I mean). Then again, I knew I needed this break (repeat to self). 

Sometimes I feel like I'm on the brink of losing it because all I see are the confines of my flat on most days. I'd itch to go out with friends but when I'm out, I'd be itching to go home. I'm dealing with some serious shizz, that's for sure. 

One of the things keeping me sane is the fact that I know that God never left my side through all this. Even if I've been quite distant (again, not something to be proud of), its amazing how He's ALWAYS there. I've managed to stay calm through most of this by His grace. 

Also, I'm AMPED that I'll be heading to my dear Motherland (to stay for a month) in a few weeks. Oh my goodness, all the food I'd eat. ALL THE FREAKIN' FOOD. And to see my Family again, wow.

I'M SO EXCITED! And I feel so blessed. As much as I love it here... MANILA, I'M COMING HOME!

There's also something else I'm excited about. My superficial self is taking over and... okay, it won, sort of (but Ma, you'd be proud of my Restraining Powers, seriously). I'm going to do something very, very mature later. Something only my Superficial self dreamed about. Its really shallow but, I'm really happy that its finally happening. Huzzah!

Been testing the waters of Hosting recently. And boy oh boy is it not an easy thing to do. Being a Host has always been so challenging for me because I can't connect with people while I'm on stage. It feels like the Audience turns to crickets when I'm up there, mumbling.  I feel so small, smaller than an ant.

But, I'd like to share these photos with all y'all :

November 8, 2013 : Moneygram had this ah-mah-zing idea of bringing Robin Padilla to Jeddah (and renting out an entire Amusement Park to accommodate everyone for free!) to make our fellow Kababayans super happy (even just for a day). It was SO hard to keep my composure (let alone, utter a word) being less than a meter away from THE Binoe! His photos (as well as his appearance on screen) doesn't do him justice. Ang lakas ng Sex Appeal! And he is just the nicest. Describing him as such is an understatement. That photo was taken while I was singing the chorus of "Maging Sino Ka Man" to him. Well he sang "Wonderful Tonight" for me, I thought I should return the favor, ha ha! I keep looking back to that day wondering how I survived without falling on stage. (Photo Credit : Pinoy Tambayan)

November 22, 2013 : F.A.M.E., A Filipino Community in the MidEast held its third season of Western Region's Got Talent, and I was given the honor to be one of their Hosts. This is me and Sir Fred, who I shared the stage with that evening. We had a Production Number in the beginning of the show and yes, I was required to dance. Little did they know that it was my first time to dance in front of a large crowd. I lolled at myself while watching a footage earlier tonight. Dancing in four inch heels? CHALLENGE ACCEPTED! No wait, the challenge is actually "DANCING". (Photo Credit : Francis Anthony Jr.)

There's still so much to learn when it comes to Hosting (and not to mention, so much more kapal ng mukha to avail). Back in college, I was never really good with on-cam projects. I choose to hide behind it, armed with a pen and paper but hey - it doesn't hurt to try new things (and eventually love them later on).

That's it. It is now 5 minutes to 5 in the morning. Gotta get up in 4. 

God Bless you guys.

I missed talking to you like this.