My favorite version.
When you choose to ignore me, you know, one of the few times you do it on purpose,you make me feel like I am the biggest mistake you've ever made.And when that happens, I don't end up hating you, because I never can.But I end up hating myself.Because right now, I think of myself as someone who ruined your life.I think of myself as someone you wished you never met.I think of myself as someone you regret.I feel like you think of me as the Devil.Like all I ever do is bring you bad luck.And it is why you choose to stay away.It is why you choose to ignore me.But all I am, is just a girl.I'm just a girl who loves you.Do you want me to apologize for that?
"Its been over a week since my last post on Instagram. I guess you could say I've been living life. This self-imposed break came from the curiosity to see if I can actually do it, to move away from what I enjoy and what I'm used to, because changing the daily grind is not always easy can throw someone off-kilter. But I like to challenge my willpower and breath outside my comfort zone once in awhile. Like my wanting to abstain from eating mammal meat for a week turned into a commitment lasting more than 18 years. My desire to live clean- drug and cigarette free-has become a lifestyle. Never in my life have I EVER touched the stuff despite what other thought my high school and college years would do to me. Now lingering somewhere in my mid-thirties, I loved that I've proved them wrong. Oh and I quit drinking alcohol almost 10 years ago. Just like that. Cold turkey. Why am I telling you all this? Because it doesn't hurt to challenge yourself and make big changes in your life every now and then even if it makes you uncomfortable to do so. After all, nothing will change, if you don't change."