Word Vomit




(a.k.a. Things I chose not to say on Twitter due to unnecessary timeline flooding, also 140 characters. Thoughts gathered on a daily, maybe weekly basis. VERY Random.)

By the way, that's a photo I took of a page in my Journal a year ago. See, smoking is my utmost form of rebelling against the World. That night, I stayed outside, on the dusty balcony, sat down on a monobloc with both legs up, and smoked about 10 sticks straight. I gathered all the butts and stuck them on my journal, which I was also writing on that night as a reminder of how ... I was in a really bad place. I wish I could tell you everything. But let's not.


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My Tombstone shall read: "She loved everything" Because it's true. I do love everything. I've accepted that I can be, err am obnoxious. Although I probably won't need a tombstone as I do want to be cremated. Can it be engraved on a gold plate to be screwed to the urn, then? Also maybe I'll change my mind about the text later on. When I was 18, I wanted the words "Here Lies Love" to be tattooed on my lower back, and always thought it was a fitting phrase to be written on a Tombstone. It's very cheesy. But I am cheesy.


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Should I be proud of myself for never using the words "Bae", "MCM", "WCM", "Squad Goals", etca, etca, etca? Again, totally pulled a Morgan on you because I'm smarter than you might have thoughten. Also, RANDOM FACT, I was watching an old episode of Morning Girls (with Kris! And Korina!) on YouTube earlier during one of Heart-John and Echo-Tin's guestings back in 2003, and found out that EchoTin used "BAIH" as a term of endearment to each other. Very jologs lang ng spelling, but wow ha.


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My Tumblrfriends are so cool. I feel so intimidated talking to them even if I only get to do most of that on Twitter, because they're the coolest. I just wanted to say it out loud in written form : I put these guys on a pedestal. They're all intelligent and creative people. I can't help but feel like crass. They're as real as real gets, and they inspire me. I hope I won't be so nervous the next time we hang out. Here's to hoping they get to read this just so they won't wonder why I'm so weird and seemingly "not present" in our next hang-out. That's just me trying not to say something stupid in front of you all. I LOVE YOU GUYS. I'm so happy Tumblr lead me to you.


MY UH-MAH-ZING Tumblrfriends.
For real, I had separation anxiety from them that night -
 AND IT WAS MY FIRST TIME to hang out with them! 
Photos by Mij, of course.


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This Buzzfeed listicle gave me life, because I finally confirmed to myself that I am no longer an Ambivert. Full-on Introvert now, you guys! Everything hit home. I mean, c'mon. Number 2 says JOB INTERVIEWS? How about every conversation EVER?


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These days, my defense mechanism is no longer wallowing in self-pity. Believe me, IT IS A FORM OF DEFENSE MECHANISM in my book. Of course, there's still that, but reduced. HA. I'm more into ANGER now. It's sort of new for me? Because I don't really like feeling angry, because it's so stressful. BUT I feel like people around me have left me no choice, which is silly because there is always a choice, but trust me, I've tried them all. So far, it's going great for me. I thank the heavens for whispering this idea of resurrecting my blog because I HAVE A PERSONAL SPACE ON THE INTERNET WHERE I ACTUALLY HAVE THE RIGHT TO VOICE OUT MY FEELINGS AND NO ONE SHOULD GIVE A FLYING TOOT BECAUSE THEY ARE MY FEELINGS AND MINE ALONE.


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Chui tweeted about her Moon Sign last month. And I didn't even know that there was such a thing as a Moon Sign. I found out years ago that apart from my Zodiac Sign (I'm a Cancer, if it isn't obvious enough), I am also an Aquarian. I entered my day, time and month of birth on the Moon Sign Calculator, and what zodiac sign comes as a result? AQUARIUS. And I'm psyched because Heart is an Aquarian. We have many things in common, not just the two moles on and on the side of our noses. Apart from this, I've taken a number of quizzes on Buzzfeed (which is very legit and which I take VERY SERIOUSLY), and when it comes to Zodiac-related quizzes, they often result with me being an Aquarian. Most of my traits these days make me an Aquarian. And I am very happy sharing this piece of information to you about myself. Basically, the Moon was in Aquarius at my time of Birth. The Moon happens to be Cancer's planet so there you go. But I don't know, I'm just trying to be Sherlock here which made me arrive to that conclusion.

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I don't know if I've stressed enough that I come from a family of Hoarders. I wish I could show you what my flat looks like, but I don't really want to have to come to that. There are some things you should really keep to yourself. But maybe I'll show you a couple of corners? Lol?


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Was forced to watch a Football Match with my boys this week, I think it's starting to grow on me? Oh dear, what is happening.


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Raleene snapped a photo of the Moleskine Diary that I want! I'm so jealz! I want it!


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Guys, there is a number of Drafts I have so far, all lined up to be published. I'm just SO HAPPY that I decided to go back to this. Obviously, this post is proof enough how cluttered my mind is. Do you know, that in between typing this post, I have three other tabs opened, and I would alternately type here, and then there, and in the other one, then the other one. Because dammit.


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